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Good Morning Aether Lots and lots of feedback I see ...
 Quoting: fringe


good morning

there is fringe and your good morning punctuates my thoughts on the feedback effects upon myself, cos it is having effects

i`m forced to re assess myself again in relation to my being here and human because it seems much of what i had settled on to utilize my expression of life doesn`t match what the feedback tells

nothing new in that for me as such but because feedback is scaling up, which it is, it is forcing me to recognize i have yet to fit myself within society in a manner that suits my personality

your post touched at the moments where i recognize the above whist possessing no clue what to do about it or what will possibly replace what it appears i must lose
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Aether , your feedback to me, as to others I am sure as well. Means a great deal. I may not always comment on your posts, however I assure you I read them and many others. I then process the information and it has a desired impact. Your a blessing here and what you perceive and share and remote. Make no mistake about that.
Layers of the onion are coming off. It's part of that getting to the core of who you really are . You are of great value to me , and I look forward to your posts. I find much wisdom in them.
Sometimes it is about finding our child like enthusiasm again as well. In all our technology , our humanity has gotten shelf'd.
I've been told it's time to play again. The reason for starting my art projects.
What was it as a child that held your fascination Aether?
 Quoting: Want ~S'More~ Fringe


lol
you got me laughing happy laughter and feeling instant nice inside
it feels looking back, the fun all else and myself enjoyed playing
within that memory my fellow human companions where those whom joined in our fun thus no long term friends, all short term guests, it seems
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fringe your good morning post instantly led me straight to this man:




and i am loving translating his words which fit our recent posts rockon
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fringe your good morning post instantly led me straight to this man:




and i am loving translating his words which fit our recent posts rockon
 Quoting: aether


Is there a difference between the effects of words and art?
Everything is energetic and mathematical in nature,so is it therefore just different delivery methods but with the same intent?
Or is it a very fine line....looking for the "synergy" of it

I have another art project I'm currently working on btw
Actually have several ideas at the moment for different pictures
" I have Lost My Religion and found My Spirituality "

If it were not for My Life's Lessons I would not be Who I am today. "Thank You"

" I will NOT ... Give up: Give in: or admit defeat: I will overcome all obstacles in my path and reach the mark/goal and gateway out: :)) "
"It is Wholeness and Balance That I seek"
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funny words iranians use on occasions
"creatures" 1rof1

Thus intelligence is not necessarily tangibility dependent and creatures in the universe exist whom their Magravs composition in their given environment and field strength make them intangible, but not necessarily make them un-intelligent beings.
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fringe your good morning post instantly led me straight to this man:




and i am loving translating his words which fit our recent posts rockon
 Quoting: aether


Is there a difference between the effects of words and art?
Everything is energetic and mathematical in nature,so is it therefore just different delivery methods but with the same intent?
Or is it a very fine line....looking for the "synergy" of it

I have another art project I'm currently working on btw
Actually have several ideas at the moment for different pictures
 Quoting: Want ~S'More~ Fringe


i believe the two are the same

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funny words iranians use on occasions
"creatures" 1rof1

Thus intelligence is not necessarily tangibility dependent and creatures in the universe exist whom their Magravs composition in their given environment and field strength make them intangible, but not necessarily make them un-intelligent beings.
 Quoting: keshe

 Quoting: aether


little word play here ...( not sure where this came from)

creatures
create urs

urs

[link to en.wikipedia.org]
Urs (from Arabic: literally "wedding") is the death anniversary of a Sufi saint in South Asia, usually held at the saint's dargah (shrine or tomb). South Asian Sufis being mainly Chishtiyya, refer to their saints as lovers and God as beloved. They refer to their death as wisaal (union with the beloved) and death anniversary as urs (marriage).

Urs rituals are generally performed by the custodians of the shrine, and may often include the singing of religious music such as qawwali


hmm

hiding
" I have Lost My Religion and found My Spirituality "

If it were not for My Life's Lessons I would not be Who I am today. "Thank You"

" I will NOT ... Give up: Give in: or admit defeat: I will overcome all obstacles in my path and reach the mark/goal and gateway out: :)) "
"It is Wholeness and Balance That I seek"
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funny words iranians use on occasions
"creatures" 1rof1

Thus intelligence is not necessarily tangibility dependent and creatures in the universe exist whom their Magravs composition in their given environment and field strength make them intangible, but not necessarily make them un-intelligent beings.
 Quoting: keshe

