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"Send In The Clowns !! ... Extraterrestrial Healing Experiences Of Star Traveler ... A Zeta Reticulan"

After Reading Many Of The "Wanderers' Stories Of Awakening" Published On Your Web Site ... I Thought Others Might Be Interested In Material I've Compiled Over The Years ... In Regard To My Own Personal Awakening !

I Do Not Consider Myself As Being A "Wanderer", But Rather I Am A *Zeta Reticulian (Extraterrestrial) Volunteer) That Is To Be Of Service To Others, During The Times Of The Upcoming Planetary Changes. *The Spirit/Soul/Essence Is Zeta Reticulian (Extraterrestrial)...& Is Enclosed In A Terran/Human Body !

I've Had Many Healing Stopovers & Teachings By My Wonderful (Extremely Ornery !!!) Zeta Reticulian (Zetas) People ! & I Owe My Life Many Times Over To The "Zeta Medics" !

What Follows Are A Number Of Zeta Healing Encounters That I Have Experienced !!

From: Chapter #3 "The Doctor Is In !" ... "A 3 Year Old Healing" ... (Meditation/Self Regression (Circa. Early 1990's)

I Remember Growing Up Out In The Country (Four Miles Northwest Of Custar, Ohio (Northwest, Ohio) ... There Was A Day When I Was A Small Child That I Felt A Very Deep Sadness !! ... This Was When I Watched As The Old House That I Was Brought To After I Was Born Was Being Torn Down !! (Do To The House Sat On The Ground With No Foundation And The Wood Rotted Out From Underneath !!) ... I Have Memories As That Child ... Leaving My Toys On The Stairway After I Was Done Playing With Them, And Mom Reminding Me Several Times To Pick Them Up And Put Them Away Before Someone Trips !! ... I Also Loved My Upstairs Bedroom With The Slanted Ceiling (My Bedroom Was Right Near The Roof On The Second Level Of An "A" Frame House. ... But There Was Something More Deeper, More Personal That Caused Me To Cry That Day !!

... I'm Observing/Viewing Myself As A Child Of 3. I'm Lying Down In Bed In My Upstairs Bedroom ... I'm Not Feeling Well. My Head Feels Hot And I'm Sweating, But The Rest Of My Body Feels Cold & Feverish. I'm Dressed In My Light Yellow Pajamas With The Plastic Bumps On The Soles Of The Feet. There's A Blanket Over Me, But I Can't Stand It Because My Body Doesn't Know Whether It's Too Hot Or Too Cold. I Look Across The Room To My Large Bedroom Window... There Is Someone Or Something Looking In At Me ! But This Cannot Be, Because My Room Is Way Up High On The Second Level And It's A Straight Drop Down. There's Nowhere To Stand ! I'm Curious So I Keep Watching The Window. I'm Not Scared, Just Puzzled.

I'm Watching The Window ... And To My Amazement I See A Being "Melt Through The Window & Wall" & Come Inside !! I'm Seeing A Person ( I Think It's A "He") On The Far Side Of The Room (Near The Window) ...With A Chalk White Appearance, A Large Head, A Small Neck, Long Arms, Four Fingers On Each Hand, A Skinny Body And Skinny Legs. Not A Lot Of Meat On His Bones. His *Eyes Are Large, Almond Shaped, Solid With No Pupil, And Seem To Wrap Around His Head. The *Eyes Are Deep Gloss Black And Glisten Like Oil On Water. His *Eyes Are Very Beautiful ! I Don't See A Nose. And Where Are His Ears ? I Don't Notice Any Expression On His Face, And His Mouth Shows Only A Straight Line. Looks About Four And One Half To Five Feet Tall ! (* Later On In My Contacts I Find That What Are Considered The Zeta Reticulian "Eyes" Are Actually Large ("Lenticular Implants") Implanted Contact Lenses To Protect The Zeta(s) Real Eyes (On Away Missions (When They Are Away From The Controlled Environment Of The Ship) From Solar Energy Emissions, Dirt, Dust Etc.)

