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Who or what controls this illusion?

 
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most likely this illusion was all created at once by the program controller which is you, me, us

we as program controller split ourselves off into different roles to experience.

everything you think, feel and actions you take are scripted and have already happened.

you think you have free will but that's only because your thoughts are scripted just as mine are

we are all from the same program controller which seeks different experiences through us

we are living through forced scripting

nothing you do is spontaneous. it's all scripted.
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you know what has been holding back the zero limitations. myself.

always wanting to take the safe route by applying for work/exchange situations or living in other people's homes or asking people for money etc.etc.

so now i've decided to no longer take the safe limitation route and i'm leaving this place i'm living

how can i expect zero limitations if i don't 'jump off a cliff'?

i've always been nudged to leave or gotten some nasty experience.

this time i'm choosing to leave security so i can actually LIVE with zero limitations

what's the worst thing that can happen?

i die

so what? i'm not afraid of death

fuck limitations

time for zero limitations.

using IDs or placing ads or asking for money or applying for work/exchange doesn't feel right anymore. even having a bank account doesn't feel right anymore LOL

time to live

living on my own terms by my rules!
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don't you see

if i don't let go of ALL limitations i will never be free to really LIVE

the magick comes once i LET GO of the security

security = limitation
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i gave notice to my landlord and i'm leaving this week

headed south for rest of winter

need to get more clarity.

once i pay for ride likely not much $ for a place to stay LOL

summer goal will be to head back to pac northwest or british columbia canada

fuck limitations

better off dead than to live like a limitation slave
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"Who or what controls this illusion? "

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- the fact that you don't (always) see it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. It just happens that it doesn't always end up nicely...
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thank you both for your posts.

okay i understand what has been going on. needed more clarity. you know.

i've been giving mixed messages. wanting to die yet wanting to live. not really clear.

the other day when my partner and i talked of 'exiting' this illusion about 1 hour later whitney houston died.

like i said...i think things or talk about them and they change things on an international level. it's surreal.

i'm going to a beach community. already got a ride. working on a place with someone now.

i have to figure out whether i want to live or leave this illusion. i'm going there to get more clarity on that first.

i need warmth and beach at the moment to think.

i talked to the neighbour lady a couple days back. out of nowhere came tears. lots of tears. it came out of nowhere. i also mourn for whitney houston. i know it sounds strange but symbolically she is me on a bigger level. our landlord was being nasty. he offered we stay longer but he talked in a controlling abusive manner. so i told my partner i'm the power and don't tolerate such things. i told him that we would leave. ever since that i've been creating things smoothely.

we will go to that beach place. maybe this summer teleport to british columbia. right now i need warmth and beach and sun and to get clarity on what i want.
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headed to beach city further south tomorrow. got a ride and got a place already.

funny on monday i gave notice here @ 1am and i've arranged for new home and ride already LOL. i created it all within 8 hours after i gave notice

i don't know how much longer i can function in this world like this...head stuff MASSIVE MASSIVE MASSIVE. the best way i can describe it is it seems as though we're 'pulling out' of this world..

functioning is a major issue...mind doesn't work..forget things...very difficult using the mind for anything.

money stuff seems still to be a nuisance...

i'm just gonna let go more

the guy who post the jungian stuff about wounded healers and the collective archetypes makes alot of sense..that would explain things going on with me at micro level reflected at macro level

all your posts have helped me

i never posted on GLP for attention. i was looking solely for to bounce things off of others hopefully to get more clarity...

when i say people are characters i say that's how they appear to me...almost like caricatures...almost like they're not real...no offense intended...you know like i've said before..almost as if they've got this 'ego helmet' on which clouds their ability to 'see'

i don't care if i'm 'the one' or an avatar or whatever...just wanna have a nice existence here and am very exhausted by what is happening to me...like i said i'd prefer just being a 'regular joe' rather than having these experiences

yeah you get the kewl stuff but also the discomfort...very little rest...

