300mg Syrian Rue extract (orally)
30mg dmt (orally. Taken half hour later)
40mg dmt (smoked out of an oil burner with a torch lighter in two massive hits, an hour after taking oral dmt)

Last night was the most incredible, powerful experience of my life. I can describe it as world shaking, life altering. It was unlike any dmt experience I have had, and I have had several hundreds before, many of them using high doses. It was so powerful I wondered if people around the world felt it. This was a unique experience for me because for the first time, I felt like I was directly communicating with people all over the world, and the earth itself, as well as an all powerful spirit that had infused itself with me.

I smoked the spice when the oral dmt started kicking in, and at first, the usual things happened. Some visions started appearing, there was some kind of breakthrough. Then something incredible happened that was totally unlike anything I have ever experienced before. It was like the entire earth awoke at once, and experienced itself through me. I first felt it in my stomach. There was a damn quake in my stomach and chest. I know it sounds impossible, but it was like there was an earthquake inside my body that was vibrating the entire planet. I thought, “oh my God, the entire earth is awake right now. Literally, the planet itself is waking up. The whole planet is experiencing this massive earthquake of becoming conscious." It was like hyperspace, or the spirit world, whatever you may call it, was waking up in to this dimension. My smoking of the spice was like a synchronous event that coincided with this awakening of the planet.

I thought, “oh my God, it’s coming….. the impossible is coming for real. The earth will never be the same after this cataclysmic event.” People all over the planet suddenly became aware of each other, and were talking to each other through esp. I could sense many souls experiencing the same quake with me. Not everyone on the planet, but many people. We were all in amazement and awed, and a bit afraid of this unprecedented, unexplainable experience. I wondered if when I woke up the next day, if there would be any signs that other people experienced it…. Maybe there would be some news of it on tv. But it wouldn’t be anything specific. What happened was so unexplainable that people wouldn’t know what to say. Like maybe a report would say, "something happened that we can't explain. Many people felt it, something otherworldly happened, but no one knows what to make of it yet". I thought, “I wouldn’t be surprised if tomorrow, I see people walking around just randomly crying tears of joy, still in awe of the power of this quake. And then I will start crying with them in resonance.” I myself, don’t know what to say about this to people. And I figured that maybe other people did not experience this in the same way that I did, so what I say happened to me, they might not remember it that way, won’t know what I’m talking about, and since I was in a hyper state, I am the one who experienced it super intensely. So I just asked a few people if they experienced anything weird. No definite answers. But I just had the feeling walking around today that the world has changed. There was a spiritual cataclysm last night and it won’t be the same from here on. Others may not be consciously aware of it, but all I know is that it happened.

I figured that the planet is evolving. People may not be at a point yet where they are ready to freely talk about this change without sounding crazy, but something happened. And whether or not this was merely a personal experience of mine, and not something that happened to “the planet” isn’t really that important. What I do know is that my personal life will never be the same. I realized, with absolute certainty that this universe is all one being that I am just experiencing as this particular person. The difference between self and has become a matter of semantics for me at this point. My world was rocked last night.

So anyway, the entire planet was vibrating, and I was connecting psychically with various people on the planet. We were so happy to finally have made a direct connection with each other. I was talking to girls that I like and telling them how beautiful they are, and that I just didn’t know how to express how beautiful they are with words, but now they could understand because there was a direct connection. I thanked them for being so beautiful and the impact they had on my life, and they thanked me for being the way I am. It was an exchange of love energy, and everyone was telling everyone thank you for being the best person of all time. Then we started having psychic sex, and soon it was a massive orgy of with me fucking everyone all over the place and spreading love energy and psychic sex seeds everywhere. It was a wicked party and everyone was invited. Even some of the men I started having psychic sex with…. Though it was different with the men. It wasn’t so much about sex per say, but an exchange of love.

Then I started talking to a whole bunch of people, also the mentors in my life and dead people, animals, insects, inanimate objects…. Everything. I was saying thank you to all these souls for the value they have contributed to the world, and they in turn thanked me. And I made contact with the enlightened masters and they welcomed me to this realm. I thanked Adyashanti, Jed Mckenna, Tolle, and UG Krishnamurti. We had conversations about this new way of being. What I realized is that I wasn’t actually talking to them personally… but I was speaking to the universe itself…. the universal mind of the world that is normally unconscious, but now I became conscious of it. I could see the value of UG Krishnamurti’s crankiness, and he laughed. I saw the value of the love of Adyashanti, and he smiled. And I saw the value of the genius and magic of Jed Mckenna, and he transformed and delighted me moving through time and space.