"He" Sort Of Glides Over From The Window To My Bedside (In A Walking/Floating Fashion) And Looks Down At Me ! I'm Hearing A Voice Within Me ... Speaking In My Mind ... Saying That "He Has Come To Heal Me". He Then Places His White Hand On My Forehead. My Head Is Quickly Clearing, The "Fog" Feels As If It Is Lifting From My Head. I'm Feeling Better, My Head Is Cooler Now ! (It's Like I Was Burning Up Before !) The Sweat Was Just Running Off Of Me ! Since My Fever Broke ... I Should Be Very Sweaty, Wet .. I'm Not !! ... The Excess Moisture Is Gone ! I Don't Understand ? It's Like I Hadn't Been Sick At All !! My Healing Friend Then Puts My Blanket Back On Me ... Tucks It Under My Chin & Kisses Me On The Forehead. I'm Now Watching Him Leave ... Walking /Floating Across The Room To The Window Then ... Seems To "Melt Through The Window And The Wall !" & Disappears !! I Then Became Very Tired & Slept Peacefully The Rest Of The Night.

From: Chapter # 3 "The Doctor Is In" ... "Batting Practice" ... (Meditation/Self Regression (Circa. Early 1990's)

I'm Observing/Viewing Myself In The Fall Of 1966 ...It's Late October ... Not That Far From Halloween ... I'm Six Years Old. I Just Had My Sixth Birthday Last Month ... My Older Sister (About 2 Years Older) And I Are In The Front Yard Of Our Families Newly Built (Single Story) Ranch Style House. I Was Teaching Her How To *Properly Grip & Swing A Softball Bat !! (* Mom Forbid Us To Toss The Softball Around/Near The House As It Might Break A Window ! ... So We Decided On Batting Practice Instead !) I Was Showing My Sister The Proper Way To Grip The Bat ... Being Unaware Of How Close We Were To Each Other !

As I Stood Behind Her And Was Just About To Correct Her Grip On The Bat ... She Swung Around, And Struck A "Home Run" Blow Off My Forehead, Just Above The Left Eyebrow. The Flesh Peeled Back Like A Sardine Can Being Opened. Blood Seemed To Come From Everywhere ! I Was Knocked Out For Awhile, Then Drifted Between A Conscious And A Semi-Conscious State. Somehow, I Made It To The Living Room Couch, Where I Collapsed. I Kept Seeing Bright Lights When I Was Lying There.

My Older Sister Got The Bleeding Under Control Somehow ?? ... And Called Mom Who Was In Deshler (7) ? Miles Northeast) Cleaning House For Her Sister ! ... Mom FLEW Home And Rushed Me By Car To The Nearest Hospital In Bowling Green, Ohio (14 Miles Southwest). I Was Still Drifting In And Out Of Consciousness ... Having A Hard Time Staying Awake ! The Next Thing I Knew ... I'm In Bowling Green ... In The Hospital Emergency Room ... And A Doctor Is Examining The Wound. The Impact Of The Softball Bat Made A Clean Slice ... But For Some Strange Reason ?? The Doctor Wanted To Wait Before Stitching It ?? ... To See If It Would Heal Together On It's Own ! He Applied Bandages Over A Gauze Pad In A Butterfly Pattern To Hold The Wound Together, To Allow It To Mend. I Was Told That He Wanted To See Me In A Couple Days To Have The Area Reexamined To See If Stitches Would Be Necessary.

