Hello ST,Im wandering what to do in my current situation.I feel as if i am in purgatory.Like im already somewhat of a ghost observing those around me.My situation has become pretty grim.Im wandering if becoming a pothead might be my best choice at this point for my future.I have one small glimmer of hope left and that is starting an Acai berry business but lately my parents have had to help me with everything!I feel worthless becuase of this.I feel im not making my own way and dont have my own life.Over the last 10 years i always wear a hat becuase my hairloss is pretty bad and i think i have a phobia for being judged by others.I simply refuse to not wear my hat but by doing so my self esteem is super low.Im always trying new treatments but nothing works.I am also missing out on relationships because even if i could find a girl to accept my hairloss, i could never be happy with someone settling for a balding guy when there is plenty of guys with hair.Granted, i know alot of this is in my head but feel powerless to do anything about it.I also suffer with chronic back pain and recently excruciating neck pain.I feel im breaking down.I have no health insurance and cant be covered because of "preexisting condition" god bless america!I have no current job and no money.Having to use my mom for everything.My last hope might be the acai business.Do you have any advice for me?I dont really have much faith in myself becuase of my problems although i am smart!I feel in different circumstances i woulve been a great success like in computers but i got in construction so i could wear hats and now my body is wrecked because of it.PLEASE HELP.Thank you soo much!