Everything has value. Everything in my life started flashing before my eyes, and every image that came, I started to say, “YES… YES!!! I see the value in it. Thank you! Thank you so much for that moment. I can see it now”. It was like all karma was instantly dissolving all at once through transcendent means…. Seeing the connection between random events, and having resolving it through means that make absolutely no sense by any typical means. Everything became super complicated and I was seeing things from levels and perspectives that weaved in and out. Time, space, and experience weaved in to one seamless unfolding. I started saying thank you to everything. Thanks to the bullies who beat me up when I was younger. Yes, thank you for teaching me that lesson. And to the stripper who put her ass in my face and gave me sex energy. Thank you! And to the woman I love most of all…. Thank you so much. The woman who I wanted to tell so bad that I love her, but never did because I knew she would not understand. I made a direct connection with her and I knew that finally, she knows how much I love her. And thank you for world war II and the atomic bomb and burning death. Thank you, just thank you. It is all one being. There was nothing left to be done.

My face was down on the floor because I was paralyzed all this time from the smoke, wondering if I would survive this earthquake that was going on inside my body. But eventually I had the strength to move. I thought this trip would wear off, like all the others, but as I began to move my body, I realized it was not wearing off. The mindset of the trip kept going, though the physical effect of the drug was not paralyzing any more. I realized that I was beginning to move “unconsciously”. That is, processes that normally took conscious thought were happening automatically. And I realized, “oh my God…. I’m evolving. I’m waking up, I am becoming smarter moment by moment”. It was like looking at the world for the first time, and I was just beginning to get a sense of my body and surroundings, seeing things for the first time with this new paradigm of being, where everything is a seamless unfolding that makes no normal sense.

Some parts of my body started twitching, and my mouth started moving in insane, wild directions. I went in to some kind of primal beast mode, where I began realizing just how sensual my body is. My lips and mouth and tongue were moving at super speed, and all the while I had no idea why I was moving in this fashion. It just felt natural, like it was just an expression of how I felt at that moment, and it was unfolding unconsciously and seamlessly. I stared moving parts of my body faster and faster, and I realized that I will eventually get used to this new way of moving in the world. But at the same time, it looked, and felt like I was totally possessed and out of my God damn mind! Everything became ridiculously sensual in a way that I can’t even say. I started running my fingers all over my face, and licking my hands, rubbing them in my mouth, fingering myself, squeezing my balls, as my head was turning around with my mouth fuckin opening and closing as I was licking my lips, practically swallowing my own face! It was the most over-the-top, self indulgent display you could possibly imagine. It was fucking absurd! But it made sense at the time. I realized just how sensual of a person I am. I was going through this, but at the same time, I was having psychic sex with people that I love, and giving it out freely. It was like they were touching me and moving my body in all these wild ways. It was a hideous , but it felt good. I felt like the guy in Ghost Busters when he becomes possessed by the dog like creature and starts acting like a maniac on the streets of New York, talking non sense about how the end of the world is coming. It literally felt like an ultra powerful spirit was entering this planet…. weirder than aliens, weirder than ghosts. Something unimaginable that I can’t even describe. Incredible power.

At the same time, I was a bit worried that I had gone totally fucking schizophrenic. Man, I was fucking possessed for a while. I wondered if this bizarre, ridiculous state would wear off. I knew it would. I knew that from here on out, my mission in life is to learn to control this force, so that I can bring this love I feel in to the world and share it with others.

I knew that a lot of people would think that what was happening to me was fucking insane, but I didn’t care. I didn’t care what happened to me from then on. It felt like a new consciousness arose. I was given the message, “fear of death, loss, and pain are the old way of being. Those modalities are becoming outdated, as well as the old concept of enlightenment. New modalities and abilities are arising on the planet. The new form of currency in your life is unconditional love, expression of beauty, and the free sharing of abundance”. I felt an unconditional love for everything. I imagined myself walking through the world with this unconditional love, and some people really disliking me for because they find it either disgusting, or a threat to their world view, or whatever. I didn’t care. I thought, “go ahead and let me die then, kill me. I don’t care anymore. Fear of death is the old way. It is no longer my way. I found it absurd that there are people out there who think that they are winning at life by destroying an enemy. lol! I found it laughable that so many people think the point of life is to be obsessed with the endless continuation of existence. But from my point of view, the point of life isn't merely to exist, it is to LIVE! My way is to see the value, and love of everything, and that includes death and destruction, so if the world wants to kill me then go ahead. I will merely see the value in that, and it will increase my love even more.