I'm Back Home Now ! ... I'm In My Bedroom ... It's Later In The Evening ... I've Had Supper ... My Head Aches ! ... But I'm Laughing At Myself Within ... Thinking That I'm Starting To Look Like My Skeleton Mask On The Left Bed Post ! (Has Scar Marks ! ... The Mask Is White With Scar Marks In Red, Black, & Other Colors, & Glows In The Dark ... A Greenish Look !) I Now Have Shut Off The Lights ... Moonlight Shines In Through The Window. (Faces South). ... I Go Over And Look Out The Window ... The Sky Is Lit With Stars ! .... Very Clear To View ! ... Looks Very Beautiful ! ... My Attention Is Drawn To The Right (Southwest) ... I Notice A Star In The Sky That Is Lower Than The Others And Much Closer To The House. This Fascinates Me ! Out Of A Sense Of Curiosity I Watched It For Awhile, But It Really Didn't Do Anything . I Thought ... Oh Well ! It's Just A Star Anyway ! Hoped It Might Be More Than That ! ... A Ship Perhaps ? But Then What Would I Do If A Ship Landed Nearby ?? ... Probably Hide !!

I Started To Feel Really Tired ... So I Got Right Into Bed ... And It Seemed Instantly I'm Asleep ! Later During The Night I Awake In Panic/Fear ... Realizing That There Are Two Other Presence's In The Bedroom With Me ! I'm Seeing Them, Lit By The Moonlight. ... I Had A Sense/Feeling That They Came In Through The Window ?? (Like They Walked Through The Window And The Wall ??) ... The Window I'm Sure Was Closed And Locked From The Inside !! ... One Person/Being Is Standing Over Me, Looking Me In The Face. The Other Is On My Left Side ... Running A *Rod Back & Forth From East To West & From West To East ... Scanning Me ! (* The Scanning Rod Is Approx. 5 And A Half Inches To Six Inches Long ... And Has A Diameter Of Three Fourth's Inches.)

Both Of The "Beings" Looked Short (Less Than (5) Foot Tall, Chalk White Skin, With Large Black Almond Shaped *Eyes... (* See Above "Eyes" Notation !! *) ... Which Seemed Like A Glistening Pool Of Water ! ... Peaceful ! They Were Skinny With Large Heads, Small Neck & Real Long Arms. I Saw (2) Vertical Slits Where The Nose Should Be & No Ears ! There Was No Emotional Expression ... Almost A Blank Look ! When I First Awoke To The (2) Beings Presence In The Bedroom & Especially One Staring Me Right In The Face ... I Panicked !! ... I Guess We Both Startled/Scared Each Other ... As They Weren't Prepared For Me To Wake Up Right In The Middle Of Being Healed !! After I Realized That These (2) Beings Were Here To Heal Me ... I Couldn't Apologize Enough To Them For Having Scared/Alarmed Them !! I Was Told (Telepathically) " Not To Worry About It ! ... We Get That Reaction All The Time !!

I Was Told (Telepathically) That "They" Go Around Healing The *Volunteers & Making Sure They're Healthy ! ... It's Our Job To Make The Rounds ! (* Volunteers = Those That Volunteered To Be Of Service Before They Came Into Flesh Bodies ! To Help With The Upcoming Changes To This Planet ... Specifically For Me ... This "Service" Has To Do With The Upcoming Geomagnetic Shift (Pole Shift) Of Terra ("Earth") I Wanted These (2) Friendly Healers To Stay Awhile ... But They Couldn't , ... As There Were Others To Visit ! (That Night ?) ... After My Healing Was Finished It Was Time For Them To Leave ... I Heard In My Mind As They Left ... "Now Go Back To Sleep".

A Few Days Later I Revisited The Doctor & He Rechecked My Wound ! The Physician Was SHOCKED !! To See That The Injury Was Healing At An Amazing Rate Of Speed ! ... Like In (2) Days Time The Injury Had Been Healing For Months !! It Really Puzzled Him !! ... He Could Find No Explanation !! ... Well !! I Heard Him Say ... You Won't Be Needing Any Stitches !! ... The Wound Is Mending Together Quite Nicely On It's Own !! ... The Only Way The Doctor Could Explain ... Was To Say ... " The Boy's Got A Hard Head !!" (And Let It Go At That !!)

