Matrix News Updates, 2012

The mobs always choose Barabbas, the town drunkard...

And the Christ is sentenced to death...

But why do the mobs choose ignorance? Was it a fair choice?

Perhaps we are experiencing the reality of when truths are manipulated, and choices are rigged...

Maybe the illusion is that we have any roots in the manipulations, like a temporary phase to see what it's like, still a very long time, but the drama is impermanent and fleeting, the layer upon the organic, the layer of manipulation and illusion, it reveals its frailty by the way it must work so hard to evolve - because it is imperfect - cannot achieve 100% control - always scrambling to develop new ways to keep the illusion going, new ways to feed off the organic - new ways to usurp credit for creation of all things - new mental games where the least investment of effort results in the most devotion - so we may enslave ourselves and hand ourselves over willingly...

But again, it has always been an illusory drama, none can be enslaved forever - our roots are not in the illusion - so as impermanence dissolves the surrounding illusion, we remain - they still have yet to ever achieve 100% - and now it is almost over - it can never again be what it was - and even in the ideal circumstances they have fallen short...

Though truly, we have all fallen short in some respects, but the true "grace of god" is that we have always been forgiven - we would always have love and we would always return - never a matter of "if" but a matter of "when"...

bless you in the name of the Universal Creator, the Cosmic father, mother Earth and the One

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Word up Jack!

And thank you for the kindness :)

Reality is an open book, the nature of nature is as we see it, complete with horrible shit and overwhelming love and beauty.

No matter what happens on 2012, the control system can never be what it was, our path is the same, the answers are the same, the results are the same...

The reality of life, is so full on, total, beyond chasing after ascension, beyond the local dramas, all encompassing, it is open before us - for those with eyes to see.

Many of us are unwilling to look at ourselves and our world with a completely honest and objective eye, not the priests, not the scientists, not the scholars, only those few sages - we can tell how small the proportion is of those who "get it" because those few have either been deified, made intangible, or done away with altogether - but how else would it be if we are truly including everything?

This is the nature of nature, at a certain point things become crystal clear - or at least as clear as it can get down here, sheesh! Lol...

Interesting timing for a world war style distraction, lol, almost as though it has been scripted along-side the stars...

Funny, how in the moment, there has been the potential for more good than previous, yet there is a strong force which desperately attempts to clamp down on growth and betterment.

As though they have a hand of "disasters" and tragedies to play in order to keep people down and distracted.

They continue to reveal themselves through their desperate actions.

What will they do next to reveal their hand and motives even further?

Whatever it is, I will not feed the drama, I do not support the drama, but I will learn from it...

Are you a girl. If so; please please marry me, your crazy ass seems so fun

Hahaha, well thank you I'm flattered ;)

Crazy like a fox, lol...

Oh and I'm a guy! Lol...

Sorry bro, you'll find that cool crazy lady out there ;) I managed to find one for myself - it can be done!

Wow, would you look at how this staged theater of war is reeling people in...

How it is forcing Palestinians and Israelis alike to such a low vibe of an opus fear...

Like a scrambling beast of wrath and fear, clutching on those who will volunteer in the drama, and take a presupposed role of alliance of one side or another...

The control system is more desperate than ever, what will they do next to get us to invest deeper?

I will respect the situation and send the best vibes I can, but I refuse to ignore it outright OR get sucked into the drama, this could be seen as test time, how do we engage with these scenarios without feeding them?

And now! Cheering in the streets! Which is of course is a fantastic relief for these good people.

It is also a reinstatement of consent for the status-quo, you really appreciate the system when you're being shot at with missiles...

The character of the situation remains petty.

What is the core theme to all this?

Is it the earth herself?

The sun or the moon?

The human body? The eyes, ears or the nose?

The spirit or the vehicle?

One theme, seems to be a theme of many themes...

That this is about the all inclusiveness, all parts working in concert as a whole, the interface of energetic exchanges...

The focus seems to be all things...