the whole concept that i post here to serve ego is funny...i came here to perhaps get answers...but as robert wilson says of the 'chapel perilous'..you end up kind of better off by discarding all beliefs...anyways the whole idea of ego is illusion fed to me by the 'higher part' the same as my thoughts etc. but the idea that i feel special from this is laughable...i wouldn't wish this on anybody! and trust me you wouldn't want it if you would experience it!
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hahahahahahahaha

you wanna know something folks!! i'm da man!!!! lol

this new city i'm going to where i created a place and a ride already...well i knew there was this guy living there from my high school...well i created that i have contact with him..well guess what i found out...he lives right next door to us on the same street

hahahahahahahaha

damn i'm a fantastic creator!!!
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i called the guy from high school. can you see how kewl my world is? i arrange a house in the city south of here and he lives on the same street next door!!!!

funny also i called him yesterday and he said 'maybe you are a prophet' LOL. he asked me if i'd go with him this weekend to a non-denominational church in his area...i said 'sure'..

i'm getting the idea my part in this 'movie' we are in is some sort of religious thing. my 'higher part' is giving me that idea. strange also is that i'm opening up to really feeling a huge LOVE in my heart for everyone and everything in my world...you know like i'm here to take everyone in my arms and love them...i know that sounds strange...

i'm gonna go where my 'higher part' wants to take me. after what it presented this week i figure i can wait for teleporting and the other stuff. maybe it's the illusionary egoic part that is wanting wanting wanting like a little baby

oh yeah..no surprise this friend from high school absolutely loves whitney houston~

it seems my 'bigger part' has a 'spiritual role' here for me and now i feel in my heart that i need to do what my 'bigger part' wants. there was a reason in gatwick when i slept overnight when i looked around at the homeless and other travelers when i felt a great love for people around me and i said to myself 'i love my children'

something has turned on in me...i feel a great luv in my heart

you all mean alot to me and i want a better world for all of you.

one last thing. this new 'head stuff' my partner and i have...we can't really sleep anymore. we just lie there. we don't think. it's just that we have this huge energy surging through us...this is new...it has been already very little sleep for 2 weeks...maximum 2-3 hours a night~
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i called the guy from high school. can you see how kewl my world is? i arrange a house in the city south of here and he lives on the same street next door!!!!

funny also i called him yesterday and he said 'maybe you are a prophet' LOL. he asked me if i'd go with him this weekend to a non-denominational church in his area...i said 'sure'..

i'm getting the idea my part in this 'movie' we are in is some sort of religious thing. my 'higher part' is giving me that idea. strange also is that i'm opening up to really feeling a huge LOVE in my heart for everyone and everything in my world...you know like i'm here to take everyone in my arms and love them...i know that sounds strange...i'm gonna go where my 'higher part' wants to take me. after what it presented this week i figure i can wait for teleporting and the other stuff. maybe it's the illusionary egoic part that is wanting wanting wanting like a little baby

oh yeah..no surprise this friend from high school absolutely loves whitney houston~

it seems my 'bigger part' has a 'spiritual role' here for me and now i feel in my heart that i need to do what my 'bigger part' wants. there was a reason in gatwick when i slept overnight when i looked around at the homeless and other travelers when i felt a great love for people around me and i said to myself 'i love my children'

something has turned on in me...i feel a great luv in my heart

you all mean alot to me and i want a better world for all of you.

one last thing. this new 'head stuff' my partner and i have...we can't really sleep anymore. we just lie there. we don't think. it's just that we have this huge energy surging through us...this is new...it has been already very little sleep for 2 weeks...maximum 2-3 hours a night~
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Not strange at all!!

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I haven't slept for almost 30 hours now and still not tired. Not on drugs or anything, only exception that I drank 2 liters of coca cola :DD and some coffee.

I've also made a connection that I haven't been able to make for a long time, such intense good feeling, also said to be love.

And OP, I know what you mean by those "coincidences", that more likely are some kind of providence. Embrace those coincidences and seek meaning in them; it's a wonderful time you'll be entering, so good luck to you! And to everyone else too! Rejoice in your own Boddhisattvic state, as in the state of spiritual level of all beings! Just be careful not to be distracted, even though it becomes rather hard after a long time and many experiences to go the wrong way anymore.

