I feel disconnected from everyone, and everything I used to know.

This, too, shall pass

It's the dark night of the soul. Good luck playa, cuz if you can't get through it on your own you're screwed.

I am sorry you feel so lost.
You must have been so scared for your health. I know I would have been.

Maybe you could find connections with people who have been through something similar to what you have gone through, a support group for instance.

I hope you feel better soon.
You truly are not alone.
If you are so inclined, pray. It helps me when I feel lost and alone. Maybe it could help you too.

Take Care.

Last Edited by Say_It_Loud on 12/06/2010 04:45 PM

Perhaps it's time to shed an old skin...

But as someone else said before me, don't worry, because "This, too, shall pass."

I consider myself very spiritual and pray and meditate often. Lately I do not know why I do not hear wisdom.

Thanks everyone.

I feel the same way OP. Its like "the thrill is gone", simply going through the motions with no real connections to anyone beyond the superficial which seemingly becomes more and more superficial and really does nothing for me other than to kill time. I just want every day to just go by. So, I can get to the good part....SLEEP.

illness can cause a bout of clinical depression. what was the nature of your illness?

Been there done that. Once when I got baptized, and then again when I realized Mormonism wasn't the ray of divine light I thought it was.

You are not he only one ot have ever gone throught that OP, and you wont be the last.

Why not have a glass of Ovaltine.

It's not so much thrill but peace for me. I would be thrilled to have peace. However I absolutely agree with you on one thing. Sleep is the only thing I look forward to.

True.
Also "I'm not lost but I don't know where I am."
Best wishes OP.

Wish u the best

I tested positive for lupus, lymes, and m.s. along with many others, however all were still inconclusive. Symptoms included hallucinations, insomnia, memory loss, anxiety attacks, constipated for over a week (with laxatives), candida, heavy metal poisoning, and over 60 allergies. After being told "my body just wanted to be sick, there's not a whole lot we can do for you." Stress consumed me. I then dropped conventional medicine I went on a raw food diet with minimal results, I've tried every herbal medicine I could find, tried mms, homemade kefir and kombucha. I have since passed a threshold in symptoms in my body where I feel I can live day to day. I used to be at peace in my spirit, and now I can't even feel it.

hang in there

Sending light and love .....

Don't worry about others ... do something that makes you happy ... tomorrow's a new day!

I also have gone through a lot of changes in spirituality over the past few years.
And I don't mean to claim I am either of those things. Just looking for wisdom or anything that can help.

I'm so very sorry to hear of your suffering, OP. :-( These are certainly bizarre times in our society, and it seems that those who are the most sensitive & aware of the things that are occuring around them (both physically & spiritually) are the ones who, for unknown reasons, are suffering the greatest, unfortunately. And, dealing with a physical illness certainly doesn't make things any easier...

Wishing you much peace, comfort, healing & solace in these difficult times. I hope that you find the answers (and the "connections") that you are seeking...

man, i went down that same road. even went to two years of naturopathy school to help understand my chemical sensitivity syndrome, candida and heavy metal poisoning (i worked 22 years in a print shop, 5 years with my work station right next to molten lead pots.)

people just didnt understand.... even i didn't understand, and it was the hardest time of my life. i got to the point where even fragrance in laundry detergent inside the box would make me violently ill. going into department stores like target would give me bad vertigo and take me two days to recover. the chemical smells would make me very sick and light headed. people thought i was nuts.

but i took two years to radically detox, stay out of the print shop and away from chemicals, and removed dairy, wheat and sugar from my diet. it took a really long time to start feeling better.

i also have muscular dystrophy and blood sugar issues. these are measurable on tests. all the other stuff made doctors scratch their head. it WAS real, and i can prove it.

i am glad its over now. i have made a total lifestyle change in order to stay ok. i am not the best of health, but faring quite well.

hope this helps.

Thanks everyone for the love and encouragement.

Well OP, you came to the right place.

I was in a similar place three years ago. I thought it was all over. They finally figured out what was wrong, and I have recovered. I will never be what I once was, but I am grateful I no longer walk with a cane, and I live a more or less normal life.

I am working a job again, I have a life, I am productive. Hang in there. It could very well turn itself around and you will be better.

I know that disconnected feeling. That part has never completely gone away, but it becomes more tolerable. I am now connected to other things. You find that you become connected in other ways. Yes, we miss the old, but it is part of our growth as humans.

Thu Nov 9/21/10

Science has now confirmed what philosophers,mystics,and other intuitive people have long declared: every human being has been literally " engineered for success" by his Creator. Every human being has access to a power greater then himself.
This means "YOU"...
pag 27, PSYCHO CYBERNETICS BY Maxwell Maltz

this book is Great! just look up few pages and you may feel better.

rop

Not knowing was the worst for me. I know what you mean with chemical sensitivity being such an issue it used to put me down for days. But wow I can't imagine all the heavy metals you were exposed to. I know how hopeless that road can feel, I am glad you've been able to recover so well it's very hard to stick with it. I do a lot to stay where I'm at physically and mentally; hopefully I will feel stronger in the days to come.

Thanks salt

Maybe your consciousness reached a new level and you left them behind in their unconsciousness.

Hey, chin up, I am here!!!!

You have people here that care, some are a bit stupid, mostly kids, but some are decent :)



Last Edited by TheMindWars on 12/06/2010 05:52 PM

chin up kid and eyes forward