Who or what controls this illusion?

OP's having a gays midlife crisis, running an onegayshow in this thread!

Are you trying to push the OP button's? Or are you secretly talking about yourself?

and what's the difference between a "gay" midlife crisis and a "straight" midlife crisis?

Why do you think you do that?

According to OP , we are all scripted bots including OP.
His behaviour is gayish.

I guess it's convenient for you to think that, you've repeated it throughout this thread, usually when challenged on something.

The difference is an old gay realise it's not natural to be gay and would want offsprings themselves.

yes because i have a direct relationship with this "force" and it controls all of you. your thoughts, feelings and actions are 100% scripted.

this relationship with this "force" is tedious so when there is PC scripting thru bots i go away sometimes because it's old and boring...

the PC has no influence on me anymore. i'm way beyond reacting lol

but doesn't OP claim he's broken free of the scripting and his ego and has risen above us botz?

Well, I don't know about that, but for many people, life's meaning does come from having offspring I guess.

Ofcourse not, anybody can claim they're broken free, talking is cheap!
If you're not the designer itself, you can't claim to be broken free or know the working of the design in details or improve the design itself!

i think the opposite of what you say is the truth

Everything you say on here is really about YOU trying to convince YOURSELF of something you're not really all that sure about.

Hey OP, I'm in my mid forties and when I realized the same as you I just about snapped. It has taken me a while to get back to "experiencing" and ignoring the realization that this is all scripted. I personally came to the conclusion that we are here solely to "experience" in a veiled and pre-destined fashion.

To me, it would be very difficult to learn everything I need to know in a "dualistic" light based universe vicariously. It made more sense to me, the more I thought about it, that in order to get the best education I would have to involve myself in a pre-destined, scripted and veiled environment via a multitude of incarnations to truly learn and understand at a higher level.

It all made more sense to me when I took ownership of this role I was playing and the importance of it. There might be "controllers" out there,but they are just playing a part in my play and they are playing a part in mine - all for "our" greater good. No one is "above" me or "below" me.

Becoming "self aware" was a mindf*ck and ironically, it seems that I AM the one in control. Life sure does go better for me now that I don't fight it and just "allow" everything to play out as I and everyone else around me intended.

What a paradox.

answer: alien maggots that lie habitually -- an ethereal virus that needs to be cured and quarantined.

Do you get to decide that?

Depends on if it's scripted for you to move on or not.

If I don't see you through the week, I'll see you through a window.

Yeah, right. Is it like this?

OP doesn't grok that when he's talking about the so-called Bots, he's actually talking about himself and his disowned psychic content that he's projecting onto the other people.

it's more about self acceptance than blame, and about the parts of ourselves that we reject

consiousness /entropy

Universe is non-simultaneously apprehended.