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Okay I debated posting again here but decided I needed to express myself because I have noone to talk to other than my partner.

My world seems so small now. I mean this is definitely my world and my powers are increasing minute to minute. My head makes me dizzy sometimes because it's intense the energy surging thru my body.

You won't believe the synchronicities in my life and it would almost seem a conspiracy but it isn't. It's because this is my world and I created it. I know that. I know noone can harm my partner or I. I'm getting more of an idea of who I am.

The man we rented from in North Asheville was in prison for 6 years as a convicted sex offender. See how I'm dealing with those collective archetypes. That's why that Jungian stuff makes so much sense to me. Anyways the guy is so deluded that he thinks these young boys actually want to do anything with him. This man is loaded with rage and has control issues from his own childhood. That's why he does these things. I don't judge him but I told him it's not the norm though it may be natural to him. He is a perpetrator or predator and that's how I observed him. This sort of stuff WILL STOP. No more domination or control or abuse etc.etc. I'm glad to have moved from there.

Now you won't believe this but we road in the car from North Asheville to Charleston, SC. The people that drove us are completely out of the system. They talked about conspiracies and foods and stuff. No surprise now 'cause everyone is scripted according to ME. Anyways you won't believe it. A day before they picked us up they went to the former 'retreat' I worked at. They met the abusive man at the 'retreat' and said there was something strange about him. REmember I told you the old wife of that man wanted to die and I made it so she would die. Well she did die last year. So I created that for her. I also created before I left the retreat that he lose the 'retreat' and that he becomes homeless. Well now he is being evicted from the 'retreat' and has nowhere to go. He is a domineering and controlling user and abuser and that shit is gonna STOP. I won't tolerate that shit in my world anymore. Nobody is gonna get hurt anymore. NOBODY!! But see how my world is. The people that drive me met the abusive guy from the 'retreat' I world at only a day earlier. They heard about the 11/11 event that the guy had and he overbooked people and did other stuff. No surprise because he is a scam artist and fraud claiming 'abilities' and such. He hated me because I saw thru his bullshit. Just like the guy at the last place we lived (the pedo) hated me because I saw thru him clearly. The guy at the last place even said that he didn't like our energy because he couldn't sleep because of it.

Now you wanna see how unbelievable my world is. I move onto a street in Charleston and someone I know from high school lives down the street. He still holds the school records in 110 and 220 yard dash. He was very popular and probably an asshole in high school. He has done heavy drugs his whole life. Now he's on the alcohol. In fact everyone in this house drinks alcohol (not us). I love them all dearly but I hate what the poison does to people. Anyways with this guy down the street I automatically feel his pain and I want to fix that. So I've created he stops drinking and I am repairing his body. It pains me GREATLY to see what a world I've created and the suffering going on. He tells me he wants to die. His liver is bad and he keeps drinking. He has HIV also. He cried yesterday and I just stroked his face and told him I'm here for him and that I can help him emotionally and physically. He misses his mother who died last year and he feels like a loser because he went from being successful in high school to fucking up his life. I told him it doesn't matter that shit and that he's as valuable as anyone else. Anyways it fuckin pisses me off this shit. These poisons in the world have to go also.

You know all this shit is just powerless crap. The booze..the pedos...the use/abuse/domination/victimization crap comes from powerlessness bullshit!! It WILL CHANGE!

I feel a complete love for everyone and everything around me. My heart has opened up with this guy from high school. The pain I'm feelings is immense. All this shit has to go thru me to heal and be released. I can't stand feeling the pain of the characters around me. I just wanna hold everyone in my arms and stop the suffering.

So I will do just that. I am gonna be the force of love in this world.

Anyways thanks for listening...I need to express because the stress I'm under is ENORMOUS.
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Thanks everyone btw for your posts. I'm reading them.

