Thank you all so much!! Tink- I wish I could have avoided this brand of negative energy!! Unfortunately, this was one of those instances where I had to experience it....work through it....and find my way back. I know what's meant to happen, happens...and we have to accept our role...accept we've done what we can or what we are meant to do. I still question this...and thus where the self doubt comes in. Harder still, I seem to pick up when someone is being untruthful...it's those little discrepancies...the conflicts that sometimes others overlook that make it so glaring to me. I believe I am learning to cope with this as well...learning it is not personal...but a reflection of the other person's ego.
I think I am very close to an understanding about the peripheral vision or the bird/flying thing. BTW...my daughter was sitting on the chair today doing her school work and described the exact same experience...her bird was grey. Mind you...I have not spoken about his aloud...have only written down what I saw.

Again...thank you all~~