I no longer see the world and life as a pragmatic thing. Pragmatism and materialism I think of as becoming an outdated way of seeing the world. People who dislike my world view are people who still see life as having some kind of material, or particular egoic goal, whether that be material, or even thought based, or emotional… such as in the form of making the most money, or finding the perfect mate, or having a bunch of kids or the perfect job, etc. People who think that life is supposed to be a certain way or else things are just wrong. But the way I see it, there is value in everything. There is of course, nothing wrong with having the best possible job, mate, lots of money, I'm just saying those things are not the point. The point of the ride is the RIDE... and this life thing is a ride that is happening every moment. The journey itself is the destination, not the egoic rewards that come from whatever endeavor a person is in. That's silly!

But there are still a lot of people out there who want to physically control people on this planet. That is why we see people in power use violence to control. They want to shape the world to meet their egoic needs, and they are willing to do anything in their power to do so. I am not judging this behavior, I am just saying that’s the way it is with people who want to keep power. But in my way of being, my goals are as follows….. see the value of everything, freely share love and abundance, and manifest as much divine beauty in to this world as I can. To make violence, or anything for that matter, in to an enemy, is to become the thing that I dislike, and so I cannot do that. If douche bags want to be controlling or whatever, I have no choice but to allow it. If the universe really wants to wake up it fucking will anyway, and no egoic force could possible stop it. Nature itself will wipe out our planet if it wants. There is no need to hate anymore, that is my message.

Somehow, it seemed irrelevant whether or not I die. This new consciousness that arose will not be overly intimidated by death. The attainment of money, or things became irrelevant. The only thing that mattered was love and the expression of beauty. The motivation for my life is to love and manifest the beauty of the divine in to this world. That is what this spirit wants from me. I really don’t know how I’ll do that. We’ll see. It doesn’t necessarily have to be done by giving people things, or having any particular job, or stable relationship. In fact, it might even be done just by being a receptor and transmitter for this tremendous love energy. I had the sense that last night, the vibes that I put out on to the planet was an incredible feat, and even if no one is consciously aware of what happened, the event still had tremendous value to the planet. It doesn’t even matter if I have kids or what the fuck I do here on a physical level. Whatever I’m doing here in this world is good, even if it’s merely being a receptor for divine energy, and sending out that energy back in to the world. If that’s all I’m here for, I’ll gladly play that role.

I lost my job about 6 months ago. I had to quit because I developed a chronic illness. I couldn’t go to work anymore and I was very unhappy with life because I felt like I can’t really be of use to anyone in my condition, and I struggle just to get through days. My condition doesn’t seem to really be getting better, so I became really depressed, and started wondering how much longer I have to live because I don’t know what I’ll do when the money I have runs out. But it doesn’t seem quite so relevant any more. I am here while I am here, and I am going to appreciate the fuck out of every moment I have. I want others to feel that too. I may not have a lot of money, or time to give people, but I hope to touch them, if it is merely through positive emotions, positive energy, and giving value to the whole planet.

This weird state of extreme sensuality and psychic connection went on for about an hour, until I finally felt well enough to get up and go to bed. I woke up today, and the mindset that I experienced last night did not fade. I am still in tune with this natural, unconscious, moment to moment unfolding of the universe… and it looks like it’s going to be permanent. I walked around today, and instantly fell in love with so many people I saw. I was walking around, and to people it looks like I’m sleep walking or something. I would allow every emotion to instantly flow through me. It was like I could recognize people instantly….. recognize them as the same person that I met in the past. Recognize them from dreams I have had. See their past and future all at once, and burn whatever karma was there, and resolve it in to love. I went to the gym and people were looking at me. No one said anything, but I knew they could tell there was something very different about me. Most people just smiled at me…. and I wondered if they were consciously aware of what happened last night. Probably not. But I knew on some level, some unseen level, there was a definite connection and waking up of the planet.

