I was ritually abused and mind controlled as a child - ask me a question

So what kind of psychic abilities these satanists try to control?

Is it something like telepathy or levitation etc..? and how can one activate these abilities?

Yes I do suspect that but I do not know or understand the details of it.

Yes Haim was recalling what was done to him. Had he lived he would have eventually gone public. I saw recently a clip from the reality show and Haim had confronted Feldman about being raped by a friend of Feldmans. This was only the tip of the ice berg. More would have come out. I personally suspect Haim was murdered.

They try to control any and all psychic abilities that they can use to further control the masses. Some more valubale abilities involve telepathic communication, remote viewing, those who can move things with their minds (forgot the word), as well as those who can attack anothers mind.

Everyone has these abilities from one degree to another it is just most of us are so controlled we do not realize it or we do not know how to work with our own abilities.

So what did the reptilians look like?

The reptillians that I saw were in human form but were shapeshifting in their eyes. When they understood that I "saw" them they became agitated and angry. Once when I saw one the woman had to leave the room. I believe if she had stayed she would have completely shifted in front of everyone.

Their eyes look like reptile eyes, like verticle slits and then their skin gets sort of blotchy when they are shifting but the blotchiness seems more like a screen over them rather than their actual skin changing.

Yup , possession. Used to happens to alot of peoples and not as easy to notice as most believe.

I have wondered what is really possesion and what is "acting as a host". The reptillians that I saw were not crazed evil maniac human beings. Whe I saw them it was in a normal every day situation where no ritual abuse or mind control was happening. They were behaving like "normal" humans until they realized I saw them. In hindsight I think they were there to be watching me, expecting to go unnoticed.

A host is often a influancal or talented individual. Drugs and alcohol abuse can lead to possession as the auric field weaken. As they were huge in numbers and acting freely in the astral plane , many were under possession influence.

Varying from turning someone into some energy vampire , creating drama , influencing those in positions of powers to be corrupted and follow the blueprint to turning someone into a murderer. All of this was carried on without peoples being aware most of the time , simply feeling lead by their minds.

But as time went on those peoples deteriorated in every sense. Getting abducted at night , injected with the reptilian hybrid DNA mix to ease possession and further lead one into negativity , mind controled and implanted for w/e were the goals.

Those who panicked surely didnt know about this whole possession , the reptilians/greys prolly just made them go away with w/e mind stimulus was appropriate. They didnt want anyone but those high ranking illuminatis to know about their presence.

Splicing personnalities was a key element to posession.

i was in the car park of one of 'their' facilities. i see people there working around the hour. often they follow me, i jest at them sometimes -- but i do have a morsel of respect for them, maybe its just because i enjoy the idea of knowing the kind of trouble that goes on in my neighborhood. i got into this one little paranoia and my mum gets scared, she says im moving in with my aunt and uncle. so i hail a taxi and i see this guy staring at me through the mirror. if anything i could say that this taxi was a trap. but i thought nah dont worry they cant hurt you. when i arrived at my destination, i yelled to the driver "keep your filthy parasites away from my anus!". all you have to do is look hard enough and you will see that these people are there. they follow you more if have a god complex.

I know you are full of shit because of the way in which you speak of what happened to you.


You have some of the right language but NONE of the right tone.

No one who endured the ritual of Rite by Fire speaks of it as if it were just a bad summer day.

the anger of those who endured spliting (DiD) is a rage hotter then the sun.

To Split a person means to inflict pain, horror, suffering words are woefully inadequate to describe.

Something like..

There was screaming and screaming, no one would come for me, no one would help me, I began choking on my own blood, as my throat had started to bleed from the screams being ripped out of me. Then they put the fire to me and my flesh began to blister and sizzle. The suffering made my screams came from a much deeper place. Now, I wasn't afraid any longer, not of dying, not of demons, nothing! I just wanted to run away from the fire. The pain shooting from my penis kept splitting my attention. One second I was burning the next it felt as if my guts were being pulled out through my penis.

Screaming, and screaming and no one would answer me. The louder I screamed the closer the fire came, the harder they shoved the sharp thing up my penis.

I remember trying twisting and twisting trying to get free from the straps but it was impossible, I was only 4yrs old.

My entire universe was me caught between the fire burning me and the man shoving the stinging thing UP my penis. I could not think, only scream. Finally, a part of me began to sheer off. HE went up and I went down. Then we stopped screaming, we stopped fighting, we broke.

2days later they put that 'thing' inside of me. I remember one second it was on the wall then afterward 'IT' was inside of me.

I remember screaming 'Oh my GOD!!! That thing is inside of me." I literally went insane. They had not only destroyed my mind, the raped it by putting another presence inside of my own skull with me. Now, the shadow demon is inside of my skull with me.

That was NOT done for MY benefit. It was done as a blood compact. It is called the Curse of the First Born. One of the worst offenses to ALMIGHTY GOD the Creator in Heaven is to Blaspheme HIM by dedicating the first born son to the devil.

For this blood compact the enemy gives the father of the first born son 3 powers for not only damming himself to hell but the next generations well. In my family this make 9 generations so far.