 Quoting: aether


if that is correct
the material structure is what forms our personality
no two structures identical
no two personalities the same
 Quoting: aether


what our personality blossoms into following formation caused by structure will be dependent on information received and reaction to that information whist within formative structure

feedback
 Quoting: aether


then the field of gravity makes more sense
not only does it assist hold our structure together as in with tensegrity effects hold our material structure together

which is why all material structures form gravity by default upon structure, including us

our location of construction (earth born) earth formed field of gravity is strongest on it`s surface and importantly it travels with earth, hence our non material personalities after de-construction of structure (death), don`t get left behind
seems to make sense
the same field that was strong when encased in material structure is the same field that is present when structure destructs

not the same for the other field or is it

earth generates magnetic field and electric field

so yes there are 3 fields at least encased in structure that is us which travel with earth thus were there before and are there after
the same local to us/earth fields
 Quoting: aether


keshe`s experiments and operating systems confirm how and why
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WOW

I would expect major revelations since he was almost ready to present his theory to the world, and firmly believed that relativity was a total blunder that misdirected from the true state of the universe. You have already seen what relativity has lead to, Black Holes, Neutron Stars, Dark Matter, Dark Energy and the avoidance of any description of electrical forces acting in the universe. Tesla never presented any theory without experimentation first, I therefore expect he had at the least diagrams for machines to test this theory. A theory that could only have one consequence, dispute relativity. If it did not dispute relativity he would not have believed it was rubbish. The proof that electrical forces rule the universe would change science as we know it, with perhaps even devices that would enable one to control those forces.
 Quoting: observation


This is a huge misrepresentation of Special Relativity. Avoidance of electrical forces? Au contraire, SR says that electrical forces are the very things which define distance and time. Special Relativity says that Electric forces are more important to us than any preconceived concept of absolute space, in fact shaping our entire view of what is reality. If you wish for proof that electrical forces rule the universe look up "meter" or "second" in the dictionary. You will see that these most fundamental of all physical concepts are defined with electric forces. Dark energy? Neutron stars? No, relativity is about clocks and meter sticks and careful use of coordinates to record observations.. taking into account that it is electromagnetic forces which hold our world and our brains together.
 Quoting: nasa themis 10th nov 2011


wow
 Quoting: aether


and now makes sense why nasa chose this time to tell us "holds our brains together"

which translates "contains/is our personality"
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me telling sickscent last year


Your question will fly in the face of Out-of-body proponents...hah! That is why, once out of body during OBE's etc., the physical aspects of reality are malleable or distorted...with pineal and/or eyes, the vision remains 'true' to actual physical representation...they are the 'physical' receptors and 'antennae' that 'solidify' the vision for the human body to function in proper physicality with other humans...

yes but what comes out?

when i go out charge/field/spin (cfs) soul/personality leaves my body , i don`t need the antenna,/structure

i`m self supporting autonomous aether accepted by aether cos we fit

i get no distortions cos cfs in or out of the body is the same

i`m functioning at femto speed and up matching my environment (aether)

time does not exist to me because i am non material within the non material dimension

 Quoting: aether 1056462


OK, but, across the board (this includes my experiences), distortions occur when out of body...all sorts of distortions (from things out of place like a door that should be on the south wall is on the north, etc.)...AND, the longer in that state, the more physical reality goes away...

You are just weird, LMAO...we talked about this before with you, and you are experiencing things not 'human'...remember...

I think what comes out is splinters of the spirit, or soul...and again, per our conversations, you do not have a 'splintered' spirit...most people have past lives and have reincarnated...our spirit is existing as separate states at the moment we defy 'time'.
 Quoting: Sickscent


Thread: The field of HUMAN ENERGY (Page 29)

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reminder for me to write

soul/personality/charge
 Quoting: aether

Thread: The field of HUMAN ENERGY (Page 53)

this is me now satisfied soul = personality
i never imagined soul, i only know personality thus the descriptions/use of soul (the word) i never experienced effect from when the word was utilized by others
on aruna`s thread it felt to me that what is called soul is what i know as personality
that is why i wrote that there
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Aether....as humans we like to hear words of appreciation...and its good for others to hear them too. I could not have made contact without you!
I could however just have pm these words...but i chose for others to hear this appreciation i have of you...


