Lucid Dream: Lake 'Tekwanago'

FYI - water data for Red River near TERRAL... looks like it's up about 14 feet since the 8th of May.

[link to waterdata.usgs.gov]

Can't drive across that if it's really 22 feet deep.

Snippet from last night...

An eiffel tower (structure?) With trees around/inside it
And to the left, a styrofoam coffee cup laying on its side, hot coffee spilled.

I was thinking this might be volcano in Java but with this mornings news perhaps it was EQ in papua new guinea?

The fallen cup made me think EQ but the shape of the eiffel tower with trees made me think volcano.... so not sure either way.

[link to www.volcanodiscovery.com]

Wolf volcano (Galapagos Islands): possible very large eruption
Monday May 25, 2015 12:55 PM

From the Jupiter Ascending / Disclosures thread. Interesting discussion over there, though most people will dismiss it and think it's utter loony nonsense (some of it is, but most of it is onto something).

I didn't sleep very well last night because of all the message dreams. I don't remember them all except for the last one right as I woke.

Jade Helm is a cover for something else.

It was an organization chart, everything was empty except for the box at the top which was filled in with Jade Helm (black background, yellow letters) then one by one, the other boxes were filled in with the same until it looked like a christmas tree shape made up of lines and boxes that said Jade Helm in them.

The meant that Jade Helm is the tip and anything else that happens underneath will go under the label of Jade Helm, but it isn't really Jade Helm.

Then as I was getting ready for work, a thought occurred to me:

Not just that Jade Helm may an exercise and also be about defending the border against Isis (as I said previously) but...

How do They accomplish two goals at the same time (or kill two birds with one stone?) Make WW3 happen somewhere on the ground in the USA... where troops happen to be already placed... then you get to decimate and pacify the people who live there (a thorn in their side) AND 'fight' your fake / manufactured world war at the same time in a way that the USA can't avoid being a part of it.

We have two minds' eye(s). They are indigo in color, and they are perpendicular to one another, like a cross. One vesica Pisces laid atop the other.

This reality we are in now was created by a 'god' who has only 'one mind's eye'. Yaldabaoth was created by HALF a consort, which is why his 'creation' is distorted... like he is.

When we can remember / realize that we have TWO mind's eye(s) we are already further ahead than most will ever be... including those "daimones, both good and bad". This is the true reason we were imprisoned here.

I'd appreciate a little more detail on how you mean that? (splintering versus individuation).

Clearly this prison we live in is all about suppression and oppression of the individual identity. From all sides we are smothered and pressed and intimidated into being like everyone else. The blatantness of it in politics (socialism, communism), political correctness, the destruction of family, the push for gender neutrality, the push for 'diversity' (which is actually the opposite of)... all of these things are control mechanisms to try and force each of us into a pre-defined pattern ... turning us into mechanical parts in a hive. Like working parts of a machine.

The true quest is to rise from the muck and realize that you (I) am THE SAME AS EVERYONE ELSE (as in, the same pieces and parts) and that I am UNIQUELY DIFFERENT from everyone else due to the choices I make. I am both the same AND different.

The ego causes us to make decisions based on materiality and satisfaction of desires.

The soul is the garment we wear to protect the material from our plasmatic nature - and each soul has it's trajectory. We wear a new one each time we incarnate.

Our true self is that which we insert into a soul-garment.

Meat suit - Soul Garment - True Self. We each incarnate here in many aspects at the same time. The prison is designed to keep ourselves from knowing ourselves.

Because when we do that, when we know who we are fully, we can no longer be contained and that is the purpose of us being here ... to contain us. To drain us, contain us and make us forget so that we can not escape. The machine. The matrix, literally as in the movie version, if you will.

Granted I am still working my way through this, but I have achieved a fairly good level of detachment... I still struggle with that from time to time, but I still maintain that learning what needs to be learned here, the memory, it will be necessary for us to do what needs doing out there.

I agree with the other posters that apathy and lack of empathy is egoist in it's own way. Respectfully, I think you have fallen into another kind of trap that perhaps the rest of us simply haven't reached yet.

