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EazyD

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Can't sleep either. I've been thinking about a lot. Today was SO weird. I'm from Bakersfield, Ca and a HUGE storm just came from nowhere. Lightning 24/7 NONstop, yellow, purple, green, blue, orange, red lightning. Then get this. The sun appears from the black clouds, pure, deep, blood red. I have never seen anything more red. Lightning is shooting out of the clouds surrounding this red monster. I may sound crazy but I was at work outside under this weather and it really shook me up. Things are so insane lately. And I'm just starting school tomorrow, and I have to worry about that now? I feel whats the point of finishing college when I can inform myself the answer to Truth and Love before this world gets any crazier?

I feel much better. Karma for letting me post my feelings afrohf
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I hear ya. Unfortunately mine has to do with a work injury to my back. The pain doesn't let me sleep
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Same here except now the pain is also in my ribs. I can't sleep at night because it feels like my ribs are going to break if I lay on my side. It's even worse if I breath in real deep or sneeze.
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Oh no! What happened if you don't mind my asking?

Feeling like you can't breath is a horrible experience. When I have my fusion I know it will be awful, they will cut me on the front and back so it will be double pain and I know it will hurt to breath, cough and lay down. *sigh*.
 Quoting: TrixieMama


The back pain is due to an injury when I was a teenager working at Great America. The ribs are due to osteoporosis. Afterr dealing with this for over 10 years my insomnia, bone pain, as well as chronic fatigue just recently have been diagnosed as hyperparathyroidism. A 20 minute procedure to remove one of my parathyroid glands should cure everything except for the back pain.
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Wow, good luck with that my friend. I will say some prayers for you hf

I am sorry you have had to deal with this for so long. I shouldn't complain since mine has only been 10 months. LOL.

Are you going to have the surgery for your parathyroid?
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"I shall call upon the name of the Lord who is worthy to be praised; so shall I be saved from mine enemies" Psalm 18:2-4
"In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God." Psalm 62:6-8
"He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
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OMG, so would have loved to have been from the 40's! Did a pin up photo shoot that was totally Betty Page but some of the pics were total 40's pin up. And love the music. Come up a decade and swing, yeah, I love music I guess, LOL.

My sister was born in 83, 10 years between us. She doesn't remember much about the 80's. They were a lot of fun.. I remember floI_AM_AN_ILLITERATE_RACIST39;s, flourescent colored clothes, black clothes with black boots, cutting my hair about 1 inch in the back to spike it out and a few inches longer in the front for a pompodore, omg and who could forget the cut off sweatshirts that hung off the shoulder with the lace gloves, lace socks and little 1 inch white Madonna pump boots? And of course over sized belts :) You would have LOVED being older in the 80's but you know what, we are born when it is our time so you were born at just he right time. The 90's were good years too. Albeit not as good as the 80's but I remember the 90's quite well too!

Do you ever hear an old song on the radio from your childhood/teen years and you instantly get taken back to the moment you first heard it? It's like a flashback. When that happens I can remember exactly where I was or what I was doing when certain songs come on. Interesting how that works.

Good memories and yes, it was the perfect medicine to get my mind off the pain. My new pain pill doesn't do much but you certainly took my mind off it and i'm quite relaxed now as a result, so thank you my friend! I wish you were a member so I could give you a karma hug hf
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Yeah i was born in 1984 so we are quite separated, but still quite close. The 40's pin ups <3333. Classical beauty as they say and you really can't go wrong with it. Nor do i think you can go wrong with the sweatshirts hanging off the shoulders and lace. Tis one look i wish would come back into style. I think i would have loved being old in any time just so i could have first hand perception of it. Though I'm not complaining about the time i was born. Plenty of work to be done here (spiritually speaking).

And yes, the second time i heard The Doors - Light My Fire. Was only 4 when i first heard it but that song was imprinted into my being. Needless to say when i got older and heard it again it brought me back to trips with my mom. Was quite lovely, and then i found out that it was the radio edit. The instrumental just rocked my world. ;]

You are quite welcome <3. But i couldn't sign up to the site as i hate being a member of the group. I'd much rather be the light in the shadows ;]. The karma hug was felt regardless, friend.
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hf

You have an old soul and a good heart! Two qualities that are blessings! Old souls are wonderful because they can experience life with enjoyment and love and less worry/drama (if that makes sense). People who possess both qualities are few and far between.

