shit...went to bed feeling alright, nature was doing its thing, all seemed well in my little world(well, as fine as it gets, these days)...
woke up to, well, just a crushing amount of sadness...I cant shake it.
I know my life experiences might bring up emotion most can't fathom, but today was fucked...usually theres a glimpse of motivation present, no matter how crazy...I see none, not in most of this...and no, not buying into all the stupid crazy shit that has been posted today. Not the point, not at this moment.
I just keep getting glimpses of these families homes... decorated for Christmas, presents purchased, wrapped, placed under the tree, the thrill of anticipation as the kids come home to see this little marvel each day, excitement building, each wanting to take a little sneak peek...just joy...
The hell these families must be going through, now to go home, and witness, what was such a daily joy, turned into their own personal, unending, nightmare...unfathomable
-and the children lost, not to experience all that is life, both good, and bad...no further words on that matter, not now.
Maybe I am just not that tough anymore, I know tragedies happen daily, always 'doom' for some unfortunate soul..but I feel today as different.
A line was crossed today, can't go into details, now, but once crossed, well, probably shouldn't go into all that either...not here
Thats my Mood, probably should have posted my usual ramblings on the Friday thread, but didn't feel right, today...sorry Luna...but had to get it out
*song here doesn't fit my MOOD per se', but it helps me, any way...KO kicks ass, good heart
well i do