these rays you say to meditate on,have you or do you know of an experience were a golden metal beam comes through the ceiling and hits you in the forehead and you can see up inside this beam like its a tube,and there is a strong presence at the very top,and others on the sides,as this beam hits you it lifts you up onto your toes,and starts flowing or should i say ripping through your body and over it,it feels like warm liquid golden metal,it's the only way i can explain it,it through my head back,flowed down my neck out into my arms,which made them stretch out,and i felt i was turning into metal gold,it was becoming quite unbearable as it was forcing my arms out,and actually standing on my toes,i suddenly realized how i was standing,the position my body was in,and i said no,like turning down an offer,because i could hear clapping and sounds like rejoicing in the tunnel i was looking into,i freaked out and said a long nooo,next minute my body spun to the left a complete 360 on my left foot,and all my movements that had lifted me up from a sitting position to standing on my toes reversed like a tape playing backwards,ended with me sitting back in my chair puffing with exhaustion,sorry for the long story but this still haunts me after all these years,and i thought you may know something about this,should i have kept going with it,or would that energy fry me,to tell the truth i thought i would be stuck in a delusion as a Jesus freak or something, because that was the position i was moved into,it reminded me of Jesus on the cross,in a way i regret not accepting the gift,because that was what it felt like,i was thinking about something,trying to work things out and i had like,that's it,then the beam hit me.