From: Chapter #3 "The Doctor Is In" ... "Deleeching" ... (Nighttime Apartment Visitation) (Circa. Early 1990's)

I Had Been Feeling Listless, My Body Achy ... Just Not Feeling Well ! & Was Having The Hardest Time Fighting Off Head colds ! ... I'd Get A Cold & Think I Was Over It, Only To Catch Another And Another ! ... Then One Night I Was Visited And While Being Healed ... I Was Shown In A "Dreamlike State" ( But NOT A Dream !!) An Image Of My Body ... I Am Being De-Leeched !! ... The Leeches Are Being Pulled Off My Body. I Don't Know If They're Being Removed Because They Are Doing Me Harm ... Or If The Leeches Have Been Attached To My Body To Suck Out Some Kind Of Poison Or Toxin(s) In My Blood ?? ... In Any Case ... It Appears That I'm Getting A Through Cleaning Out !!

Next I See ... A Clear Plastic Five Gallon Container ... The Kind I've Noticed That People Use To Obtain And Haul Large Amounts Of Purified Water In. Suddenly I Hear A Voice (Telepathic) Ask Me ... "What Do You See ?? ... I Respond ... Water ! ... So What ! Then *A Blue Light Shines Through The Water ... Illuminating Debris, Live Bacteria, Microorganisms. (*Very Similar To How A Black Light Can Make Colors Glow !!) ... The Water Was Not Dirty Looking, But Obviously It Was Contaminated !! ... "Now Look Again !" The Telepathic Voice Is Saying. "This Is What You've Been Drinking & This Is Why You're Sick !! ... You Need To Drink Distilled Water And/Or Pure Fruit Juice & Stay Away From Tea, And Carbonated Beverages.

If I Could Follow Through With All Of Their Advise ... I Know I Would Be A Lot Better For It !!

From: Chapter #3 "The Doctor Is In" ... "Look Before You Leap" ... (Nighttime Apartment Visitation) November 1, 1993

While I Was Living Out In The Country And Still Attending Junior High School (Grades 7-9) I Had A Very Unusual Accident !! Having An Excess Of Energy & Feeling Ornery & Mischievous ... I Decided To Pretend That I Was A Giant Frog & Leap All Over The *House ! (* New House - Ranch Style - Single Story) Surprisingly I Could Clear What I Believe Is 3 Feet (Maybe Higher ??), Turn In Air, Come Down & Keep Hopping ! (I Was That Strong In My Legs Then !!)

Mom Saw Me "Hopping About" & Ignored It ! (Probably Thinking ... Goofing Off As Usual !!) Everything Kept "Hopping Along" Until I Leapt Up Into A Thick Plaster Archway That Separated The Living Room From The Kitchen ! ... I Came Down HARD !! Mom Was On The Telephone At The Time ... Talking To Someone & Didn't See Me Connect With The Archway !! When I Interrupted Her Telephone Conversation She Said ..."To Go Put A Bandage On It" (In Other Words Whatever It Is ... It Can Wait Till I'm Done Using The Phone.) In All Fairness ... She Didn't Realize The Extent Of My Injury !! After Seeing That I Was Not Trying To Be A Pest When She Was Talking ... She Quickly Hung Up The Telephone And Checked Me Out !!

Luckily ... Mom Had Medical Training !! ... She Checked Me For Obvious Signs Of A Brain Concussion & Told Me ... That My Injury Wasn't Serious !! ... But I Sure Walloped Myself Good !! ... It's What You Get For Goofing Off. (Playing The Fool !!) The Head Injury Was Not Checked Out At The Hospital ... As We Only Went To The Doctor When It Was Absolutely Necessary !! (Being 14 Miles From Bowling Green, Ohio & Not Having The Best Medical Insurance From My Father's Employment At That Time !)