Hugs...
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funny words iranians use on occasions
"creatures" 1rof1

Thus intelligence is not necessarily tangibility dependent and creatures in the universe exist whom their Magravs composition in their given environment and field strength make them intangible, but not necessarily make them un-intelligent beings.
 Quoting: keshe

 Quoting: aether


little word play here ...( not sure where this came from)

creatures
create urs

urs

[link to en.wikipedia.org]
Urs (from Arabic: literally "wedding") is the death anniversary of a Sufi saint in South Asia, usually held at the saint's dargah (shrine or tomb). South Asian Sufis being mainly Chishtiyya, refer to their saints as lovers and God as beloved. They refer to their death as wisaal (union with the beloved) and death anniversary as urs (marriage).

Urs rituals are generally performed by the custodians of the shrine, and may often include the singing of religious music such as qawwali


hmm

hiding
 Quoting: Want ~S'More~ Fringe


oooh that makes sense fringe
quite emotional to
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Aether....as humans we like to hear words of appreciation...and its good for others to hear them too. I could not have made contact without you!
I could however just have pm these words...but i chose for others to hear this appreciation i have of you...


Hugs...
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hugs
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"Of the Shakti, “Jung said she was the figure known as My Lady Soul: ‘Every mother and every beloved is forced to become the carrier and embodiment of the omnipresent and ageless image, which corresponds to the deepest reality in man.’” “She implies ‘power, ability, capacity, faculty, strength, prowess; regal power; the power of composition, poetic power, genius; the power or signification of a word or term; the power inherent in cause to produce it necessary effect....[S] hakti is the female organ; shakti is the active power of a deity and is regarded, mythologically, as his goddess-consort and queen."
The term derives from the Ancient Greek words, meta, meaning beyond or after, and noia, meaning perception or understanding or mind.
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Does DNA determine also who we are Spirtually?

Maybe under the guise of "Humans" are two different Dna lines..one Angelic the other not quite?
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Just all feels like electricity to me this morning, honey. Spirit just seeking the conduit to soul. We just become open to “let people blow our minds”.


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The term derives from the Ancient Greek words, meta, meaning beyond or after, and noia, meaning perception or understanding or mind.
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"Of the Shakti, “Jung said she was the figure known as My Lady Soul: ‘Every mother and every beloved is forced to become the carrier and embodiment of the omnipresent and ageless image, which corresponds to the deepest reality in man.’” “She implies ‘power, ability, capacity, faculty, strength, prowess; regal power; the power of composition, poetic power, genius; the power or signification of a word or term; the power inherent in cause to produce it necessary effect....[S] hakti is the female organ; shakti is the active power of a deity and is regarded, mythologically, as his goddess-consort and queen."
 Quoting: A Muse Me


i believe amm that until now man has naturally never possessed awareness to get that

i say naturally because he could do nothing about it

over our past 150 years and accelerating man has discovered his way to become aware of women s way

our now blossoming awareness-of the nature and structure of our universe provides man with a blue print of how and why whist simultaneously providing women proof how they always "know" how and why, for all to see
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"Of the Shakti, “Jung said she was the figure known as My Lady Soul: ‘Every mother and every beloved is forced to become the carrier and embodiment of the omnipresent and ageless image, which corresponds to the deepest reality in man.’” “She implies ‘power, ability, capacity, faculty, strength, prowess; regal power; the power of composition, poetic power, genius; the power or signification of a word or term; the power inherent in cause to produce it necessary effect....[S] hakti is the female organ; shakti is the active power of a deity and is regarded, mythologically, as his goddess-consort and queen."
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Don’t know why, but Shakti just always felt like the moon to me. What makes us long for remembrance? Long for the memory that Gaia holds for us. Long to put it into word or term or music or poetry or the dance of ebb and flow. I haven’t written a new poem in a long time. The moon makes me want to.
The term derives from the Ancient Greek words, meta, meaning beyond or after, and noia, meaning perception or understanding or mind.
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The term derives from the Ancient Greek words, meta, meaning beyond or after, and noia, meaning perception or understanding or mind.
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"Of the Shakti, “Jung said she was the figure known as My Lady Soul: ‘Every mother and every beloved is forced to become the carrier and embodiment of the omnipresent and ageless image, which corresponds to the deepest reality in man.’” “She implies ‘power, ability, capacity, faculty, strength, prowess; regal power; the power of composition, poetic power, genius; the power or signification of a word or term; the power inherent in cause to produce it necessary effect....[S] hakti is the female organ; shakti is the active power of a deity and is regarded, mythologically, as his goddess-consort and queen."
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Don’t know why, but Shakti just always felt like the moon to me. What makes us long for remembrance? Long for the memory that Gaia holds for us. Long to put it into word or term or music or poetry or the dance of ebb and flow. I haven’t written a new poem in a long time. The moon makes me want to.
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yes amm
you know i believe this day i am feeling as a women
it`s a guess, cos i can`t know but i never possessed the emotions i now possess
for my first time emotions are more powerful than my thought thus whatever i think emotion blossoms before i think