I am an old soul. I love everything old. I love sitting with my grandma who is 83 and listening to her tell me stories about growing up in the depression, working on the farm and all the family history. I am drawn to it, and many other era's.

I believe you are right, there is much work to be done here. Are you a lightworker? Or what is your belief system if you don't mind my asking. It's ok if you don't want to share <3

Age differences are merely numbers that really don't mean much in the scheme of things IMO. I have many close friends who are in the 50's and on up. When you have a good heart and an old soul you make friends easily out of your age bracket, it's almost like you are drawn to them. Interesting how that works but it seems to have played true many times in my life.

I am happy to call you my friend and am glad that you felt that karma hug even though I couldn't deliver a green thumbs up to you ;) I would upgrade our membership for you if I have enough karma but you don't have an offer upgrade. I understand your desire to remain an AC though too. Sometimes the greatest people you meet in life are those that you never truly know who they really are. Chance encounters hf From an AC's perspective I can see how it could be enjoyable to be in the background and not *known*, if that makes sense. I like the fact you are a light in the shadow and your light shines bright smile_kiss
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Well thank you for noticing, friend. This world is so full of peril, hatred and negativity that i try to give back as much positivity as i can. People forget how fragile the human psyche is. You and I are quite similar. History feels like it is home to me.

I wouldn't consider myself a light worker per say, but i suppose if that is the label that best fits. I've recently started reading up on the subject and find that i am quite agreeable with it. I also dabble in Taoism but it seems to be aligned with the light worker idea also. I just believe that people in this world need help and I am here to give that whenever i can even if it means sacrificing my own. Tis a lonely road occasionally, but you just have to keep focused on the bigger picture, because it really is beautiful.

Agreed, while I don't consider myself to have many friends in the classical sense I'm also drawn to the essence or soul if you will so age rarely plays a part in it. Plus confining yourself to one age bracket means you don't learn from those who've grown in a different perception. Gaining as much knowledge about the human condition from all angles is really quite important.

Ah, well I wouldn't want you to give me anything that another may want more. Though i would graciously accept it if you offered as it's a sign of the connection we've made. One that i appreciate more than you know. This site is regularly about doom so it is nice to see somebody who is more centered than most. But I don't think you can say you don't know me ;]. Plus i go by Az when i can remember that i need to type in a name lol.

The darkness needs the light the most. The mind of clouds and shade need a bit of enlightenment. <3

I am very happy to call you friend. <3.
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I guess I fell asleep shortly after writing my post. LOL, go figure. I guess the thread relaxed me from all the positive vibes <3

It is a pleasure and honor to call you friend as well :) I try to use my karma for good here because so many use it for bad, LOL. Sometimes I green pin things for people and enjoy giving out karma hugs. There is a LOT of negativity here, I suspect it's from people who have lots of negativity surrounding them in the *real* world too. Many are angry and spiteful. It is ALWAYs nice to meet someone who is caring and friendly. Qualities few and far between sometimes here.

I don't know much about Taoism. Other than I think there is a book called the Tao of Pooh? LOL. I studied Tibetan Buddhism for awhile but didn't practice the Buddhism part, just integrated what I learned into my beliefs as a Christian. Spreading kindness and light is so very important, the world is becoming a dark place on many levels.

I too don't have many friends in the classical sense either. I am rather tied up with my kids and don't have time to go out and do things the way most of my friends do. They are two parent households which makes it a little easier I guess. I also am just really family oriented.

What state do you live in if you don't mind my asking????
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13
"I shall call upon the name of the Lord who is worthy to be praised; so shall I be saved from mine enemies" Psalm 18:2-4
"In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God." Psalm 62:6-8
"He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
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Melatonin+ Valerian root works well for me. Also have you thought about listening to some binaural tones? I use them for meditation, and sleep aids. They work like a charm. Check it out here if you have an Ipod. [link to itunes.apple.com]
Or various other places have them. Just have to do a bit of digging to make sure you get the right one. I even have one that induces Lucid dreams while I'm sleeping. Good luck! :)
TrixieMama (OP)

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Can't sleep either. I've been thinking about a lot. Today was SO weird. I'm from Bakersfield, Ca and a HUGE storm just came from nowhere. Lightning 24/7 NONstop, yellow, purple, green, blue, orange, red lightning. Then get this. The sun appears from the black clouds, pure, deep, blood red. I have never seen anything more red. Lightning is shooting out of the clouds surrounding this red monster. I may sound crazy but I was at work outside under this weather and it really shook me up. Things are so insane lately. And I'm just starting school tomorrow, and I have to worry about that now? I feel whats the point of finishing college when I can inform myself the answer to Truth and Love before this world gets any crazier?