Do To This Accident I Had Been Bothered Over The Years By What Felt To Me Like A Pressure Build Up In My Head ... Whenever The Barometric Pressure Would Rise Or Rise Or Fall. ... As If Someone was Standing On My Head & Trying To Force It Into My Shoulders. The Barometric Flux Caused Me To React In A Dazed Over tired/Sleep State & Previous To November 1, 1993 I've Even Had To Leave Work When This Changing Was Taking Place ! ... (The Weather Changing Going To One Extreme Or The Other !! ... So Long As The Pressure Stayed "Balanced" I Was Ok !!) ... As I Couldn't Stay Awake !

In The Late 1980's/Early 1990's ... A Gentleman Who I Once Did Some "Psychic Exploration" With Had Once Mentioned In Our "Get Togethers" About Using Visualization ... I Told Him "Forget It" ... I've Tried !! ... Doesn't Work For Me !! ... I Was Rather Envious Of This Individuals Easy Time Of Channeling Spirit Guides & Sensing Energies That Were Around !! ... As My Efforts In These Areas Went For Naught !!

On October 31, 1993 A Female Who Did Some "Psychic Exploration" Offered To Help Me In A "Vision Quest" Of Sorts ... To Find Answers To My Questions In Regard To My Ongoing Extraterrestrial Contacts !! ... What Came Forth In Our "Vision" Was Information In A Similar Light ... About "American Indian" Contact With Extraterrestrials In Ancient Times ... But Evidently The Message Of "We Would Like An Audience" (A Contact/Get Together) Was Passed Along !! ... As The Next Night ... November 1, 1993 I Had A "Stopover" At The Apartment !!

In A "Dreamlike State" (NOT A Dream !!) I Saw My Head Opened Up Like One Opens A Spam Meat Can !! (That's Exactly How I Saw It !!) I Watched This Oversize Key Going Around The Outside Of My Head, Gathering Metal Coil As It Went !! ... Then When Both Ends Met (The Beginning And The End) The Top Of My Head Flips Back !! ... It's Like I'm Sharing Dual Consciousness With Another !! ... I'm Looking At My Brain From Above And Through Another's Eyes !! ... I'm The Doctor As Well As The Patient !! ... WE Examine My Brain Together !! ... I'm Hearing (Telepathically) My ET Physician's Thoughts ... Everything Was Ok With The Gray Matter To One Exception !! ... There Was A Blackened Area In The Location Of My "Psychic Area"

It Was Explained To Me (Through Telepathy) & Using My Own Terms Of Understanding That ..."This Is Where You Did The Damn Fool Thing When You Were Young & Jumped Up (Leap Frogged) Into The Plaster Archway !!" ... " You Didn't Damage Anything In Your Day To Day Life ... But You Sure Wrecked Hell Out Of Your Psychic Center !! The Next Day ... November 2, 1993 (To Date) The Pressure I've Felt When The Barometric Pressure Was Changing ... Wasn't There !! ... Sometime Later I Asked Mentally (Telepathically) ... "Ok !! What Did You Do To Me ?? ... In A Joking Response ... I Heard ... "We Opened You Up And Vacuumed Out The "Dust Bunnies" & Changed Your Wet Ware!! ... It Was The Zetas Way Of Saying That They Removed Damaged Tissue From The Injured Area (Possibly Using A Pinpoint Laser Process To Remove The Dead Tissue & And Suction Siphoning Off Any Residual Ash Created !!) ... And I Believe Replaced The Dead Tissue ... With New Tissue. I Also Feel They Gave Me Several Upgrades (Like One Does On A Computer With Computer Software) And While They Had Me "Opened Up" Included (At No Extra Charge As A Bonus For Selecting This Package (Zeta Humor Coming Through !!) A Multi-Functional Implant ... Which Helps Us Communicate Better !!

