one out of five girls, i have had SP since birth (i remember being born)
but unlike everyone else i have read stories of, my SP occurs as im falling asleep, NOT as im waking up.
so i feel out of the loop already.

no figures, though once i tried to 'follow' the buzzing sound that happens in my ears back to its source.
i got a good clear flash of a grey behind a console, it noticed me looking at him and turned up a dial.it even made an angry face which i wasnt aware they could do.
the buzzing got very loud then and i fell into the black hole i always fall into when SP occurs.

its really painful, my whole body.
they say dont fight it, but its a natural reaction imo...cant NOT fight it.

i used to be able to snap out of it, IF i was able to move a pinkie finger RIGHT AWAY.this has rarely happened but i still try.
im not able to wake up.
its falling into a black hole, a vacuum basically.

my mother told me when i was about four that when i couldnt move meant i was OVERTIRED.she never explained what that was.

ive learned to live with it because no one can make it stop.
no one can TELL when its about to happen.
i myself have very little warning.
the sound comes and its like a blanket is laid over me.quickly.
so i have very little time to act.
ive tried to change my breathing but that is no help.
NOTHING helps.

ive found NO pattern as to times or emotional upsets being a cause, they just happen.ive had dreams of ufos and aliens yes but not as an abductee.some are good and some are bad dreams.

im exhausted from screaming.
no one can hear me but i have to let it out anyway.
its that painful.
the next mornings im usually exhausted.

maybe ONCE it will occur when im waking up but im 42 now and its always happened when im falling asleep.

no one in my family gets it.