the cumulative effect is i discover nothing works but my emotion this today
i can only be emotional
little else occurs and nothing within me can alter that
nothing can distract enough and no place hides me
just emotions and me
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The term derives from the Ancient Greek words, meta, meaning beyond or after, and noia, meaning perception or understanding or mind.
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"Of the Shakti, “Jung said she was the figure known as My Lady Soul: ‘Every mother and every beloved is forced to become the carrier and embodiment of the omnipresent and ageless image, which corresponds to the deepest reality in man.’” “She implies ‘power, ability, capacity, faculty, strength, prowess; regal power; the power of composition, poetic power, genius; the power or signification of a word or term; the power inherent in cause to produce it necessary effect....[S] hakti is the female organ; shakti is the active power of a deity and is regarded, mythologically, as his goddess-consort and queen."
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Don’t know why, but Shakti just always felt like the moon to me. What makes us long for remembrance? Long for the memory that Gaia holds for us. Long to put it into word or term or music or poetry or the dance of ebb and flow. I haven’t written a new poem in a long time. The moon makes me want to.
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yes amm
you know i believe this day i am feeling as a women
it`s a guess, cos i can`t know but i never possessed the emotions i now possess
for my first time emotions are more powerful than my thought thus whatever i think emotion blossoms before i think

the cumulative effect is i discover nothing works but my emotion this today
i can only be emotional
little else occurs and nothing within me can alter that
nothing can distract enough and no place hides me
just emotions and me
 Quoting: aether


I feel the feminine today too. Must sound funny since I am a female. Allowed myself the experience of just what it feels like to “fuck the big bang” into submission to remember ‘beloved’ of both male and female.
The term derives from the Ancient Greek words, meta, meaning beyond or after, and noia, meaning perception or understanding or mind.
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The term derives from the Ancient Greek words, meta, meaning beyond or after, and noia, meaning perception or understanding or mind.
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surprise surprise
upon telling i discover, i can do things
things motivated by the emotion
and guess what
i like it rockon
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it`s softer, fluffier, cuddlier and cleverer

1rof1

sense of humor same and all else as deadly as ever if need (joking)
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Here is a couple more im working on Aether hf

rayofhope

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" I have Lost My Religion and found My Spirituality "

If it were not for My Life's Lessons I would not be Who I am today. "Thank You"

" I will NOT ... Give up: Give in: or admit defeat: I will overcome all obstacles in my path and reach the mark/goal and gateway out: :)) "
"It is Wholeness and Balance That I seek"
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"Of the Shakti, “Jung said she was the figure known as My Lady Soul: ‘Every mother and every beloved is forced to become the carrier and embodiment of the omnipresent and ageless image, which corresponds to the deepest reality in man.’” “She implies ‘power, ability, capacity, faculty, strength, prowess; regal power; the power of composition, poetic power, genius; the power or signification of a word or term; the power inherent in cause to produce it necessary effect....[S] hakti is the female organ; shakti is the active power of a deity and is regarded, mythologically, as his goddess-consort and queen."
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Don’t know why, but Shakti just always felt like the moon to me. What makes us long for remembrance? Long for the memory that Gaia holds for us. Long to put it into word or term or music or poetry or the dance of ebb and flow. I haven’t written a new poem in a long time. The moon makes me want to.
 Quoting: A Muse Me


yes amm
you know i believe this day i am feeling as a women
it`s a guess, cos i can`t know but i never possessed the emotions i now possess
for my first time emotions are more powerful than my thought thus whatever i think emotion blossoms before i think

the cumulative effect is i discover nothing works but my emotion this today
i can only be emotional
little else occurs and nothing within me can alter that
nothing can distract enough and no place hides me
just emotions and me
 Quoting: aether


