righhhhhhhhhttttttttt.........of course the last dance you had with hiz'b'Allah was an aberation.
You weren't trying...really.....

Just as an aside....
Does it ever occur to you that maybe you have an ego issue with the need to always have a picture of yourself as an avatar?
Do you spend lots of time staring at yourself in the mirror?
Send me an email and I'll put you in touch with a group that might be able to help with your issues.