I am depressed. I think about "exiting stage at almost every waking moment, and when would be the best time.

I have so much baggage I wish to not leave behind, yet in case I do, I want those directly affected to please forgive me and understand WHY I did it.



Life, it seems to fade away,
Drifting further every day.
Getting lost within myself,
NOTHING matters, no one else.
I HAVE LOST THE WILL TO LIVE,
Simply NOTHING more to give.
There is nothing more for me,
Need the end to set me free...

...Metallica

Its no longer wanting to live for me. Its a matter of how soon I choose to go and how much I can clean up before I do.


I'm really sorry. I wouldn't expect MOST on this board to know how I feel, but I no longer wake with a smile. I wake thinking how to get through another MUNDANE day which has been kinda like the movie "Groundhog Day".

I wake up to the same old shit day IN, day OUT. NOTHING but the weather changes in MY life...


Suxorz.






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Sorry GLP. KNOW that there WAS a time when it was ALL good.

Nowadays? .....NOTHING.





...soon we shall part