Agree...I knew afterwards wrong choice of words...why I used them1dunno1 in fact, the subjects it brings to mind I would rather forget...but not all of it, if that makes any sense...

and I am very sorry that you feel angst towards me, please believe me when I say it is not ever my intentions to cause others negativity. I'm doing the best I can do. This ancestor is very strong...stronger than any other woman I have ever known or even encountered. Her ways are hard for me...although I have not ever seen her in an offensive way, nor is she ever disrespectful. Just strong, not like physical but more internal, and her ways are much different and I have to really examine them for they are so much younger than ours.

There are days I just want to quit, not be in this, but I am and I have to do the best I can. Today was one of those days...I was done! But again, something always happens that gives me a little more to keep going. That was in a small span of a few minutes and I finally acted hoping and praying what I understood to be is right...this push has been going on for a while now, and I had only done part of what the push was...today I did the rest, and I hope thats the end of it.

Again, I am sorry it has been offensive to you....and to any one else here..