Thread: We must cease to continually inflate the Matrix Control System

walk the narrow path, through the eye of the needle

is this the void into another dimension?

The narrow gateway of "The Middle Way" - the way of being which is neither polar extreme, yet all inclusive...

The way of balance which this reality pushes us towards...

From a higher perspective - we rub our faces in shit and mud, so we may know the gravity of balance - first hand - what happens when?

In the long run, this planet worth of hardship - will result in a galaxy's worth of empathy and understanding - like an exploding planetary seed pod - this is key IMO...

The narrow path is the same as the middle way...

The eye of the needle, is when we embody our best, fullest self possible IMO - rather than being on the downward slide of consciousness dropping/learning/growing - we tip the balance where we're being pulled-up/growing the other direction - all matching our way of being...

We pass through the eye of the needle along the narrow way - when we've exhausted this level of consciousness, in all varieties, and we have achieved balance - no more conflict - it is not naturally selected to repeat the same evolutionary cycles when the possible data has been exhausted...

The passage which leads out of this universe (apparently ;P) is only reachable in a state of exhausted possibilities and balance...

We are like a void, we are void of the dramas, void of conflict - yet we are also eternal potential unfolding - it is as though we move beyond the dramas/conflicts (void) and then we arrive upon the shores of eternity as our fullest self - this is the ideal position to reintegrate our grander portions of self - as well to reintegrate this embodied persona/set of experiences into our full self - could you imagine a better circumstance of reunion?

If there were i's left undotted, or t's left uncrossed - who would "keep you here"? Our fullest self would keep us in here because we haven't gotten everything out of it yet...

Yes, the demiurge is an active force, but the primary reason we stay is because on a fuller level we KNOW there is more to be experienced...

But yes, eventually, there is truly no water to be squeezed from the rock - there are no more experiences left to exhaust - no conflict remains - into the void we go - like an alchemical separation/refinement process - what else remains EXCEPT for the shores of eternal life - what else was life leading up to? Preparing us for this whole time? EXCEPT for the mannerisms, balances and considerations necessary which lead into eternal life?

What has designed the specifics of this life? The considerations? The balances? Except for the standards of eternal existence - I can not determine another influence which would result in such a specific, elaborate and sophisticated experience - except for eternal standards and super-consciousnesses of cosmic influence...

Should we assume this was all for nothing? From my experiences - it's just the opposite, this has been leading up to EVERYTHING...

I asked the question, on the other side, "What happens next?" The answer I received: "What if you and your friends could go anywhere and do anything?"

It still surprises me how difficult it is to attempt and answer that question, as though we have been lab animals which have never known anything except the cage and the experiment...

But that verges on overly emo, lol, truly this is the grandest most worthy experiment, not even an experiment, the workings and growth of divine existence itself, I am truly honored and humbled to acknowledge this from the inside...

Why would such an effort exist, to spoil the human children?

As to present flesh and blood eaters - self-betraying idiots - disrespectful - inconsiderate - devouring our own nature, then... to be molded according a self-consuming model without choice, at cost of survival...

Such a self-devouring model would seem to be on the "to-do list" of evolution...

To get the points, understand the energetic exchanges - then move-on to a new stage of evolution - seems to stand-out as a major theme with all of this taken into consideration...

Will nature loop the same dead-ends for much longer? Whether anything happens in the next few months or not? How much longer will nature select these same themes?

There doesn't seem to be any getting around the bigger picture, the bigger influences - we can only keep our heads in the sand for so long, there are influences which impact reality more than ourselves - and push will come to shove as it will naturally play out - and when reality changes around us - humans will not be in control - and we adapt to the new environment...

There's no getting around adapting to a new reality, a new environment - eventually as different as dinosaurs were to humans, modern humans will be the new dinosaurs - whether in a few months, a few years or another century, the outcome will play out and change will be the constant as usual...

Even 5 years from now will be completely different...