Obviously my User Id changed since I move to Charleston.
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Forgot to say also that the man we rented from in North Asheville is in Mexico for obvious reasons.

I have already created that his car breaks down and that he ends up in prison in Mexico for what he's doing.

That's enough posting...
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i'll be the passenger and you can be behind the wheel...
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I can pretty much see through all the bullshit of this illusion and will sum in up below.

1) It's scripted shit - Your character role is scripted and so is the storyline.

2) Law of attraction is bullshit - It doesn't matter what you say, do, think or believe - The who or what that controls this illusion will sometimes give you what you believe but sometimes not. There is no set formula or rhyme or reason.

3) It seems like a sort of "inverted reality" where you get often what you don't want and what you want is unreachable. Though once in awhile the PC (Program controller) throws out a "cookie" or a "carrot" to pull you along down different "rabbit holes"

4) No one know anything! All you know is you think therefore you are! You can't trust your perceptions. Where do your thoughts, feelings come from? Are your thoughts and feelings scripted by the PC (Program controller)

So my question for you is WHO or WHAT do you think controls this illusion?

It could be the following:

1) Evil Aliens

2) We're already microchipped at birth and we're already programmed

3) We have a higher or expanded part that is "pooping out" scene after scene.

Now I'm going with number 3) because it seems to me I have this big blob or PC (Program Controller) or expanded self or higher self that just "poops out" scenes regardless of what I feel about that scene. It is like this machine that just robotically produces scenes and even has scripted my thoughts, beliefs, feelings and actions. It's all scripted bullshit and yes I've posted before.

It seems the Expanded Asshole that controls this illusion just keeps trying to suck me into the bullshit that is this illusion. It will try to suck me in by using those around me or events to get me going down "rabbit holes" again or buying into the kaka that is this illusion.

Problem is I ain't buying it anymore. I really don't give a flying fuck whether there are chemtrails or whether we end up in FEMA camps...who cares? Just a storyline.

What pisses me off is the fact that I'm not "in the driver's seat". That there is some robotic or sick and twisted fuck of a being controlling the script and my scenes.

I'm looking to hear from others about what or whom they feel controls this illusion and the script.

Not looking for a discussion about whether this illusion is scripted or not.

Not looking for some mind control games by shilltards.

Not looking for a psych evaluation from amateurs who have their own mental problems

Was Descartes correct that some evil aliens are controlling this illusion?

Like I said I believe it's an expanded self that is robotic and "poops out" scenes and feels nothing about what I experience. But I can never know for sure.

The fucker sure likes to dangle "carrots" out there to get me going down "rabbit holes"..that's for sure...

The storyline sure doesn't interest me anymore...could care less about conspiracy shit or mainstream shit...'cause it's all shit...just more "TRAPS" the PC (Program Controller) is dishing out

And please no posts from arrogant condescending assholes who think they know for 100% anything...just your THEORIES because let's face it that's all we have!

I'm gonna read responses and not respond probably for awhile just 'cause I wanna read people's thoughts is all

Thanks!
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WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TALKING TO?
"..that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved." Romans 10:9



“See, all your angry enemies lie there, confused and ashamed. Anyone who opposes you will die” Isaiah 41:11
“I am the one who exposes the false prophets as liars by causing events to happen that are contrary to their predictions” Isaiah 44:25
“I have sworn by my own name, and I will never go back on my word: Every knee will bow to me, and every tongue will confess allegiance to my name.” Isaiah 45:23
“He who gives me justice is near. Who will dare to oppose me now? Where are my enemies? Let them appear!” Isaiah 50:8
“I, even I, am the one who comforts you. So why are you afraid of mere humans, who wither lie grass and disappear? Yet you have forgotten the LORD, your Creator, the one who put the stars in the sky and established the earth. Will you remain in constant dread of human oppression? Will you continue to fear the anger of your enemies from morning till night?” Isaiah 51:12-13
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it's not nice for me knowing what/who i am

my friend from high school can drink his mind into oblivion all day everyday and i've gotta do what i gotta do...it sucks!

better forgetting who i am. better to be a 'regular joe'

talk about 'loss of innocence'
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I can pretty much see through all the bullshit of this illusion and will sum in up below.

