Yeah, me too.

Makes me enjoy civilization a lot more. Modern convenience is a blessing and a curse.

I kinda enjoy the traffic now cause it lets me know that things are still normal. No one stringing up steel wire across the road. No shots from the cars on the side of it. The fact that I can simply pull over into a store and fill my gastank up without having to pump the fuel from the underground tanks while trying not to be seen or get shot.

I've tried to warn my family and friends, without a lot of success. They have been forewarned though, and I am not my brothers keeper. I'll take care of my folks as long as I can. Same with my friends. However, trying to get people to sit down and work out a viable plan is like herding cats. In short, were boned.

At this point I've kinda given up on having land by the time the balloon goes up. Most likely end up dead on the side of the road or in my parents house. We're too close to the city, and they're too old to handle a 'hard bug-out' well. I'm the last of my line, no wife, no kids. Giving in to the utter futility of it is so very easy to do.

Giving up is not an option. I like existing. I like sentience quite a lot. I will not willfully give either of those up . Living through it is worth it for the stories alone. Every survivor an author, of the greatest testament to mankind's adaptability and tenacity. We can breed like roaches and multiply our strength through our surroundings. Not to mention our ability to accurately assess current events and make a reasonably accurate prediction of future events and manipulate them as we see fit. In the short term anyway (if you drove a car today, or walked...anywhere, you did this.) Our species is amazing.

I really didn't mean for this post to be this long. Welcome to my headspace.