This is important. TOUCH / LAYING OF HANDS / TAKING ONE BY THE HAND / LEAD... 'lead' and 'guide' occur all throughout the gnostic texts, but your comment above made me think of a few in particular.

[link to gnosis.org]
2. Be then not carried off by the fierce flood, but using the shore-current, 1 ye who can, make for Salvation’s port, and, harbouring there, seek ye for one to take you by the hand and lead you 2 unto Gnosis’ gates.

[link to gnosis.org] (commentary on the above link)
The tempest-tossed on the Sea of Ignorance are to make for the Harbour of Salvation—evidently some great organization devoted to the holy life; therein they must seek for one who knows, who can take them by the hand and lead them unto the Gates of the Gnosis.

This suggests that the organization consisted of a general body, within which were grades of instruction; the many were striving for illumination, some few had reached it.


[link to reluctant-messenger.com]
THE APOCALYPSE OF PAUL...
(excerpt)
Then we went up to the seventh heaven, and I saw an old man [...] light and whose garment was white. His throne, which is in the seventh heaven, was brighter than the sun by seven times. The old man spoke, saying to me, "Where are you going, Paul? O blessed one and the one who was set apart from his mother`s womb." But I looked at the Spirit, and he was nodding his head, saying to me, "Speak with him!". And I replied, saying to the old man, "I am going to the place from which I came." And the old man responded to me, "Where are you from?" But I replied, saying, "I am going down to the world of the dead in order to lead captive the captivity that was led captive in the captivity of Babylon." The old man replied to me saying, "How will you be able to get away from me? Look and see the principalities and authorities." The Spirit spoke, saying, "Give him the sign that you have, and he will open for you." And then I gave him the sign. He turned his face downwards to his creation and to those who are his own authorities.

'sign' = Hnad Sign = MUDRA


[link to gnosis.org]
Hermes can only guide Tat towards the realisation of the Blessed Sight, by putting himself into that sublime state of consciousness, so that Tat, so to speak, bathes, or is baptized in, his master’s spiritual presence, the Cup of the Mind. This, as we have seen already from several treatises, was the way of transmission of the Power of the powers, the true Laying-on of Hands. <--- TOUCH

Was it you that tied the 9/23 date to the arrows on the economist cover?

11.3 11.5
923=9+2.3=11.3
925=9+2.5=11.5

Indicating either the missing number in the range 9/24, or the entire range?

Saw a bit of this last night paired with an exploding train that burns and poisons crop (I think wheat) fields, starting a famine. And possibly stock market doom in October.

One of the feelings I keep encountering us the idea that the ascension process is another lie or trap to keep us in the system.

During my own meditations I definitely have learned that we are in a prison and that a war is coming but that the factions that are fighting don't care about us, thus the skills we are learning in here we will have to use 'out there' to rescue ourselves (with very limited help from sympathetic others). The universe matrix we are in right now is built with the same metaphorical rules as the one above/outside, thus the awakened abilities will translate.

Bump!

The only thing I have 'seen' lately was a train exploding on a section of rural track, along some farmland (wheat field or corn or similar?) And it sets the field on fire and it burns far and wide, and what doesn't burn, gets poisoned from the smoke or fumes (or runoff?). It leads to a famine.

Haven't you heard. There is earth a real heaven sent ASTORIOD that will hit near Porto Rica or a nuke planted by our shadow government in the Gulf of Mexico that will strike on September the 23 or 24. OR BOTH.

Remember "THEY" must take America down doe the NWO can fully manifest

Interesting synchronicity - I had a dream this morning with spider video game creatures in it. It was a teaching dream experienced from my own point of view that showed me that the 'video game' we are 'playing' can cheat. This came after a meditation last night in which I tried out Zite's technique for walking backwards to fix something in your past with an overlay.

The dram was interesting in that it's one of the few that I had a physical sensation from, not scary, but it woke me up so that I would remember the concept. Afterwards when I went back to sleep I had a symbolic dream that I call a snippet that showed a copy of MAD magazine and a golden colored bird cage. This snippet meant that outside of this cage/prison there are no rules, but inside this prison we too, can bend the rules (like I did with Zite's technique).