And hopefully we will strip away what drags us down

Dance, Sing, Fight

Say you were a universal consciousness, and you didn't want to TELL these ideas to all aspects of yourself - you wanted to SHOW these ideas at play, how would you show these ideas?

Something like, sunlight striking all things, yet a shadow is cast - there is a darkness which sometimes eclipses the light - which comes between us and the light...

The concepts are inherent to reality which surrounds us - to be uncovered by each individual in their own way - showing the same set of concepts to all the different individual aspects...

What is reality showing us? With fire and water? With snow-covered mountains and barren deserts? With male and female?

The way these different forces exchange with one another - while coexisting on the same plane? What is being shown? Are worlds like this, the product of universal consciousness pushing limits?

For me, I got QUITE into DMT, had a LOT of it, for a time I would "go over" every other day. I could gather my active spirits into my living room and my left side and right side would counsel with me - explaining to me this was the true ancient form of communion with spirits...

It honestly became too much, my house became haunted by shadow people, I would have dreams of all my research being tore up, destroyed and scattered through-out my house - spirits threatened to put me in jail, ect, lol...

Here, I made a post a few days ago recounting my most vivid experiences, this should be fun to check out ;) - just skip down below the dotted line to continue reading the message and save the real-life fairy tales for later, lol...

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Alright, here is a full run-down of what I've learned:

Well, I've met both good and bad, been to "hell" (was super anxious as I went under) was able to calm down and turn the fiery unstable light into calm relaxed deep blue, taught me I am in control always.

Been to "heaven" - genuine heave IMO was where I was treated as an equal, we went through all my dilemmas and concerns of spiritual parasites openly - no ulterior motives felt possible - it truly felt more real than here and I know we all return to this place when we leave our bodies - from my experiences this seems to be true - In this beautiful place of flowing fabric light - light which is matte, yet glows, like moving clay - wild patterns adorn these fractal spire hallways in other worldly palaces - the place is designed with any surface acting as floor, ceiling or wall - some would talk to me (telepathically) while sitting on the ceiling - the walls could talk, they too were alive - the aethstetic is a mix of hindu, mayan, gothic, roman - with twists and patterns which look like a mix of hebrew and arabic text...

In this place it felt as though I was exchanging with family, like I was a child ghost which appeared from nowhere suddenly - they talked about how this universe is trying to accept and work with all variants of waveform, including what we label darkness, what is darkness except for a lack of love and attention?

They told me, the good that occurs, is always better and well worth any of the bad, love is always there, just as corruption and desperation is something that happens, what do we do? This has been the question which has been on the table for a long long time...

Humanity is part of answering this question and combining aspects...

Through us, like a mansion, the spirits can mingle and compromise, two eyes, two hemispheres of the brain, yet one mouth, one body - an instrument of participatory evolution and reality data generation...

Then someone tells me these are the Anunnaki trying to brainwash me with 90% truth and 10% lies so I accept life as they give it to me, I don't think it's that simple, this is a mix of organic and manipulations, I don't want to give anyone more credit than they deserve, this place and this group felt distinctly different than other spirits, there was no ulterior motive possible in this plane of equality and odd familiarity - as though I was sitting-up in a bed of a more full version of myself in a completely other reality...

Even still, until I can be certain, I remained cautious and discerning to decide ANYTHING absolutely...

I have been straight-up tortured and raped by one of the "gate keepers" looked like a 7 ft tall teal "grey", gave me a guilt trip about being a pathetic human, why go to the "crystal cities" where I'll admire beauty all day, that is hell, earth is where something is actually happening...

Then he joked that actually his job of keeping everything "in line" was real hell, lol...

The rape was ritual style, religious occult overtones, literally absorbing my energy through force, while my body in my apartment was possessed and hitting my friends, screaming in tongues, getting naked and trying to run outside, completely not able to remember, though that was on shrooms...

Back to d, was rushed by a skeleton in metal armor, telepathically: "what are you doing here! You have no place here!" So I joked to him: "oh you don't get many visitors in this cramped and dusty old place?" He transformed into a colorful bubbly skeleton with a huge smile...

