Thank you, ST.

You answered all my questions sufficiently.

If you will, I have more.

There is just one for now. It's a bit personal.

I want to know about your knowledge of how marijuana may effect my life from here on out.

I've used heavily in the past, and stopped for a couple weeks now, I've became pretty obsessed with it, I guess you could call it abuse, although I always felt.....in the beginning, at least, that it would teach me so much. Like how to become closer to myself..my thoughts, and my true nature.

Although that was in the beginning and in the end it really turned into tool of indulgance.

Right now...I actually have a grow op running with about 4, 4-6 week old plants. I haven't bought all the supplies, yet I've been frantically trying to set everything up, I'm almost thinking about stealing what I need, because it seems that no one wants to help me, yet they ask for my help constantly. It just puts me in a delusion and self-degrading state.

So I wish to know...if I should take a look at my life...from your point of view, not mine, and simply ball the whole mess up and throw it in the trash, so to speak.

I want to know if I will ever get anything good out of the marijuana plant, and if I should continue the grow op. I'm not asking for predictions, or direct intervention on your account, but what you can do is guide me, I am giving you my will to do so.

I know drugs are bad and shouldn't be dealt with, and especially not in that manner, it almost turns me into a criminal, although not quite yet..

Also, as an addition to that question.

I would like to ask you about higher initiates, those who have nearly completed their reincarnative cycle on the plane of earth, and are ready to move on up.

When they are read or have learned enough, will they never ever find themselves in the position I am in now?

Are their lives void of (not ENTIRELY...but consciously and willing, in the end) of indulgance, and if not indulgance than simple external means of reality alteration, for instance psychoactives?

To be done with this cycle of life, do you have to learn to live above those things? I'm think the lower things in life, the lower densities of experience...so are they those lower experiences? By they I mean psychedelic use, in this case marijuana.

Thank you for your help.

If I am wrong about the reincarnative experience, or life experience, please correct me, and I know that this type of lifestyle is never correct, yet my life is in a strange situation from the beginning.

Thank you.