So OP I know you are full of shit cause you don't know shit. Did is a living hell. Try living your life with 2 of you in your own head. Each of us hates the other. He hates me because I am on the outside, and he is on the inside with all the horror.

Then there is the demon who is a fucking parasite who hates me and spends MY FUCKING life tormenting me from inside my own SKULL. There is no RAPE worse then being trapped in your own body with a fucking demon who hates you more then any human can comprehend.

As for your Shaman he is nothing more then someone dragging you further into the darkness.

See it goes like this. If you leave the demon alone he will only torment you. If you try fighting back he will manifest and do everything in 'IT'S' considerable power to destroy your mind or drive you literally INSANE.

I FUCKING know this first hand. Cause I am NOT going to let the fucker win. They stole my life, but it ain't over yet. I have an ace up my sleeve.

JESUS CHRIST is my Savior. The BLOOD of the LAMB covers most of me. I am still trying to reach the other me and have all of me covered and saved by the LORD JESUS CHRIST.

Cause yes there is more then one of me in the fucking skull dammit.

So, fuck off you lying piece of shit OP! You are FAKE!!!

W/e they did to you if its true , you failed by falling into this religion mind trap. This demon is a neural implant that you're empowering by believing that it has a hold on you but seeing that you're into this religion trap its no wonder that you have a hard time finding peace and stability within you.

You're your soul , not your body. You have the last word.

how do you know?

I have been where you are at with the anger and the terror. I have healed alot and that is why I am not in a place of rage with it. But I do still experience rage, I just deal with it differently. It's ok, you can call me a liar and not believe me. I understand that is the part of you that worries you may never feel whole or safe again but I am here to attest that it is possible.

They are fallen angels and are indeed ancient.

They arent fallen angels but our space brothers ... who ''evolved'' the negative path.

Part of me agrees with this and part of me still needs to see them as evil. I understand how polarity catalysts and evolution works but I don't think wha this is, what they are doing is it. What they are doing is the opposite of evolution because they are splitting the souls, their own and their (for lack of a better term) victims. I understand that those who tortured me are every bit as split as I ever was and maybe with some much more.

Reminds me of the movie "They Live". It was on last night.

the bible says your space brothers are coming soon. the king apollo, will come from the bottomless pit.

Yes they are evil , while this wasnt god's wish , perhaps this was a neccessary step for the evolution of the universe. One thing is sure , people like you and me acheived great wisdom by going through this and remaining good.

Yet id still kill them on sight and I blaze with rage about what they did to the universe but this is no reason to stop looking at how wonderfull life can be and trust me we're getting free soon enough.

That is where angels are from. Another dimension or space/heaven as some would call it. And they did take the negative path which is why they are called fallen. That is all that these space brothers are. Angels but the bad variety.

I am targeted for staged mind control

no one believes me

they think it must be my fault or that i have a warped and colored perception

they think im making it up with my thoughts and insult me saying i must have wrong thoughts that need to be changed

they never believe me when i say what happens

OP if you have a similar topic or situation, you cannot post about it here or anywhere

they will do the same thing to you they did to me


they dont believe any of my experience reports, they think im hallucinating when i talk about what happens to me.

I went through this too and I finally realized that all of the harrassment was intended to cause me to further question and doubt about my reality. I realized that this stuff causes people alot of fear on both ends. Some have been through it and just cannot face it and some have been on the end of dishing it out and are scared as hell of getting found out about what they have done. So they will call you a liar or whatever... been there done that.

My reality is not up for debate. I know what happened and what I lived through. I own more of my self than I have ever owned and no one is going to take that away from me out of their own fear or guilt. You should not allow them to either. Don't be afraid. Speak up and be heard.

I am so sorry someone would ever hurt you.

Why would they want to do such a thing? What was their use for you? And why would your parents allow this? Are these people still using you?

Peace be with you.

From this point yes but then we're all angels. I do not agree about picturing them as superiors.

They are inferiors to a positive sirian , pleadian , human warrior. Thus the need to rely on technologies and manipulation.

Its true that people imagine things from paranoia that dont exist

Thats TRUE.

its just not true in my case and its not true and the OP's case

these things are NOT SUBTLE where you can color it with perception

for instance if someone reports getting dirty looks, maybe you can say its their perception coloring it

BUT if someone gets EGGS THROWN AT THEM 10 TIMES lets say, that cannot be a warped perception

its not anything fucking subtle like dirty looks

its hardcore shit you cant imagine or make up

thats what these people dont get, because they dont experience it

they population is so fucking sick

that you could say you were abused 15 times by 15 people

and they would say you are imagining it or did something wrong socially

they are fuckin sick non-sentient bots

Yes and some people call it gang stalking. In some cases it is actually physically arranged to target certain individuals who are about to break programming. But I read an article recently about how some of it has an other dimensional component too and the targets get shit on from all directions at once and there is no way something like this could be physically organized. But the idea is the same and that is to shut down the target who is about to break programming.

And this is impossible to do with some without the "split souls". Ritualistic sexual abuse by the hands of any type of religious dogma produces the split more quickly.

I also think that in the rituals there is a transfer of power from the abused to the abuser, like an electrical current almost. Something about the sexual aspect and the mutilation takes power from one and gives it to the other except that it seems like the abuser can never fully utilize that power.