Hmm..that could explain things a bit.

I just recently..as in a month ago..found out that I am in fact of jewish decent through my mothers side..and my grandfather was also Jewish of the tribe of Levi..so he said anyhow.

Would also explain why I never fit in to this world..and have always had the sense that its NOT my home..that im just passing through.

It would also explain why I dont see God as some sort of mystery..some vast horrible being who loves to smite and kill..ive always seen him..as..dad..not some remote angry horror of mankind like most people envisage him.

I relate to him about as casually as you would relate to your own father..with respect..but a certain friendly familiarity..like there are no secrets between us.

I dont see God as mysterious..for me he has always been part of my life.