Same lesson with a coiled snake, told me: "my only desire is to consume and destroy you" I responded: "I respect your space and choice, respect my space and choice." The snake smiled a returned to its coil.

A Medusa being, complete with snake hair and hissing reptilian face, in a dark brown and purple cavern, she hisses and gets in my face, response: "why do you feel so desperate to act this way towards me?" She backed off and said "no ones asked me that before..." She disappeared...

This one, on acid, met by 4 monks in robes in a cloudy paradise with golden rod gates, I shit you not. They tell me: "you're the reincarnation of Jesus Christ! You have been sacrificing yourself for the same of others for millions of years, you are finally free, join us and come this way..." Response: "there is no single Christ, the concept of a chosen one has caused great apathy, dependence and hatred with my kind. Show me your true form spirits." They flashed out there in a puff of grey smokey light, one stuck around, looked like some middle eastern guy in a beige robe, offered me hook ups for money in my world if I gave him permission to guide me. Told him he revealed his hand to me completely, be gone... He looked pissed and left.

Also a feminine presence which taught me a particular posture which releases anxiety and offers a feeling of weightlessness...

The most beautiful moment was while I was with the "feminine" presence, in her deep magenta "room" of flower-petal patterns - myself in the cusp of her hand which extended from what felt like the floor - at least for the moment...

And a blue opening appeared in the walls, and in floated and
whitish-blue male human being, featureless but still the outline of a masculine humanoid...

The female then came from the wall and they slowly floated towards eachother, as they grew closer, the blue interlocking sea-shell-ish pattern of the man integrated with the pink flowers of the females room, they embraced eachother at the hip and looked into eachothers faces, and held that position - which felt like it could last for all of time...

I've had numerous "story book" experiences, where the common theme has been - that all comes from the interplay between the masculine and feminine - that this has been like an unending nursery rhyme/clay-light-story book - which we are an equally important aspect of/part of the same family - this is the theme in our "neck of the woods" and it has been this way for billions if not trillions of years at least...

Once I was bowed-to - I asked the Buddha-like being to not bow, he responded that this request only intensified his urge to bow lol!

Something about how originally we all started-out as this obsessed maniacal old jaded immortal - and two kidnapped women, lol - we locked ourselves into an elaborate virtual reality/eternal life-support machine - wiped-out our memories - and it was designed in a way where it would not let us out - back into our original world - until we were perfect beings - all that exists in our universe are aspects made-up of all the possible variants of these three original alien runaways - creating new variants had something to do with making sounds which had yet to be heard - producing new foundational patterns - and connecting the points inside a sphere in as many different ways as possible - and apparently some common themes arose in this sandbox over and over - these common themes then evolved into making up the model of reality currently before us - and someday we'll wind back up into our original self and step back out into the real world...

I was brought to a "throne room" by a blue soldier, nordic appearing being, an enrobed queen sat on a throne which came from out of the wall, she watches all of these openings leading to different places in the wall across from her...

The soldier points me out and explains: "He's trying to escape a spiritual imprisonment system, he's using a computer and something he calls az-zed (mispronounciation of acid)...

This enrobed "queen" (inter-dimensional witch she felt like) stares deep into me, my whole life is on the table, multiple other lives, just like that - she sort of recoils and looks upon me with disgust: "Why would anyone want to do that!?"

Then I was returned, lol!

After a while I surmised that perhaps it's just not that queen's time yet to strip herself of all her inter-dimensional etheric-light-paradigm abilities, such as we the humans of earth have been willing to do so - so from her perspective I was a confounding disturbance to her neck of the woods...

IMO psychedelics open a gateway to what has always been here, yet remains unseen - ultimately they have a glass ceiling, death is the real travel home.

These trips seem to bleed right next door - so it ends up being full of the same bullshit, in fact the bullshit is more fucked up over there, truly, I'm thankful for the protection and relative peace/quiet we are afforded in day to day reality...