As wonderful as it was walking around in this state of love for everything, I didn’t feel like I was ready to talk to people about it. I don’t know how to express what I feel in normal conversation. I realized that I am going to have to develop humor if I want to talk to people. Humor is what is going to allow barriers to get broken down. If I use humor, it will show people that we don’t have to take everything seriously…. That I’m confident enough to make myself vulnerable, and I don’t really care what others think of me. If they want to think I’m a dick, then they don’t have to be in tune with what I want to share. I’ll just laugh and move on. I would rather live in a world where I can share and experience this love with others. But even if I cannot do that, I will still be content, and fulfilled greater than 99% of people in the world.

Everything was so synchronous today. I realized this humor thing as I was walking through a supermarket today, and wanting others to know how much I love them. I thought, “how am I going to tell them without saying it directly, and freaking them out?” Then I walked by a calendar that made me laugh. It was a calendar of outhouses. I thought, “wtf kind of stupid idea is that? Who wants to look at an outhouse on their calendar?” The calendar had pictures of really nice nature scenes, and each nature scene had an outhouse in it. I thought it was odd to mix the beauty of nature with such a thing because every time you look at that calendar, you’re going to see this beautiful scene, but also have thoughts of shitting and pissing on it. Then I laughed and realized how funny it was, and that I should probably look at life in a similar manner. Yes, it’s beautiful and profound, but it’s also a fucking joke, and it’s probably the highest state of all to be able to laugh at the whole damn thing. To be so fucking confident and secure and rich in emotional abundance that you can take all the world can throw at you and laugh at it, and joke about it… I believe that is the attitude that will get people to relax their egos and realize that it is ok to be yourself, it is ok to act natural and without fear of judgment because the love of the universe is unconditional, and the light never runs out.

As I was looking at this picture of an outhouse in nature, there was a poem under the picture that struck me and was perfectly synchronous with the moment. At the time, I was feeling a great love, and realizing that humor will be my key for opening up to people, and I knew that the longer I live, I will only learn to express this love more deeply, and evolve and become more adept at sharing it. The poem said, “I love you more and more each day. More than yesterday, and less than tomorrow”. I felt the universe literally transmit this message in to my being that this love will only grow each day, as my ability to accept it will only expand. So I’m standing there, perfectly still, with this calendar of outhouses in my hand, and tears started filling up my eyes. I was so in the moment, enjoying the idea of mixing nature, and love, and the shitters, that I forgot there were people around. I turned around and there was some lady who could see that I was in tears with a smile on my face. I smiled at her and walked by, and she smiled. I wonder what she thought. I imagine she thought it was fucking weird that I would cry looking at an outhouse calendar.

Other times, I would just walk by people, look them dead in the eye, and tell them I love them without saying a word. That’s all I have to say for now.

Jeez Apoc...big time...

It would be great if all the 'enlightened ones' got one of those experiences...just once...

havn't felt a shift yet...too much work to do to sit and reflect right now...so not quite tuned in...

Oh, yeah, brother, things are definitely getting interesting!

Nice report.

"Pragmatism and materialism I think of as becoming an outdated way of seeing the world."

Yeppers. It is already outdated. Why is every institution, political, religious, economic, etc, failing us? As Bill Hicks said: "Because they're no longer relevant!"

That was an intense and beautiful read, Apoc. Thank you. It reiterated many of the things I'm struggling to work on in my life right now.

I didn't feel the waves of your experience, but I see the world working to transform on a daily basis. The current state of the world is not sustainable, and "if something can't go on forever, it won't".

We need to change and evolve, and I'm looking forward to the ride. When I'm able to put my fears and anxieties to the side, I'm truly in awe of the beauty contained within all things, whether they are typically defined as "good" or "bad".

Peace and Happy Journeys

That is one hell of a trip, my friend. In fact, it sounds like much more than a trip... I'll have to contemplate this one.

Very nice detailed experience Apoc! I enjoy reading your reports. Never let that feeling go, like you said, keep it growing everyday, and there will be no stopping it. I would love to be a receiver of this unconditional love, I know I need to tune in as well.

An extremely thorough and excellent read! WELL worth the read. This experience synchs with me on EVERY level. Much undivided love to you friend <3 Honoring in me that which is also in you.