Tiwanaku, near Lake Titicaca
[link to www.livescience.com]

Some additional clarity on this came this morning here is the final gnosis:

The GREAT Work of the universe is reuniting the SOUL of the Cosmos (Christ Consciousness/Wisdom) with the EGO of Cosmos (the Luciferian material universe we live in) so that it may incorporate into the One Source which it originated from.

Within the Cosmic EGO (Lucifer) is *another layer* of SOUL / EGO... This is symbolized for us by the being of Abraxas which is split between the bird & snake. This the Blue Avians ('Ra') would represent the positive polarity (Soul, reaching for the harmony and light) and the Reptilians would represent the negative polarity (the 'snake' and striving for 'enslavement and order'). But it doesn't stop there... each of the 'men' that are birthed here are also of a dual nature / ego vs soul. Each and every one of us must overcome our ego, then accept and unite with it.

The great work is the OVERCOMING Of the EGO by the LIGHT SOUL BODY and then the UNITY of the SOUL and EGO to form a WHOLE BEING.

This must be done at every level... you as a person must do it - overcome your ego, then incorporate it into your whole fullness. This is why service to others is good, it helps you send out the love, and then service to self is also fine, because it brings the love back to you - basically you give love = service to others and then you receive love = service to self. Forgiveness of yourself is a form of service to self. But that is part of the trick - because 'Love' is the 'drug' ... it is the 'soul' of Lucifer and thus the thing we crave as soon as we see it... the ULTIMATE Light is not LOVE (at least not only Love) but TRUTH. That is why 'love is blind'.

So you may continue in the construct of The GAME... (bringing the soul & ego/Abraxas/Lucifer back together again, because all light eventually returns to the Father (in the end, Unity is accomplished, no matter what) ... OR you may skip the 'rest' of game and go straight back to the 'cosmic soul body' of the Christ Consciousness and escape the cosmic egoic/luciferian system... this is a shortcut, and since the cosmic ego's sole driving purpose is the distortion of self-preservation, thus the balance to that is the 'back door' to escape the game... the back door that 'Christ' (aka Hermes Trismegistus) put in to show us the way out.

Etymology of ABRASAX (also spelled ABRAXAS)
Ab-RA-sax or Ab-RA-xas --
AB =Father, RA=The RA entity, SAX = SPLIT/DIVISION/TWAIN (Split or Cut-off from the Father, from the beginning)

AB= Literally "from the beginning
AB=word-forming element meaning "away, from, from off, down;"
AB=SEMITIC = FATHER
RA (the entity of RA / blue avians / as in the book, The RA Material / LAW of One)
[link to etymonline.com]
SAXIFRAGE:name of a kind of herb, from Latin saxifraga herba, literally "a rock-breaking herb," from saxifragus "stonebreaking," from saxum "stone, rock" + frag-, root of frangere "to break"
SAXON:with a possible literal sense of "swordsmen" (compare Old English seax, Old Frisian, Old Norse sax "knife, short sword, dagger," Old High German Saxnot, name of a war-god), from Proto-Germanic *sahsam "knife," from PIE *sek- "to cut"

Some additional clarity on this came this morning here is the final gnosis:

The GREAT Work of the universe is reuniting the SOUL of the Cosmos (Christ Consciousness/Wisdom) with the EGO of Cosmos (the Luciferian material universe we live in) so that it may incorporate into the One Source which it originated from.

Within the Cosmic EGO (Lucifer) is *another layer* of SOUL / EGO... This is symbolized for us by the being of Abraxas which is split between the bird & snake. This the Blue Avians ('Ra') would represent the positive polarity (Soul, reaching for the harmony and light) and the Reptilians would represent the negative polarity (the 'snake' and striving for 'enslavement and order'). But it doesn't stop there... each of the 'men' that are birthed here are also of a dual nature / ego vs soul. Each and every one of us must overcome our ego, then accept and unite with it.

The great work is the OVERCOMING Of the EGO by the LIGHT SOUL BODY and then the UNITY of the SOUL and EGO to form a WHOLE BEING.

