I often wondered if i was programed as well. when i was 6 i was taken into CPS custody because my schizophrenic mother called the police and said she was going to kill everyone in the house ! after that I remember much, I was moved around from placement to placement.

i ran away at age 11 i dont remember why exactly. however when they found me got thrown into a place called Bellefaire JCB in cleveland, ohio. its a treatment center for children with mental health issues. i was kept there for 5 years. Locked in,helpless. before this time i hadnt even seen a shrink before in my young life ! they didnt even bother with a psych evalution,my caseworker just dropped me off and next thing you know i was imprisoned there.

I was never given an official diagnosis or put on meds and I dont remember as much as should from those 5 years. 2 of the other girls killed themselves while i was there. one of them was my roomate at the time. Today they even have program called "the monarch school' its for autistic kids but i mean why would they even call it that?

Today i suffer from CPTSD and i have panic attacks that happen randomly. the oddest things trigger them ! as for liking butterflies i have a butterfly tramp stamp i got when i was 15 years old after i was released i remember thinking it symbolized freedom and change so it was perfect for me at the time.