How interesting. My masculine wants to hold you today. My masculine wants to nurture. That very well could be a first for me.
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"Of the Shakti, “Jung said she was the figure known as My Lady Soul: ‘Every mother and every beloved is forced to become the carrier and embodiment of the omnipresent and ageless image, which corresponds to the deepest reality in man.’” “She implies ‘power, ability, capacity, faculty, strength, prowess; regal power; the power of composition, poetic power, genius; the power or signification of a word or term; the power inherent in cause to produce it necessary effect....[S] hakti is the female organ; shakti is the active power of a deity and is regarded, mythologically, as his goddess-consort and queen."
 Quoting: A Muse Me


Don’t know why, but Shakti just always felt like the moon to me. What makes us long for remembrance? Long for the memory that Gaia holds for us. Long to put it into word or term or music or poetry or the dance of ebb and flow. I haven’t written a new poem in a long time. The moon makes me want to.
 Quoting: A Muse Me


yes amm
you know i believe this day i am feeling as a women
it`s a guess, cos i can`t know but i never possessed the emotions i now possess
for my first time emotions are more powerful than my thought thus whatever i think emotion blossoms before i think

the cumulative effect is i discover nothing works but my emotion this today
i can only be emotional
little else occurs and nothing within me can alter that
nothing can distract enough and no place hides me
just emotions and me
 Quoting: aether


How interesting. My masculine wants to hold you today. My masculine wants to nurture. That very well could be a first for me.
 Quoting: A Muse Me


Oh thank heavens. I don’t have to do that. Little guy saved both our asses.

1rof1
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The nurture thing? I do it wrong, lmao. I find I'm a better mentor to males as I don't have to soften my edges to get my point across, with younger males as I don't have any sexual tension with a man under 30... it feels... wrong, lol.

I'm vaugely uncomfortable with spontaneous feminine outporings of emotion... Affection isn't easy with humans, with females more than men... in that I can hug and hold with no underlying sexual tension. With men, it's transmuted to lust far too easily on their end as they misunderstand my intensity. There was a time I was far too promiscuous for my own good... not because I wanted the sex, but I sensed their need and my sense of nurturing compassion took over.

I'm told I'm not supposed to seperate sex from love... but I do, two very different things. The connection was broken for me as experience taught me suspicion of sex/affection blended together, going to have to face down bad juju with that, soon... it's the sticky spot to be avoided.

Abuse by force? I overcame that one easily... no ambivalence. Abuse by seduction seems a much more insiduous demon to face in my own mind, you know? I'm not a victim, but my own masochistic bullshit keeps bubbling up when attempting to conquer that. I feel that's a big piece of my work in the here and now.
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The nurture thing? I do it wrong, lmao. I find I'm a better mentor to males as I don't have to soften my edges to get my point across, with younger males as I don't have any sexual tension with a man under 30... it feels... wrong, lol.

I'm vaugely uncomfortable with spontaneous feminine outporings of emotion... Affection isn't easy with humans, with females more than men... in that I can hug and hold with no underlying sexual tension. With men, it's transmuted to lust far too easily on their end as they misunderstand my intensity. There was a time I was far too promiscuous for my own good... not because I wanted the sex, but I sensed their need and my sense of nurturing compassion took over.

I'm told I'm not supposed to seperate sex from love... but I do, two very different things. The connection was broken for me as experience taught me suspicion of sex/affection blended together, going to have to face down bad juju with that, soon... it's the sticky spot to be avoided.

Abuse by force? I overcame that one easily... no ambivalence. Abuse by seduction seems a much more insiduous demon to face in my own mind, you know? I'm not a victim, but my own masochistic bullshit keeps bubbling up when attempting to conquer that. I feel that's a big piece of my work in the here and now.
 Quoting: Eris K Discordia


funny for me within your post beau because in there is all the "things" i have met
things is not the right word but (laughing now as i write) , i say things cos none appeared permanent
the lakota girl i mentioned showed me women wear masks for purpose
i understood myself, she never said, the reason was they could never in our cultures be themselves
the weird shit is, i expressed lots of the masks because my personality does that, or used to when i never thought
i was always me but expressed the masks
same with men i guess but i never get affectionate emotions to men so i never got to close to one
in fact it is only within the past weeks my natural self masking of another`s masks ceased
and that has arisen from the sense (to me) conversations we have all been having

Last Edited by aether on 12/06/2011 01:08 PM

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