This must be done at every level... you as a person must do it - overcome your ego, then incorporate it into your whole fullness. This is why service to others is good, it helps you send out the love, and then service to self is also fine, because it brings the love back to you - basically you give love = service to others and then you receive love = service to self. Forgiveness of yourself is a form of service to self. But that is part of the trick - because 'Love' is the 'drug' ... it is the 'soul' of Lucifer and thus the thing we crave as soon as we see it... the ULTIMATE Light is not LOVE (at least not only Love) but TRUTH. That is why 'love is blind'.

So you may continue in the construct of The GAME... (bringing the soul & ego/Abraxas/Lucifer back together again, because all light eventually returns to the Father (in the end, Unity is accomplished, no matter what) ... OR you may skip the 'rest' of game and go straight back to the 'cosmic soul body' of the Christ Consciousness and escape the cosmic egoic/luciferian system... this is a shortcut, and since the cosmic ego's sole driving purpose is the distortion of self-preservation, thus the balance to that is the 'back door' to escape the game... the back door that 'Christ' (aka Hermes Trismegistus) put in to show us the way out.

I was working as a government contractor in an office building at some off-site location. Someone called an impromptu meeting and was snagging people & pulling them into the meeting. Not everyone was called. It was early in the day – maybe late morning or early afternoon – the sun outside was bright and the trees were newly greening. As I walked past, mildly curious, someone called me by name and pulled me into the meeting as well.

They had stacks of manila folders with the red SECRET coversheets on them. A man in uniform grabbed one (I could not see his face, it was as if I were watching a movie the camera only filmed this person from the collar down) and asked me “Where is your family?” I was momentarily confused so I didn’t answer, and then the man in uniform asked me again “Where is your family?” and then I knew he meant where was I planning to go when TSHTF, so I answered “Wisconsin”. I could tell that he was looking for a Wisconsin folder – obviously there was more than one ‘safe’ location to choose from.

Then he said something like “OK” and flipped open a folder and showed me a map. “Do you know where this is?” he asked. I looked it over – it was a map of Wisconsin for sure, but most of it was under water except for a section in the north-central part of the state that was three hills rising above the water like islands, with a body of water between them called ‘Tekwanago Lake’ (or at least that’s what I think it said). I said I knew where it was and just before he could close the folder and hand it to me I remember thinking that I needed to look and see if I could get some dates of when I would need to ‘go’ and when this ‘was’. I searched the page and at the bottom I saw some dates. Most of the area was blurry & out of focus, but I managed to read ‘3/27’ and ‘4/11’. ‘3/27’ was the present date in the dream, and ‘4/11’ was the date that the event that would cause the flooding would happen (in my dream I interpreted this as the arrival of Planet X). I took the folder and left --- there was a hubbub of people in the meeting, but no one was panicked. I am not sure that they ‘knew’ that this was coming, but rather that there was not much surprise. People moved with purpose.

I took my folder and walked down the hall and saw my friend Aneyshia. She had not been in the meeting so I stopped to show her the map of the safe place and explain to her what was happening. We spread the papers out on a table a bit so I could show her, but then I was afraid that the people walking by would see that I was telling her the information and I knew if I got caught it would mean incarceration or death for me. SO I scooped up my papers and continued on confident that she now knew where to go and what to do. I remember telling her to grab as many canned goods, etc as she could.

I left then, intent on getting back to my family and getting us prepared and I ran into my friend Quincint. And I stopped to share the same information with him that I showed to Aneyshia. I couldn’t find the map though and realized that I must have left it on the table with Aneyshia. I think I may have done this on purpose so that she would know where to go as I already ‘knew’ the place. A colonel with salt & pepper brown/grey hair came by and looked at me and I was worried that he would know that I was sharing secret information with Quincint, so I smiled at him and then I told Quincint to get with Aneyshia that she would have the details. Then I left before they could catch me. Then I woke up. It was 5:52 am CST, Monday, January 16th, 2011.