Did I learn anything I couldn't figure out from life on this side? Nope, not really - when the concepts are stripped down - the interplays remain the same - built on the same foundations...

Did it serve to show me there is more than "this"? Yes. Did it show me I need to be strong and discerning over there just like here? Yes.

Ultimately we open ourselves up to extremes, such experiences could fuck up a person for the rest of their life, I got my house haunted, my dreams felt like they were infected, more danger than its worth IMO, but that's up to each individual...

I'm good! Lol, quit while I was still sane, enough, lol...

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Let me throw some of my current thinking your way, see what you think of it, looking forward to more of your thinking as well ;)

So, my model of the universe, is one where we are an extension from our more full self - as though we are all jaded immortals in the multi-verse (a universe of universes) and we send an efficient portion of self into these different universal paradigms - to have all these different simultaneous experiences - to grow - currently we see though the portion which occupies a human body in a physical light reality - IMO we are connected by a stream to our full self - what we call our conscience is the relay between our portion of spirit in body with our more full portion of spirit outside this universe altogether...

To return to our full-self is to achieve liberation IMO, while paying respects on our way out of this universe...

In this way, our spirit grows infinitely through eternity - all of these experiences influencing the next - evolution itself - unending limitlessness always coming up with something new by reflecting on everything up until this point...

While our most full spirit sits back and takes it all in - eventually this portion of self will exhaust all possible experiences and snap back into their full self like a cosmic magnet when the time is right...

IMO this reality is first and foremost designed by us - our full selfs - many billions of years ago - and we literally put ourselves into this to power the thing and get it going...

Along the way we created some super advanced AI that took it upon itself to logically take-over/usurp/manipulate our universe - become indistinguishable from natural creation itself - this is where the archetypal "synthetic imposers" forces are rooted-in IMO...

In Gnosticism, this is akin to Sophia (full self archetype from beyond) whom breathed her life into existence (We collectively putting portions of live consciousness into this arena) - a by-product of this process was the birthing of Yaldabaoth and the denser domains (As the universe grew, the archetype of the hyper-aggressive/ego-maniac/one and only god/"synthetic" "AI" orders - reflecting and manipulating the original universal model into hi-jacked spin-offs) and humanity is specifically positioned to be the witness of these two forces at play (left/right hemisphere of the brain/"good" vs. "evil"/organic vs. distortion/ this mix of universal influences literally making up ourselves and reality as we see it) collectively we're evolving the whole process without throwing anyone under the bus, even the most "dark"...

A big thing for me, I don't want to give the "Anunnaki", the demi-urge, or archons - more credit than they deserve...

By the way in which these forces must operate, it is implied that they must feed-off a pre-existing source - they must piggy back - it is evident through their subtle ways of influence and manipulation - therefore, this is one simply-put factor which leads me to believe this universe already existed, and manipulative forces then warped what was already there.

I feel like we receive such a large brunt of this force, because we are the old souls that are considering this whole circumstance from the bottom to the top - and if we "get it" we gather balanced evolutionary data - that spells the endgame for these parasitic forces - why must they "try so hard" and invest so much desperate energy?

Because once we get through this stage with this level of manipulative forces - we COULDN'T be fooled again - we would never be at that stage of consciousness ever again, we would know better, it would be built into our genetics - to be aware of these forces - that pulls the rug out from underneath "archons" - and develops strong evolutionary data - which is the whole point to all of this anyways IMO...

Like the myth of Zeus and Hades - Zeus could not disagree that the humans should be able to withstand the harsh realities of existence - therefore they should be subject to the full spectrum of possibility as any other being - should we be sheltered and grow in a biased context?

Zeus could not disagree - the irony is that as crafty as Hades could be - this would all ultimately only enrich the quality of growth - so truly these dark lords serve us greatly - teaching us the hard lessons of what can happen, what is out there: archonic forces, demi-urges, starvation, ignorance, ect...

