In the end the OP revealed that yes, he considers himself the NOBODY

(Posters WILL often write about themselves as if from third person to garner feedback and public feeling.

In most instances on this forum, Ive noted this is the case, Esp with the women of scars postings etc..When directly asked or towards the end, they will confess they were writing about themselves third person.)

and talked about a particular new age ascension (Lightworker) stuff site that TPTB doesnt want you to know about, I looked at it and its the same stuff you can get anywhere on the net.

But from the last letter, Im afraid OP will just need rest and let this rest cause he built himself up to so much frenzy, he had a breakdown of some sort. He tried to provide some alternative contact but if he doesnt listen to the mod on the proper way, it wont be possible.