Makes more sense that a reasoning being or God is resposible for our creation

Absolutely.

Chaos is an illusion, omnipotent Divine Will is always present.

while starting/born in the middle of it
we can never be sure

What established the operating set whereby so-called survival of the fittest is the rule?

The big bang is very small thinking.

First off, if everything "just happened" from nothingness, if nothingness existed before there was Mind, nothingness would have been permanent.

The big bang never happened. But what is happening right now, has always happened, and always will happen is the "constant roar".

Out from the infinite expanse, spherically radiates pure kinetic recognized as the current (material) of time. This is all the future. There is a structure that I call the infinite impedance that exists, caused by where the ONE infinitesimal singularity IS NOT, as a component of its infinite angular kinetics "flight path".

When the time current impacts the infinite impedance, all absolute infinite kinetic "explodes" into all infinite 3D space. But only for an infinitesimal duration because the time characteristics have been converted into space, so there is zero time.

This time-to-space conversion process is a constant string of instances, probably at Planck frequency. We call this, "the present". Space is absolute static (no kinetics).

The infinite 3D space collapses (spherically) back into the default state of absolute kinetics only now we recognize this as all the past.

The time current continues to flood spherically down and inward (as all the past) toward the ONE infinitely kinetic, infinitesimal singularity... the source that started this whole thing (see above) with the "flight path".

Where the singularity IS, as a component of the infinite angular kinetics, upholds/generates the infinite expanse (and the spatial dimension of height). The infinite impedance (singularity IS NOT) is the spatial dimension of width. The singularity itself is the spatial dimension of depth.

The constant roar is far, far more shocking than a one time event of some big bang. Pfft, small thinkers....