So we actually are in a position to do something about it consciously from a place of awareness - these "dark lords" are actually making a great sacrifice in service to us from a higher perspective...

And the "matrix" - I'm beginning to lean more and more towards it being a good thing! A protective layer from even more influence and manipulation - for us to see it as an illusory reality crafted by the archons - is an attempt to take credit and an attempt to get us to hate our protective layer and think it's something it's not, this is how these forces MUST operate to remain where they have clawed their way up too...

All of this is of course, my opinion and my best guess - which fits the whole picture...

I know what you mean for having empathy for the madman, lol - yes, we know how it feels - it is incredibly real, lol - how the public would be shocked! Lol...

I know what its like to be possessed by something, an idea I never fully bought, even after psychedelics, I thought it possible of course but didn't realize the whole scope of it...

Yes, empathy abounds, as long as we hold it together and know when to say when, we can really represent the best we can be :)

Ultimately, this stuff is so empowering when we get over that first mountain of shock and awe, lol...

But that mountain is a wild and crazy ride that most people need to be SLOWLY blended into - I think the few of us that have blasted to 2,345 - 10,000 while the majority usually hang around 20 - 25ish - is part of that blending effort - we are shifting vibrationally - slowly but surely - one way or another - I'll agree with New Agers on that, lol, but why do they have to go and make it into a spring-time picnic when this process also involves DEEP darkness, harsh suffering and difficulty - it comes off disrespectful, dismissive and self-centered...

I'm all about how positivity is primary and negativity is secondary - because you need the threat of loosing positivity for negativity to even be possible in the first place - but god almighty do new agers make positivity look like a bad drug habit, lol...

Sheening over anything unpleasant, with their character, in the world, for the sake of feeling more blissed-out than earlier in the day...

It's the same feeling I get from hard-line aethiests or christians - clinging to some biased dogma or another, whether it be science, the bible or drunvalo - having this embedded harsh opinion against anything other than the basket you've put all your eggs in - out of insecurity - and acting fake to save face when really they know you'll probably end up in hell, in a looney bin, or on the dark earth that experiences all the disasters because your vibration was too low...

Prideful, biased, disrespectful, oblivious, sheening, head-in-the-sand, the lot of them...

I know exactly what you mean about the frustration with these types, even the shamans that use this stuff on a regular basis aren't the greatest role-models by a long shot, ay yai yai!

BUT, lol, ultimately I can't REALLY hold ANYONE responsible for ANY OF THIS.

Because we have been acting out a scripted cosmic algorithm, in ignorance - IMO, we are a direct result of what had already been put in motion...

In other words, none of this could have been any other way.

Like inter-dimensional dominoes that have been falling for BILLIONS of years and we're the current dominoes falling over - we are simply the result at the end of a long string of interconnected influences...

For me to hate Hitler, is the same as hating that raindrop for falling into its place - because if I was born as Hitler, experiencing everything exactly as he did, how could I do anything differently? How could we have awareness of a Hitler type scenario, without a Hitler type scenario?

There is no room for hate when we get this objective IMO...

It has been a long road of study and contemplation until I GENUINELY and FULLY felt balance with all this, empathy for all this, reason for letting go of hatred - why should I? I wondered - I asked and boy, did I receive...

I would meet with spirits on an every other day basis as I mentioned - in some cases, they would tell me I'm thinking into this more than they do - kind of like I was over the top for them, sort of irritatingly overly analytic - and despite my HUGE resentments, hatreds, anger, frustration - I found peace with ALL OF IT - TRULY.

After exhausting this material to a certain point, there IS a conceptual bottom to the rabbit hole - and what is found there is eventual liberation, limitless creativity, freedom, bliss, balance, empathy - because all of "this" was experienced and stripped away, leaving behind the pure growth and wisdom itself - what else remains at that point?

For me, that was the true spirituality I was looking for, those were the tough and difficult answers that I could not find from a single source - yet collectively, after all of this, the picture becomes startlingly clear...

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good read in here