Every couple days, I do a ritual where I 'start over' my life and try to live normally, but if ANYTHING goes wrong -- if I mess something up or get in an argument or eat unhealthy or just anything -- then I get seriously depressed and give up on life until I pull myself together to do another ritual and start my life anew.... The time leading up to and including the renewal is like a euphoria, but then shortly after I have 'started over' I start to feel paranoid that something will go wrong.... This back and forth lifestyle is ruining me.... does anyone have any idea what's wrong with me and how I should fix this....


this is the opposite of OCD....


and why do you think it is 'wrong' ??


What would you call this then? And how is it different from OCD?....




sounds more like AvPD....

OCD people normally never 'give up'....and OCD is more about physical actions than thoughts....