1) It's scripted shit - Your character role is scripted and so is the storyline.

2) Law of attraction is bullshit - It doesn't matter what you say, do, think or believe - The who or what that controls this illusion will sometimes give you what you believe but sometimes not. There is no set formula or rhyme or reason.

3) It seems like a sort of "inverted reality" where you get often what you don't want and what you want is unreachable. Though once in awhile the PC (Program controller) throws out a "cookie" or a "carrot" to pull you along down different "rabbit holes"

4) No one know anything! All you know is you think therefore you are! You can't trust your perceptions. Where do your thoughts, feelings come from? Are your thoughts and feelings scripted by the PC (Program controller)

So my question for you is WHO or WHAT do you think controls this illusion?

It could be the following:

1) Evil Aliens

2) We're already microchipped at birth and we're already programmed

3) We have a higher or expanded part that is "pooping out" scene after scene.

Now I'm going with number 3) because it seems to me I have this big blob or PC (Program Controller) or expanded self or higher self that just "poops out" scenes regardless of what I feel about that scene. It is like this machine that just robotically produces scenes and even has scripted my thoughts, beliefs, feelings and actions. It's all scripted bullshit and yes I've posted before.

It seems the Expanded Asshole that controls this illusion just keeps trying to suck me into the bullshit that is this illusion. It will try to suck me in by using those around me or events to get me going down "rabbit holes" again or buying into the kaka that is this illusion.

Problem is I ain't buying it anymore. I really don't give a flying fuck whether there are chemtrails or whether we end up in FEMA camps...who cares? Just a storyline.

What pisses me off is the fact that I'm not "in the driver's seat". That there is some robotic or sick and twisted fuck of a being controlling the script and my scenes.

I'm looking to hear from others about what or whom they feel controls this illusion and the script.

Not looking for a discussion about whether this illusion is scripted or not.

Not looking for some mind control games by shilltards.

Not looking for a psych evaluation from amateurs who have their own mental problems

Was Descartes correct that some evil aliens are controlling this illusion?

Like I said I believe it's an expanded self that is robotic and "poops out" scenes and feels nothing about what I experience. But I can never know for sure.

The fucker sure likes to dangle "carrots" out there to get me going down "rabbit holes"..that's for sure...

The storyline sure doesn't interest me anymore...could care less about conspiracy shit or mainstream shit...'cause it's all shit...just more "TRAPS" the PC (Program Controller) is dishing out

And please no posts from arrogant condescending assholes who think they know for 100% anything...just your THEORIES because let's face it that's all we have!

I'm gonna read responses and not respond probably for awhile just 'cause I wanna read people's thoughts is all

Thanks!
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WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TALKING TO?
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i'm talking to my own reflection
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better forgetting who i am. better to be a 'regular joe'
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Does it have to be either/or?
Can it not be both, at the same time?
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better forgetting who i am. better to be a 'regular joe'
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Does it have to be either/or?
Can it not be both, at the same time?
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i wish i could just be a 'normal person' or 'regular joe'

this stuff just started happening. i'm kind of jealous of people like my friend down the street. he can drink. he can have sex. he can fuck up his life. he can have a job.

i started getting this stuff in the 1990s. worse symptoms started 2005. then my 'character life' or my '3D life' went away. family-of-origin gone. security gone, money gone. career gone. my sense of who i am gone. friends gone. beliefs gone. drama gone. ego gone. mostly emotions gone. many attachments/desires gone.

i look at characters and they're so fucked up but at least they have a life and enjoy themselves to some degree even though they're mostly 'blind'

i'm not 'blind'. i 'see' everything. i make the script to a degree. certain things are kept from me. if i wanted to drink i wouldn't have the money. if i drank i wouldn't even get trashed. i can't even be surprised by my world anymore because of the way things are scripted.