In This Contact Of November 1, 1993 ... I Had The Chance To Ask My Healing Friends (Which I Understand To Be Zeta Reticuli (Zetas) Questions That Have Been Puzzling Me Regarding My Extraterrestrial Experiences . Such As "Why Is It That I Do Not Have The "Abduction Experiences That Others Have Had ?? (Referring To Individuals That Have Had Experiences Of A Unpleasant Nature) ... The Answer I Received (Before The Question Was Uttered Verbally !!) Back Instantly "We Don't Abduct Our Own People !! ... You're One Of Us !! (A Zeta Reticuli (Zeta) But Have A Terran (Shell) Body !! ... I Also Asked If I Could Go With Them ?? ... I Was Told ..."After You Complete "The Mission" (Having To Do With The "Pole Shift" (Geomagnetic Shift Of Sol #3, Terra ("Earth) ... We'll See !! I Found After This Healing Encounter With The Zeta Reticuli That My "Psychic Senses Have Really Stepped Up Their Sensitivity !! ... When It Was Hard Before To Reach Out & Connect ... Now It's Very Easy !! And Fun !!

** Regarding My Title: Star Traveler ... In 1993 The Female "Psychic Explorer" And I Undertook A Physical "Vision Quest" To Southern, Ohio In Search Of Answers To My Questions ... Regarding My Ongoing Extraterrestrial Contacts !! ... When I Was There I Had Requested Out Loud (To All That Were Listening !!) For A Sacred Name To Be Called That Was Truly Me !! ... Little Did I Know That In The Following Year (1994) My Request Would Be Honored !! ... On October 24, 1994 (Early In The Morning) When I Was Cleaning Door Window Glass (Of All Things !!) & Working On The Set To The Outside (Facing South) ... I Was Startled By A Sudden Flash ... To My Right Side And About 10 Foot Up !! ... The Flash Appeared Out Of "Nowhere" ... Made A Squiggling Effect Towards The Ground Then Disappeared !! ... Seeing This Flash (Which Was As Bright As A Lit Halogen Bulb ... I Turned Away To The Left And Looked At The Darkness Of The Night Sky (To Reorient My Vision) ... That's When I Saw A Reddish/Orange Ball In The Southeastern Sky ( I'm Facing South) It Was The Size (From My Viewing Distance) In Comparison To That Of A Penny ... Then Became A Lot Larger (Comparable To A Quarter In Size) ...When This "Size Change" Took Effect ... I Heard A Telepathic Communication ... "Because You Dislike The Name That You Were Given ... Here Is A "Name" That Fits You !! (Star Traveler) ... Then The Reddish/Orange Ball Became Small Again ... And Disappeared !!

The Title: Star Traveler ... Refers To My Lifetime As A Celestial Navigator (An Interstellar Navigator) Aboard A Zeta Reticulian "Bird" (Space Ship). And In High Honorance And Deep Respect For This Spiritual Gift ... I Had My Former Name Legally Changed To The Zeta Reticulian (Zeta) Title: Star Traveler On March 1, 1995 At 9:47 A.M. (EST). * I Have Retained "Robert" My Former First Name ... As A Nickname To Use In The "Day To Day" World

** Based On My Own Experiences In Having Had Zeta Reticulian (Zeta) Contact (To Date) And Also Having A Zeta Essence/Soul Within ... It's Possible ??? That I Might Be Able To Respond To Some Of The Questions That Experiencers Are Asking ... In Order To Understand What Is Happening In Their Life !! & To Help With Their Healing Process !!

I Give Permission For You To Publish On Your Web Site ... The Material Contained In This E-Mail Letter ("Send In The Clowns !! ... Extraterrestrial Healing Experiences Of ... Star Traveler". It Is My Wish That I May Share With Others ... My Stories Of Benevolent (Extremely Ornery !!) Extraterrestrial Contact !! ... You May Also Publish My Legal Title: Star Traveler & My E-Mail Address ([email protected]) For Those Who Wish To Correspond !!

I Respectfully Request (Other Than The Permission Given To Publish On Your Web Site) .... Anyone(s) Interested In Using This Material (Republishing It In Any Form) Contact Me Beforehand !!

Thank You !! Sincerely; Star Traveler