I feel much better. Karma for letting me post my feelings afrohf
 Quoting: EazyD


hf I'm so glad that posting your feelings here made you feel better. I'm just sorry I fell asleep and didn't get your post until this morning. I had a rough night but refrained from getting online like I usually do. Usually an hour after I try to go to sleep I find myself back online trolling the net, LOL. Anyway, last night I didn't do that otherwise I would have seen your post. Sorry about that.

My mind has been on overdrive as well. It has been VERY strange weather here the past few days. Yesterday when we got up I was amazed to see huge rain drops falling out of nowhere! It stayed cold most of the day yesterday where I am (LA County/OC boarder). I didn't see the sun or look at it so I didn't see the red color. Oh eerie.

I said a prayer for you for school and your safety today my dear. You need to stay motivated and learn what you can from school. Life is a constant cycle in which we learn and evolve to better ourselves and school is a big part of that. I too felt many times like stopping because of *truth* but you need to stay focused on something otherwise you can literally go crazy from all the *truth* in the world. School is a good thing. Don't give up. Use it as a distraction from getting to stressed about what is happening right now in the world. Sometimes we need things like that to pull us away a little bit, sometimes distractions are welcomed and needed. If that makes any sense. And, I believe school is important anyway, there are a lot of truths to be learned there and it's fun if you let it be that way! Are you in college? If so what is your major? I really liked college. Anthropology, creative writing, nursing and art were my favorites. Oh yeah, and sign language. That was a fun immersion class. The teacher was deaf so we had to learn, quickly to pass the course. LOL.

Thank you for the karma my friend. I will repay the kind gesture when mine is reloaded tonight. If you get a chance after school check in and let me know how it went, i'd love to hear about it. I hope you slept well last night and that you have a blessed first day of school today <3
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13
"I shall call upon the name of the Lord who is worthy to be praised; so shall I be saved from mine enemies" Psalm 18:2-4
"In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God." Psalm 62:6-8
"He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
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Melatonin+ Valerian root works well for me. Also have you thought about listening to some binaural tones? I use them for meditation, and sleep aids. They work like a charm. Check it out here if you have an Ipod. [link to itunes.apple.com]
Or various other places have them. Just have to do a bit of digging to make sure you get the right one. I even have one that induces Lucid dreams while I'm sleeping. Good luck! :)
 Quoting: Lucid


Very cool! Thank you for the link! I am downloading it now! I haven't heard binural beats before, or at least I don't think I have. I have some relaxing indian tribal music with flutes and drums that is quite relaxing but i'm sure different than the binural beats. I will listen to it as soon as it downloads.

I dream just about every night once I finally fall asleep, sometimes they are very vivid dreams. When they are good dreams it's a good thing but when they are bad sometimes I wake up startled and unsure of where I am. LOL. Go figure. Must be my mind playing tricks on me from not getting enough sleep.

Thanks again for the suggestion and link hf I'm all out of karma hugs this morning but i'll leave you one as soon as my karma refills <3
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13
"I shall call upon the name of the Lord who is worthy to be praised; so shall I be saved from mine enemies" Psalm 18:2-4
"In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God." Psalm 62:6-8
"He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
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Ok, once again it's another sleepless night for me. Insomnia has a hold of me, LOL. Took my pain meds now i'm just waiting for them to kick in so I can hopefully go to sleep.

Stop by to say hello or stay for awhile if you wanna talk :)

Either way I hope you have a blessed night hf
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Full moon. Gets me every time.
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Ok, once again it's another sleepless night for me. Insomnia has a hold of me, LOL. Took my pain meds now i'm just waiting for them to kick in so I can hopefully go to sleep.