I was wide awake. I wrote down lots of details and drew a small map of the three humps/hills/islands and a vague representation of the lake. I wrote down the dates and that I knew I had about 2 weeks before TSHTF. I wrote down Aneyshia & Quincint’s name and the name of the lake. I have tried to find a lake in Wisconsin with a similar name but haven’t found one. It’s the right ‘kind’ of name for the state/area since there is a heavey predominance of Native American names in the state. There is a small city in the general area that I was looking at on my map called Mukwonago [link to maps.google.com] but I don’t know the terrain around there to see if it is similar enough; also, Mukwonago is in the South Eastern corner of the state -- it is not in the right 'spot' either. The highest point in Wisconsin is Timm’s Hill, but that is very far up north compared to what I was shown in my dream… perhaps earthquakes and land changes will change the topography enough that the highest point in the state will not be anymore by the time TSHTF and PX gets here (if indeed it does).

Thoughts & intuitions welcome.

The man who holds the snake currently wears a veil


The snake and the mountain lion attacked France


When the man who is veiled turns the snake against the mountain lion the snake will bite the mountain lion and the holder of the snake will have his face revealed from beneath the veil.

I was working as a government contractor in an office building at some off-site location. Someone called an impromptu meeting and was snagging people & pulling them into the meeting. Not everyone was called. It was early in the day – maybe late morning or early afternoon – the sun outside was bright and the trees were newly greening. As I walked past, mildly curious, someone called me by name and pulled me into the meeting as well.

They had stacks of manila folders with the red SECRET coversheets on them. A man in uniform grabbed one (I could not see his face, it was as if I were watching a movie the camera only filmed this person from the collar down) and asked me “Where is your family?” I was momentarily confused so I didn’t answer, and then the man in uniform asked me again “Where is your family?” and then I knew he meant where was I planning to go when TSHTF, so I answered “Wisconsin”. I could tell that he was looking for a Wisconsin folder – obviously there was more than one ‘safe’ location to choose from.

Then he said something like “OK” and flipped open a folder and showed me a map. “Do you know where this is?” he asked. I looked it over – it was a map of Wisconsin for sure, but most of it was under water except for a section in the north-central part of the state that was three hills rising above the water like islands, with a body of water between them called ‘Tekwanago Lake’ (or at least that’s what I think it said). I said I knew where it was and just before he could close the folder and hand it to me I remember thinking that I needed to look and see if I could get some dates of when I would need to ‘go’ and when this ‘was’. I searched the page and at the bottom I saw some dates. Most of the area was blurry & out of focus, but I managed to read ‘3/27’ and ‘4/11’. ‘3/27’ was the present date in the dream, and ‘4/11’ was the date that the event that would cause the flooding would happen (in my dream I interpreted this as the arrival of Planet X). I took the folder and left --- there was a hubbub of people in the meeting, but no one was panicked. I am not sure that they ‘knew’ that this was coming, but rather that there was not much surprise. People moved with purpose.

I took my folder and walked down the hall and saw my friend Aneyshia. She had not been in the meeting so I stopped to show her the map of the safe place and explain to her what was happening. We spread the papers out on a table a bit so I could show her, but then I was afraid that the people walking by would see that I was telling her the information and I knew if I got caught it would mean incarceration or death for me. SO I scooped up my papers and continued on confident that she now knew where to go and what to do. I remember telling her to grab as many canned goods, etc as she could.

I left then, intent on getting back to my family and getting us prepared and I ran into my friend Quincint. And I stopped to share the same information with him that I showed to Aneyshia. I couldn’t find the map though and realized that I must have left it on the table with Aneyshia. I think I may have done this on purpose so that she would know where to go as I already ‘knew’ the place. A colonel with salt & pepper brown/grey hair came by and looked at me and I was worried that he would know that I was sharing secret information with Quincint, so I smiled at him and then I told Quincint to get with Aneyshia that she would have the details. Then I left before they could catch me. Then I woke up. It was 5:52 am CST, Monday, January 16th, 2011.