Very interesting. A lot of striking parallels with the first of my two most intense DMT breakthroughs.

Which ALSO happened to occur on a mixture of harmalas, non-vaporized spice, and vaporized spice. I swear, the most profound trips occur when you take DMT through another ROA, and then smoke it on top.

Anyway, I very much doubt that your love-quake consciously affected anyone else. But yes, at the time, I thought that my trip was a world-changing event.

Wow, just Wow. You basically have had a vision of what I've been feeling for the past 20 years and never was able to express in words! Thank you so much for sharing this. I had watery eyes while reading it while it gives me such confirmation and hope. Still need to digest this all for now.

i am definetly feeling a shift these past few days , i smoked a small dose of changa a few days back (it was still too much for me at that time ) , i think i might have been smoking at the same time you're tripping apoc however from then on i have this feeling of being awake as if i was sleeping for the last 6 months or so

Your experience resonates with mine. It sounds a lot like Terence and Dennis Mckenna's experience described in Terence's book "True Hallucinations".

I took 2g fresh sclerotia. And i ascended into a world of ESP. I spoke to my parents. I could sense people all around me waking up. I thought this was it. Outside my room, the entire world was shaking. Everyone felt it. The end is niche.

I resonate also with loved ones. I rushed my way to a girl and we shared a love. Hyperemotional feelings we shared. It was accompanied by visuals but i feel the dose was not enough to get the visual aspect. The emotional aspect of the trip however was over the top. Emotion in it's raw form. Experienced telepathically. (edit: this was all experienced as ESP, i was alone in my bed)

Ofcourse when i spoke to my parents about it they had no idea what's going on. Even tho i had the deepest ESP conversation with them. To my disappointment. But striking experience, i woulden't be at all suprised if this turns out to be reality one day. Thank you for sharing yours. I am truly grateful. I was very much wondering what you experienced when you made ur last thread in the Open discussion. Now i know

Cool. We'll see what happens. Maybe some ground breaking event will happen on the physical level, but I was told that the most important thing is where the personal consciousness is. If the personal consciousness is open to whatever happens, then that's the right attitude. If people just start flipping out and obsessing over the worldly ramifications (which are INFINITE), then the attitude is incorrect. As long as people are afraid of death and loss in whatever form, then this potential shift I speak of will not be a good thing for them. On the other hand, maybe the shift itself would snap them out of their fear and that itself would be good. If people are just hoping for a shift because they want power, or they want their problems to go away, then that is just as egoic as anything, in fact it is the most egoic thing ever. It is the wanting of infinite power. Tolle was right. The ONLY power there is, is NOW. Just my thoughts.

You say you have been feeling something that I expressed for 20 years. A shame it hasn't broken through in to physical form yet. It is starting for me personally. I am feeling more awesome every day. During my earthquake experience, I thought to myself, "I bet I am going to start seeing people developing interesting abilities. Spiritual intuition, almost mutant like abilities, maybe even people beginning change physically in to more beautiful, beast like, efficient creatures."



Yeah, I would describe my experience as "true hallucinations". First time ever. On light psychedelic experiences, I can clearly tell that what I feel is my own imagination. On the heaviest of doses, I may lose concept of who I am, have an interwoven perception of what is happening on the outside, and what is happening on the inside... or believe that there is some kind of unseen entity flying around the room, or in my mind. But never have I had an experience so consciousness shifting that boundary between self and other had been so eradicated that I believed the entire planet, and the people on it, and the spirit world had become one entity experiencing itself at the same time.... to the point where I actually came on the nexus and asked if other people felt what I felt.

But, I am not worried about having lost my mind. I know that the universe is one thing. As I said in my report, I see discussion of whether or not there are "other" creatures in the universe is a matter of semantics. That discussion is just an intellectual, theoretical game. It IS one being, and I feel no need to impose this fact on others. I wouldn't go around telling people this directly because I'm sure they'd just say I'm nuts. But I hope to communicate it some way. Not so much the idea that "all is one"... as I said, that's just an intellectual game of metaphysical theory. What I want to communicate is the love, and share that abundance, and encourage them to share it as well.

yes, you are right there. I see it the same way.



