Can you relate? Care to offer some insight? Is my 'end' nigh?

Long story short - no more can I wander aimlessly about a confused goulash of family karma. Wish I do bring myself to break my karmic ties to certain individuals which are aiding in my self prepetutation within a void of neglect, avoidance, numbness and so on. The messed up thing is part of me feels like that wouldn't be right. Part of me feels like I'm incarnate within these circumstances as a mirror/reflection unto others however the suffering I experience is mild to severe. No, I seek not further pain/suffering. Yes, sacrificing myself in the name of a greater cause is extremely intriguing. yes I do question the end result of such measures as well as the end result of the opposite (continuing on this mostly deranged incarnation).

Merry Christmas GLP. I do love you. :)