Sometimes I find it so strange to comprehend that we/anything even exists. When I was a child I just took everything for granted without a single direct thought of why anything existed.I may have asked such things as why is the sky blue and such, but never, "why is there something rather than nothing" I was very happy then from what I recall. Do ETs ever wonder why anything exists rather than nothing? I know its for awareness, but what is the reason we need awareness. It's all so odd. We're here eternally and we can't ever opt out of existing. Why do we need to become aware of everything? What is the "end" goal, and can there ever be an "end" goal to all that is? Are other beings ever as scared/confused/bewildered by everything as me? The whole concept of existing is sometimes so strange to me I can't even begin to explain it. I wish I could just go back to a childlike state of just being without questioning the reasons.

I wish I could express myself better. I so badly wish that ET's could just show me direct communication by telepathy. Words are such a poor method of conveying true or complete meanings. I suppose they are better than other forms of communication like hand gestures though.

Please come visit me, show me that everything will be okay. I want badly to break free of this paradigm. I also want to take my terrestrial family with me though. Its so confusing and hard to handle. Did I really ask for this all to happen? I don't know what I can do. How can I know that everything will be okay?