Well I should have mentioned that I felt for the past 20 yrs that at one point something like this would happen, I never knew when though. But as we came closer to this 2012 'time' that feeling became stronger. Not saying that I buy the general 2012 end of the world theme, but from what I witnessed this year I can tell for myself that a shift is in fact in progress, if not visible to all on this planet.
Interestingly I ran across this article today by pure coincidence. Again, not saying that I believe what is being said here but I sure find it interesting as synchronicity most of the times confirms my assumptions or my paths:


http://www.examiner.com/...f-dimensional-shift-2012

So Apoc, i know you spend a lot of time sharing your thoughts. Which are very inspiring to read indeed. And don't get me wrong but i'm a little more interested in details of your experience. What i'm looking for is what is the true reality of that experience. And what is illusion. I'm sure it all makes sense during the trip but afterwards it starts to fade. Atleast it did for me, because my experience was so light. What you said as experiencing oneness with all the people and the planet itself. For me, i become one with a single person. I didn't have to translate any feelings with words. There was just simply a direct connection to each other. What was very notable is that before the experience my heart was extremely agitated. Here's where i felt the love energy pass through when we finally made a connection.

I feel like there was way more to see. Especially the visual aspect, because that's part of the brain chemistry. I saw all the other people that ascended. (I believed this was the world ascending into the 5th dimension) I saw these people as little thought bubbles. Dreaming kind of. Like you see in cartoons. Afterthoughts make me believe this is my brain translating information into a visual representation. My dose was extremely low. You woulden't think there would be any experience at all. Yet i saw a faint world where i experienced the ESP sensations. In other words, where I could "find" the souls. I think had i upped the dose this would become more apparent.

What i'd like to know is what place does this all have in our reality. In the world. Is this part of the spirit world? It feels like a personal universe opened up and presented itself as a worldwide event. Maybe it is a future event and I got a glimpse of it. I really don't know. Anyway I hope you can expand a bit more in detail of the visuals and technical properties of what you experienced. Like, you spoke to people. Did they have faces? etc. How is ur body doing in all of this? Open eyed, closed eyed. I don't know. Haha, thanks tho

Hi! I don’t really talk about the visuals because I don’t consider them that important. They are pretty and interesting, but the message is more important. Anyway, when the trip first started, I saw a moving blue and yellow cross that got closer until I passed through it. Once I passed through, that’s when the earthquake started. The quake even had a color. It was purple, yellow and black and it moved it rhythmic spasms, up and down, as if it was breathing. When it breathed in, it’s energy was at its peak, and the people aware of the quake were most awed by its power, wondering if it’s ever going to calm down, or if it’s just going to keep expanding forever.

I got visions of the future, and this spirit that was waking up was saying, “it’s coming… there’s no stopping it now”. What it was referring to was some rapture like event. The vision of the future I saw was people evolving. Some will be on board with this change in existence, and they will evolve, develop enhanced abilities, psychic abilities, spiritual awareness. Those who are not on board with the shift will become increasingly frustrated and afraid. What they see as the end of the world will be seen as others as the birth of a glorious new age. I even had visions of some people becoming angels, creatures of light. I became some kind of dragon like beast of beauty, kind of like the dragons in Avatar. A solitary, sexy, beautiful, powerful, but peaceful creature, only interested in beauty, and freedom, not using power for destruction, but only using that beauty to soar. I saw people evolving in different directions of consciousness…. As people are interested in different things. Once their consciousness is freed from form, they would have the ability to explore various ways of existing without limitation. People would bubble off in different directions, likely never to be seen again by me, the solitary dragon of sex and beauty. Maybe some spirits would no longer be interested in sex.... but I would be

The most extreme vision I had was the possibility that some rapture may actually happen, where the world as we know it changes forever, and some people ascend to another dimension where anything is possible. Some people will not want to go and may be left behind. I don’t know what would happen to this world.

I have no idea if any of these things will happen, but these are the visions I had. Maybe it is a vision of what is possible. Maybe it is a vision of what death is like, I don’t know. But each day I feel that my connection to the universe grows stronger, and I can feel that connection with more things and more people each day. It is not fading. I feel like the earth itself is becoming consciously aware of its existence, consciously aware of the existence of life on it, and aware that living things are watching it. It is pleased to have living things on it, especially advanced beings like people, and the innanimate earth wants to make a conscious connection with living things. It doesn't want people to destroy themselves with tools of their own making. I got the sense that the earth wants to help us out. It's like that song in the youtube vid says, it wants to teach us how to survive without killing the planet (or each other). Non living things are not conscious in the same way that people are, but I just feel like some kind of connection is beginning to establish. Maybe it is only my perception because it is happening to me, I don’t know.

