You have put the nail on the head. The ultimate goal is to be desire-less, to even lose the desire to lose all desires, to lose the desire to awaken, etc. It is a 'razor's path'. I was taught that once someone awakens to their Real Self, that extraordinary powers come with it.
In closing, that Reptilian entity told me that I was not meditating correctly. I was using Bhakti Yoga and visualizing a world filled with Divine Love and Peace. But the Reptilian impressed upon me that there was this hairs-breath of a space between awakened awareness and dreamtime that I kept missing. He was trying to show it to me, and volumes of information regarding ontology filled my mind. Unfortunately, I did not have enough energy to bear it, and the process was not completed. I wonder if that entity is watching me today?
Quoting: δρά 1067040So glad you're still around. The knowledge you've placed here falls precisely in line with my own experience. To be desire-less is the goal (or part of the goal perhaps). After my awakening, the state of no desire came to me with zero effort. It was completely and totally part of "me".
And now I am back to my former self (tho still in some ways permanently changed), so I can understand your feeling too.
Ramana Maharshi stated (as did others) that the first enlightenment is always temporary and this was sadly true for me. And now I walk the razors edge of seeking with no desire for enlightenment. Not easy.
Too bad your teacher didn't get to stay with ramana maharshi, but (and I could be wrong), I am of t he feeling that everything is perfect as is and so there's a reason that was his destiny.
If you don't mind me saying, two things, perhaps the two biggest revelations I had was that these are indeed the End Times but they are leading us to a great transformation - the great liberation.
So while I expect great upheavals and devastation (doom and gloom), I know for certain that it is all part of the plan and that it will lead to our liberation.
Creation and destruction are, according to the masters, the natural outcome of yin and yang / polarity. And at least from my studies, it was when we gained this knowledge or the ability to discern these opposites that set it all in motion. As long as we remained like children, unaware of opposites, we'd remain in bliss.
However, it's my thinking that even our discovery of the opposites was all part of the plan. In other words, it wasn't an error or sin on our part.
Finally, I'd really like to say that I am mostly convinced that your reptilian was trying to help you — mainly because he told you about the space between the sleep and awake states. There is not doubt that great answers lies in that state.
Did you know that most people who encounter fairies say that it occurred at dusk? In between day and night. Also, in Spiritwalker (by anthropologist Hank Wesselman), he relates how all of his experiences outside the body took place after sex and around dawn (once again, between night and day).
My guess is that your meditation at 4AM might have been related to this in-between day and night timeframe. The meditation might have primed you, and then the timing was perfect as well.
But how to stay alert and in control at the cusp of falling asleep is very difficult. Not sure how to do it myself.
Anyway, I look forward to continuing our conversation.
