I don't wanna rant on here and be off-topic, but I greatly respect all u guys and value your feedback so I'll make it brief.

Maybe the depression is a side effect from feeling a 'disconnection' from the world lately. Anxiety has been very high lately, can't even bring myself to walk in a store or hang out with people. Can't even get on here sometimes, the exposure is overwhelming. I'm between jobs and cannot afford psych treatment. Things just seem to be spiraling out of control lately and I don't know what to do anymore.

That's all, starting to tear up a bit here. If you have advice or moral support, feel free to inbox me :)

apologies to anybody offended for getting off the solar track there.