I was wide awake. I wrote down lots of details and drew a small map of the three humps/hills/islands and a vague representation of the lake. I wrote down the dates and that I knew I had about 2 weeks before TSHTF. I wrote down Aneyshia & Quincint’s name and the name of the lake. I have tried to find a lake in Wisconsin with a similar name but haven’t found one. It’s the right ‘kind’ of name for the state/area since there is a heavey predominance of Native American names in the state. There is a small city in the general area that I was looking at on my map called Mukwonago [link to maps.google.com] but I don’t know the terrain around there to see if it is similar enough; also, Mukwonago is in the South Eastern corner of the state -- it is not in the right 'spot' either. The highest point in Wisconsin is Timm’s Hill, but that is very far up north compared to what I was shown in my dream… perhaps earthquakes and land changes will change the topography enough that the highest point in the state will not be anymore by the time TSHTF and PX gets here (if indeed it does).

Thoughts & intuitions welcome.

OK, I have read the whole thread finally -- in fits and spurts at work, on my phone, and now that I am home, I think I can lend some of my personal thoughts and experiences to this thread.

Your post above is particularly relevant, so I will jump in with that.

Almost like an inner voice is speaking outloud to an inner negative voice that is tormenting me. This is what the gnostics referred to as the counterfeit spirit, and Carl Jung referred to as the EGO. BRAVO! (Seriously!!) For recognizing that it (the ego) is NOT YOU. It is separate from you... In the Pistis Sophia, the 'Saviour' talks about how when a spirit comes down 'here' it must put on a soul suit, and then the archons weight it down with another 'counterfeit spirit', to keep it mired here. The ego's sole job is to keep you here, rooted in the material, to prevent you from figuring out who you really are. You could think of it as an inner, angry child, who is very, very afraid that if you overcome the ego, that it will die and thus it does it's level best to keep you thinking that YOU and the EGO are the same thing. An EXCELLENT film that demonstrates overcoming the ego, is REVOLVER. ( [link to www.imdb.com] I have written a comprehensive review of the gnostic/qabbalistic/hermetic symbolism of that movie here after Zite's very excellent review of the battle of EGO vs Soul. ( Thread: Revolver, Black Swan, Jung and... Enlightenment? My perceptions on these movies.

There is a lot more I can say and add to the subject of the Trinity and the Soul vs, Ego, but I will comment on it in a later post if people are interested.

a HUGE rush of negative energy to my gut like I was punched.
This -- what is happening here, is your karmic slate / debt coming up so that you can wipe it clean. In order to leave this place you must be balanced, and you cannot be balanced if you have guilt. Because of the experience you are going through, the feelings involved in this karmic-cleanup / burn routine is much more pronounced. Next time you encounter this, you should not squash it, instead, acknowledge the pain/ shame/anguish/guilt, and then when you have a private moment, wallow in it, feel as much of it as you can feel, and then apologize to the person / injured party involved. You can do this silently of course, but I personally have found it much more cathartic to do it out loud, crying like basket case / baby and let out all the feelings as I ask for their forgiveness. You will feel spent when it is done, but in the future, that particular moment will NEVER make you feel bad again... you burned up the karma. It doesn't matter one single bit if the person involved actually hears you with their physical ears, because their HIGHER SELF will hear you, and will forgive you of course, because they are 'Up There' and can see everything and understand completely why things happened the way they did. This karmic cleanup / burning of karma is necessary for you to progress to the higher levels of your path. Try it... it's hard and uncomfortable, but once those major moments are gone, you will go through a longer period of peace before any more come up to the surface, and those won't be nearly as painful to atone for. But every time one swims to the surface, don't run from it -- embrace it.

the energy you feel in certain areas of your body
This is wonderful that you are experiencing this, I experience the same. These are your chakra points activating. You will find that if you are still experiencing problems with control issues or egoic moments, that you may have a blockage in your lower chakras. This can be rectified with visualization techniques if you're comfortable with that, though frankly, in the beginning I used crystals. There are huge resources online for finding crystals that will help various chakra points, but I find that many people on this path already have a few laying around at home, that they didn't realize exactly why they had them, or forgot about them... and it will turn out to be the very type of stone they need for this initial period of clearing. For me, it was laying on my back with a fluorite pyramid on my breastbone and I felt a sharp, searing pain in my chest/breastbone as it began to unblock itself, that finally faded to a dull ache and then went away altogether. After this, things really began to accelerate for me. So if you have some time, I suggest trying it. Be prepared for there to be some discomfort! Blocked chakras make you feel like something is wrong with your 'body' when really it is not your physical body that is having problems, but you etheric one.

