Well I am off the opiates, have been for a while now. I take tramodol 50 mg. I use to take 8 a day now I am down to 5 or 6 a day. I have tons of nodes all over my body very painful also the on both hips on the sides. I can only more or less just sleep on my right side and on my back. I toss and turn.
If you sit by me you will hear my bones snap crackle pop.

These nodes are very hard and hurt some the size of a quarter if not bigger, we have two areas of black mold in the house. I would just like take a break from this atmosphere here, I know my whole disposition would get better. So much mold here, wet and damp, don't like cold.

My son was a real terrible addict, I talked him into going to this doctor and advised maybe if he tries the tramodol he might be able to get off of everything else. So he went to that doctor and he ended up putting him on methadone. Which that was the worst mistake ever. I quit going to him he knows I was PO, he knows that I have been working my own program.
See the hardest thing I have ever faced is when one wants to turn there life around but doesn't leave their sick inviornment its harder, but yet I am still doing good, but its
doing something to my spirit.

See people are sick as their secrets, Addiction has a very ugly face. I even dream about just living alone with my granddaughter and give her the best up bringing I can possibly do. I have it in me. But something I never did is move on with my life, but its a sad shame that money has to be the issue for me to raise my frequencies. Everytime I have went a way for a couple of days my whole disposition changes.

I even think living in this swamp area is not good for me either as far as pain. But I have come a long way from 8 tramodol to 5 or six a day. I can't wait till I am down to 4 and then two, then I will have the last demon gone, besides being an emotional eater, which wow thats gone too.

But I want to thank starfleet in working withme, I know they are, because I feel it, my body is changing.

But in order for one to change it is imperative to leave that sick enviornment, ( the enviornment where it lacks disipline, divine love, hopes and dreams, and a house that is divided) a house that is divided just cannot stand. And I am living proof, it will make one sick truly it will.

If there was a place that I could join my granddaughter and I were it is a positive establishment to teach her all the skills I would be there right along with her doing it with her. Oh my goodness if you could see this girl draw she is truly an artist. And sooooooo bright, has spiritual insight she is deep ver deep. I prayed to God years back and I was lonely and I asked for a grandchild and I got one.

Her name is Kaydence Reign and she does reign.....she is my rythmic beat, she is made of gold but she does deserve the best...I wish I could give it to her. Her and I lived all alone for a year and she told me how much fun it was jsut her and I living together.