I wonder if what I felt was a great movement of what some people call Kundalini energy. I can see for myself that the physical world is not all there is. I walk around in everyday life and I can see the world, but at the same time I often experience the world of pure imagination. In other words, I am often seeing psychedelic imagery and messages without the help of psychedelics. I have learned to tap in to that frequency of consciousness. Psychedelics will still open the channel all the way, of course. It is not a distraction. I am not walking around "hallucinating" or semi conscious. I am extremely conscious of my outer environment. In fact, I feel I have developed an enhanced way of moving through the world. The filter of ego can REALLY screw you up. That silly egoic filter is fading, and I am just starting to see things as they are without filtering, aka clouding, the universe with egoic interpretation.

What is illusion? Everything. All I know is that I am aware of existence, and existence as I know it will end. That is death. Even this rapture that I speak of, if it happens, will too, fade out of existence, like the universe. That is the way of things. All things come in and out of existence, including spiritual movements. But while I AM here, I say I am going to try to raise consciousness, love, and beauty as much as possible because those are the things I love, so why not put my energy in to that? Death is part of existence. This whole thing is not an infinite expansion. It expands, recedes, disappears, and then arises anew. All things. We need not fear death. All things, all ideas, all concepts, all states of consciousness, all form, it will ALL end. This great rapture that I speak would indeed be a fantastic expansion of spiritual energy, but even if it does happen, it too would eventually recede to nothing, as will your life. Do not fear this fact. Use it to enjoy every moment you have. Be aware of death and know what it means to be alive.

I have never been a believer in the 2012 stuff either, but I can’t deny that something is happening this year. I don’t believe it’s the end of the world, at least not in a bad way. Whatever is happening is a good thing. It is an evolution.

Thanks for the great read! I hope you're right that a transformation is coming, at least in some form. I would like to think I'd be recognized as one of the "good guys", striving to rid myself of fear and spread love, as someone who recognizes the profound connection we all share.
Unfortunately, I do feel like I'm still a "work in progress", so maybe I get left behind. Who knows.

Anyway I have a stupid newbie question for you... how do you go about taking the oral DMT? I was told at some point that the freebase needs to be converted into a salt or acetate or something to work orally, but I've read other descriptions that sound like it was basically just encapsulated and swallowed. What's the process that worked for you?

awesome post this one really resonated with me as im experiencing big changes as well. I had a vision few months ago on a shroom trip about what lies over the horizon-the synchronicity of art,music,spirit and nature where the universe humans and nature merge m are in complete harmony-what it seeks and been seeking since the beginning of time, the trip was really an earth shattering experience nothing anything lik it before or since. But that was a vision whats im experiencing more and more everyday is real and happening right now- "hyperspace, or the spirit world, whatever you may call it, was waking up in to this dimension" Sometimes I can see completely sober with eyes wide open energy exactly like i was tripping on shrooms or aya-colors, shape shifting, energy waves/streams. It started about 2 years ago but very lite once in a long time would happen than slowly and slowly got more intense.every day the visions getting stronger and more frequent, now if smoking a joint and seriously im on a lite shroom/aya trip. the only explanation i can come up with is that yeh hyperspace is slowly leaking into this reality, pure awesomness

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I'm not a frant believer of the 2012 stuff either. I used to be kind of into it but i let go when i realized it's an uncertainty, all we can do is wait en see what happens. BUT .. also on shrooms I had these strange thoughts of an amazing Omega-point. Visions of becoming one with the solar system, Venus was a kickass place to be. This was all in the near future.

Two thoughts : Either it's a personal development.

But to be honest, the fact that we seem to be experiencing the same things it might just be planetary

Keep spreading the love. You are beautiful. We all are Life's a gift. I will let you know what happens to me when i get around doing some DMT for a change. In the meanwhile i'm hanging on ur lips. Thanks for being around. Much love

I can only say this<3

Hi cosmic, I checked your music, that's some very nice tracks you made there!

I really like it

keep it up!

And yes, I think too that hyperspace is slowly making its way into our reality!