I feel energy "accelerating" in my abdomen and stomach
this energy moves upper to chest and head
the energy travels down, and bliss when it travels up
YAY! This (kundalini energy) is excellent that you are already feeling this. It is clearly depicted by the symbol of the Caduceus -- a winding snake of energy to go up, a winding snake of energy to go down, then it will accelerate and eventually you will feel the flapping of the 'wings' up near your shoulders and head. This experience for you will get better & more regular if you do the following things:
1. Unblock your chakras
2. Eat more vegetarian-like... you don't have to give up meat altogether right away, but it's better if you can cut out red meats and pork, and stick with chicken/poultry and fish. There's a reason why several major ancient religions don't eat certain meats. They keep us heavy on the material plane so that we cannot find our spiritual freedom.
3. Complete the circuit -- the earth is a node on the grid (connected to source). Many earths exist - possibly even infinite earths - all connected to one another (holographic fractal dimensions) and one of the very best ways to find your balance is to GROUND yourself. I personally spend several hours a week sitting outside, on the grass (or concrete will work, though not as well) ... just sitting, contemplating, meditating, talking to the universe. Visualize putting roots into the ground and draining the negativity off of you like flecks of black creosote or ash, then envision drawing the energy of the earth up into your spine. In the beginning this is all that is needed, as you advance more, pulling the energy into specific chakras will help you recharge and restore your balance.

BALANCE IN ALL THINGS IS KEY.

There's so much more, but I think this is a wall-o-text that should be left as it's own post. More later

I'm very glad to help. I had someone step up and help me when I started going through this stuff, and I really appreciated not feeling crazy because he knew / understood what I was going through even when I didn't.

As for the karma burn - yes, you will feel relief and peace. For me, I usually feel 'emotionally spent' the day or night that I do the burn, and then next day I feel much, much better, and the memory that caused so much pain doesn't hurt or make me cringe anymore.

This is how I communicate with people's higher selves, maybe it will work for you.

Find a quiet place where you can talk out loud and people won't look at you funny. I generally do this when I am sitting outside at night... no one around to hear me talk to the universe but me and some random animals

I get myself centered and calm, after I have done my grounding, and then I ask aloud 'Adam, are you there?'

And then I pay close attention to my inner self and my etheric body, and one of my chakras will resonate / pulse / spin. Usually it is the solar plexus or heart chakra, sometimes the navel chakra or the throat chakra. This is the higher self of this Avatar (of 'Adam' in my example) and they are 'pulsing' to let you know they heard you. Then you can talk to them about whatever you need to get off your chest, or ask them questions if you need information... especially good if you are having relationship problems of some kind - work, school, love life, etc. any kind of relationship is fair game. As you ask them questions, the pulsing will change to indicate yes or no. For me, a looping pulse means yes, and an absence of pulsing means no, and as I have gotten better at it, sometimes I can get other meanings as well based on the shape of the wave form... back and forth (like 'sort of' or 'you're getting warmer', etc), looping around in a crooked way might mean 'maybe', etc. But at first, it was yes or no only.

You can talk to your own higher self this way, too. I have had dozens of conversations with myself, with the universe, with the earth, with whatever... as you become open to the new ideas and knowledge and wisdom that you are accessing, more and more reasons to 'talk' to higher selves and the universe will come up :-)

I feel more like it's the MMORPG called THE SECRET WORLD except WAY more detailed and the puzzles are MUCH harder!

Oh goodness, of course this is an artificial reality.

It is a fractal holographic matrix of infinite decisions branching off into infinite dimensions.

It is also a 'game' within a 'game'... within a 'game' within a 'game, etc... on and on for who knows how many levels for certain? 5? 105?

The poster who told you to read The Ra Material and said that it's got truths and half-truths in it, is right. It will answer some questions, but if you buy into it wholesale, you will find yourself locked into another version of 'prison'. So will those following the green man / wicca path, or those who practice ceremonial magick, along with everyone who still hearkens to an actual established religion. Religion is a form of government, it's a form of control... it has laws (commandments), and punishments (penance) and taxes (tithing)... and can condemn you to death (hell or ex-communication). It's just another way to keep people asleep... keep the comfortable in a system of varying degrees of comfort and the black and white game of adversary vs. opponent.

