Thanks for the kind words Rightnut. The shoes thing rings a bell but I can't quite place it anymore, I've been here for nearly 6 years now and unfortunately my memory isn't great these days.

I've certainly had my outbursts on this thread and totally lost it at times. I was in a really fearful angry/despairing state of mind. I'm not proud of it at all.

That being said I'm the type of being who can never really commit to any information/mindset/teachings 100% because I always feel I don't really have all the information necessary to really know. That's a problem with this plane of existence we call earth, the information just isn't available in such a way that I can ever be certain about anything, I can always think of some way to supercede the information I once thought was certain.

If others here are able to be 100% certain (truthfully)then maybe they are further along the path than me because at present I simply don't have the capabilities to ever be that certain about anything.

Generally though I feel ST's imparted information usually makes a lot of sense to me and the times I've strongly disagreed with it were when my thoughts were heavily clouded with emotion. So even though I cannot be 100% certain that everything he is saying is true, since I just don't have the sensory capacity to do so, I continue on here as it always comes back to me believing this information is highly valuable and most of it seems to "resonate" with me if that makes sense.