I have a lot of personal respect for many Christians.

On the one hand, I do see generalized behaviors. On the other hand, I have to say that there are always exceptions.

And as far as the call of God goes, it's been interesting and even moving to watch you seek, and then find.

It's not for me to choose your path, you and God must find that together. For if it is not personal, then it's not real.

I often fail to understand why God guides certain people's feet in specific directions. But when I look deeper, I often find that the reasons are there, they are personal to that person, and they are amazing and perfect.

God will meet you where you are. Your needs are met by the spiritual path you're taking, and I honor that. I don't have to agree with the religion or even the holy book you've chosen, for me to recognize a genuine walk into the arms of God.


As far as returning to that religion. I doubt I ever will. In any form, really. I don't discredit the possibility, but it doesn't speak to my heart or my soul.

I find myself mellowing in the last few months. As if some deep thing inside me has finally found a way to be free. In some ways, I have you to thank for that.

You encouraged me to write. You did so out of a place of love.

In writing, I unleashed a beast... but it was a beast that needed to be free. Because nothing should be caged and beaten. It needed to see the light of day, and it needed to be accepted and even embraced.

With each passing wave of the pain of that, I am finding myself growing steadily calmer and more peaceful.

Meh, I suppose I could have PM'd that to you, but there you have it anyway.

I have some deep, deep anger that is finally passing away. Not without a struggle, but it is on its way out.

Now I'm finding that the real problem I have isn't really anger, as much as habit of speaking that are "angry" when I am not necessarily so.