Once you get to a certain point, you can see the black and white game going on around you, and once you can 'dis-invest' yourself from it, you will see a wider game being played based on the colors of the chakra, each color represents a different team.

This world we live in, this 'level' of the game is all about CHOOSING A SIDE or CHOOSING A TEAM.

The reason so many are waking up now is because we are nearing the end of this level in the game/experiment and the quickening is happening. People must choose a side. Those with the capacity to wonder 'what else is there?' will have the ability to choose their teams.

But only one team has agreed to show you the way home, the way out of the matrix-game, and that is green. There are two sides to the green team however, one that wants to stay in the game (the green man, the stag, cernunnos, etc) and the other which recognizes that they are in a prison and want a way out (Hermes Trismegistus, Hermes, Thoth, Jesus). But even still, if a person has not been able to bring their chakra resonance up to 'green level' (meaning the heart chakra) then they will not get the chance to choose to leave. You can realize you are in a game and not be a loving person... you cannot get out without satisfying the exit requirements. Because if you can't meet those requirements, you haven't learned enough to get out. But the next level up from this one will be better for everyone, even the darksiders, because memories will be kept instead of being washed away with every life.

Don't worry about me, I'm not a new-ager. I'm a gnostic/qabbalist/hermeticist/and whatever else fits.

Assimilate - new information
Incorporate - some of that information is worth keeping
Discern - whether it resonates 'true' with you
Discard - get rid of the rest, just dump it as trash or no good

Always use discernment. All those sites on the internet could be giving you information that is just as big a lie as (you believe) the information I gave you above. Discernment is the most important thing, getting locked into *any* belief system at all is just another trap.

The myths of the world tell you the history of the world, if that's something that you want to know. All of them are true. All of them.

If you want to know how better to play THE GAME and what the rules are? Then these books will help you:
SETH SPEAKS
The RA Material and The Law Of One
The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth

If you want to learn how to escape this 'Game' then you must:
SEEK TRUTH always. Find some new information? AIDD: assimilate it, incorporate it, sit on it for a few days, discern if it's truthful & resonates with you, and discard the remainder.
DO the WORK... you must seek, and you must have desire in your heart. You cannot escape if you are not willing to prove that you are loving enough, and have achieved gnosis to the point that you are ready to rejoin the makers of this game. If you try to leave (if you even were allowed to) your energetic body would be 'burned up' by the world our makers come from. No one wants that -- they don't and you don't, that's why this system was put in place. To control the chaos, to order and teach. The game was created, and the creation of life was an accident... they didn't mean to create us, but once they did, they knew they had to do right by us... teaching those of us who were ready to 'Gnow' and understand how to leave and rejoin the makers.
READ. For me, this was a big one. The books that helped me most were:
The Pistis Sophia (GRS Mead translation)
The Apocryphon of John (Davies Translation)
The Corpus Hermeticum (GRS Mead)
The Book of Enoch
The Virgin of the World
The Gospel of Mary
The Gospel of Thomas
The Bible
And various mythologies of Greek, Roman, Egyptian, Norse, Shinto, Buddhist and Hindu. I have not read all of them, but I followed the gnosis and it bloomed. If something stands out to you, and makes you go hmmmm, then find more information about it, and if something in that bit of information makes you go hmmm, then follow that... breadcrumbs. That is how the gnosis will first start blooming and eventually, you won't be surprised anymore when you find synchronicities pop up all over the place.

The steps involved in spiritual alchemy are a valid description of the process you are going through -- that we are all going through, which is why we are posting in this thread.

The chakra system may be artificial -- but it is also necessary to learn it in order to get out. Follow your arrow, follow the Arrow of Truth... everyone has one deep inside them that shows them the way home, all you have to do is find it and follow it to the 'gate'. By the time you find it, you will already have the keys to open the gate and escape.

It's my calling to plant seeds, so even if you don't believe what I have said, you will still retain some of this information, and when you are ready to understand it fully, it will be there for you :-)