I don't know... The jury is still out on it.

I have been engaged twice. Technically I still am, but my relationship is fading very fast. I kinda shot myself in the foot on this one because she is considerably older and her kids are still living at home, the oldest is a drug addict (supposedly recovered, but the doctor prescribed him the very thing he has been addicted to....Hmmm).

I am beginning to feel that marriage is eluding me. I am 34 now, but when I was 19-21, I probably was in the best mental state to get married. However, I had educational/career goals in place and I was not going to let a woman (or even worse, a baby)ruin those for me.

Nowadays, I am just about finished with a Master's Degree (2.5 months). I am no closer to getting married than I was a year ago. My religious sensitivities tell me I need to be married otherwise I am a fornicator (although I haven't had sex in over a month). So I don't know what I think, I just know I have some mobility and freedom.

I want to be married someday to someone that is happy with herself and knows how to be happy. However, I think that is a very tall order. So many people are depressed these days and they have become very good at masking it until they've already got you hooked.

What to do?