characters for the most part have no idea who/what i am. they ask about things like job or stuff like that. what am i supposed to tell them? i'm an infinite being creating this world lol. it's incredibly lonely this because i can 'see' too much.

i wouldn't wish my 'existence' on anybody because it's difficult and lonely. i have my partner yes but still the loneliness

so i have my friend from high school down the street. i thought MAYBE he could be the character to ground me or get me rooted back into this world because i've got my head in the clouds all the time with this 'head stuff' i have. but what does it turn out to be? lucky me gets to heal some fuckin archetype. i've got drunks around me here and my friend is a drunk who wants to suicide. they all want to suicide. i want to live and experience this world but i'm stuck doing this shit that has taken my life away. they all have a death wish and i wish i had their ignorance and their lives because at least they're 'living'

this process i've gone thru took me out of my 'character role' and now i'm hanging somewhere at the mountaintop below the clouds whereas my 'character role' was at 'field level'. my 'higher part' is 'in the sunshine' orchestrating things for me and apparently i've got some shitty thing i agreed to..so here i am.

to be completely forgetting who i really am would be a 'slice of heaven' because knowing i'm the one who creates this world is very lonely and i don't feel like i'm 'living'

i wanted my friend down the street to spend time with me but he loves his bottle instead which is a major disappointment to me. i apply for regular jobs but it's always blocked.

instead i get these massive symptoms and walk around in this dream world where i get to clean up the mess..

my life has been hijacked!
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and to answer your question NO it can't be both at the same time.
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Like to a lonely dragon, that his fen.
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Like to a lonely dragon, that his fen.
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hey Caius lol,

you are right about my being a dragon in chinese astrology (1964) lol. seriously though i do seem to be able to make any kind of weather i like. same deal with creating that people's cars give out. rescripting for characters is easy. now i created $300 out of thin air just by telling my last landlard to keep my $200 deposit (he's a greedy fuck) because i didn't give a shit...then it appeared without me asking plus i got the $200 deposit back also.

i had to look up 'fen' and found that it's worth about 1/100 of a yuan (chinese currency) but also that it means marshland. funny you say this because i am surrounded by marsh and it's beautiful.

i wanted to address a couple things. one is my partner is bitching about the money thing. i listen to him now and it sounds so foreign to me because i'm not really caring that much about money anymore. it's strange to listen to him and the bitching. i must admit i try and influence him to stop bitching but maybe i should just let him be. he is mortal and i'm immortal but i've given him the same as me.

i have to address the loneliness. a main reason for the loneliness is that i can see the people around me as 'characters/caricatures'...meaning they appear as almost like 'cartoon characters'...meaning 'not real'...i can 'see' everything..the programming...their 'ego helmet'...it has gotten worse lately....they walk around all 'blind' and are all conflicted also. i think that is because i like to confuse and because i am all aspects that i get a mix of traits with characters

i have to learn to not talk to characters. it's not good. i love all my characters but being too open is a definite 'no-go'. it's almost as if they're searching from me information to make my world better for me. as if they're observing me. lol. i always tell me partner that my 'bigger part' is communicating thru everyone

one other thing. there a 3 cats and 2 dogs here which i luv. and no surprise there are huge flocks of birds here. i go outside in the gardens out back next to the pond with fish and the noise from the birds is deafening. 1000s of birds. birds are my friends. i really have a connection with them.

my name now is IMB = infinite multidimensional being
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but also that it means marshland. funny you say this because i am surrounded by marsh and it's beautiful.
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Fare thee well.
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but also that it means marshland. funny you say this because i am surrounded by marsh and it's beautiful.
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Dwelling place of the Lernaean Hydra.
Fare thee well.
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you've got interesting posts...

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i'm afraid my friend from high school has opened my heart. damnit!

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don't think about the illusion and invest money in peer to peer investing instead of stocks and banks. What more? Live life to the fullest. Don't demand things be better, because it doesn't work like that.

By believing, one sees. It's not "by demanding one receives."
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"We rise by kneeling; we conquer by surrendering; we gain by giving up".
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