it was odd the acute sense of loss i experienced
a real oh my, where is the excitement/adrenaline/the rush and for a little while it was, how dull life might be
it passed when i got my head around it but not what i anticipated
the cause was talking to john smith and ancestors
i had 0 expectation but was surprised and impressed with his and their personality
intelligently kindly fits
but it was more than that because it went form him/them to a whole sensations of all that are alive
nice really but a bit shocking because it was so nice
not what i have become used to it seems
funny huh