Stop by to say hello or stay for awhile if you wanna talk :)

Either way I hope you have a blessed night hf
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Full moon. Gets me every time.
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LOL :) Usually we get an influx of psych patients too, the moon is very powerful <3 As long as it's only insomnia and no turning into a werewolf all is good, lolsign
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13
"I shall call upon the name of the Lord who is worthy to be praised; so shall I be saved from mine enemies" Psalm 18:2-4
"In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God." Psalm 62:6-8
"He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
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Yeah i was born in 1984 so we are quite separated, but still quite close. The 40's pin ups <3333. Classical beauty as they say and you really can't go wrong with it. Nor do i think you can go wrong with the sweatshirts hanging off the shoulders and lace. Tis one look i wish would come back into style. I think i would have loved being old in any time just so i could have first hand perception of it. Though I'm not complaining about the time i was born. Plenty of work to be done here (spiritually speaking).

And yes, the second time i heard The Doors - Light My Fire. Was only 4 when i first heard it but that song was imprinted into my being. Needless to say when i got older and heard it again it brought me back to trips with my mom. Was quite lovely, and then i found out that it was the radio edit. The instrumental just rocked my world. ;]

You are quite welcome <3. But i couldn't sign up to the site as i hate being a member of the group. I'd much rather be the light in the shadows ;]. The karma hug was felt regardless, friend.
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hf

You have an old soul and a good heart! Two qualities that are blessings! Old souls are wonderful because they can experience life with enjoyment and love and less worry/drama (if that makes sense). People who possess both qualities are few and far between.

I am an old soul. I love everything old. I love sitting with my grandma who is 83 and listening to her tell me stories about growing up in the depression, working on the farm and all the family history. I am drawn to it, and many other era's.

I believe you are right, there is much work to be done here. Are you a lightworker? Or what is your belief system if you don't mind my asking. It's ok if you don't want to share <3

Age differences are merely numbers that really don't mean much in the scheme of things IMO. I have many close friends who are in the 50's and on up. When you have a good heart and an old soul you make friends easily out of your age bracket, it's almost like you are drawn to them. Interesting how that works but it seems to have played true many times in my life.

I am happy to call you my friend and am glad that you felt that karma hug even though I couldn't deliver a green thumbs up to you ;) I would upgrade our membership for you if I have enough karma but you don't have an offer upgrade. I understand your desire to remain an AC though too. Sometimes the greatest people you meet in life are those that you never truly know who they really are. Chance encounters hf From an AC's perspective I can see how it could be enjoyable to be in the background and not *known*, if that makes sense. I like the fact you are a light in the shadow and your light shines bright smile_kiss
 Quoting: TrixieMama


Well thank you for noticing, friend. This world is so full of peril, hatred and negativity that i try to give back as much positivity as i can. People forget how fragile the human psyche is. You and I are quite similar. History feels like it is home to me.

I wouldn't consider myself a light worker per say, but i suppose if that is the label that best fits. I've recently started reading up on the subject and find that i am quite agreeable with it. I also dabble in Taoism but it seems to be aligned with the light worker idea also. I just believe that people in this world need help and I am here to give that whenever i can even if it means sacrificing my own. Tis a lonely road occasionally, but you just have to keep focused on the bigger picture, because it really is beautiful.

Agreed, while I don't consider myself to have many friends in the classical sense I'm also drawn to the essence or soul if you will so age rarely plays a part in it. Plus confining yourself to one age bracket means you don't learn from those who've grown in a different perception. Gaining as much knowledge about the human condition from all angles is really quite important.

Ah, well I wouldn't want you to give me anything that another may want more. Though i would graciously accept it if you offered as it's a sign of the connection we've made. One that i appreciate more than you know. This site is regularly about doom so it is nice to see somebody who is more centered than most. But I don't think you can say you don't know me ;]. Plus i go by Az when i can remember that i need to type in a name lol.

The darkness needs the light the most. The mind of clouds and shade need a bit of enlightenment. <3

I am very happy to call you friend. <3.
 Quoting: Az 1535612


I guess I fell asleep shortly after writing my post. LOL, go figure. I guess the thread relaxed me from all the positive vibes <3

It is a pleasure and honor to call you friend as well :) I try to use my karma for good here because so many use it for bad, LOL. Sometimes I green pin things for people and enjoy giving out karma hugs. There is a LOT of negativity here, I suspect it's from people who have lots of negativity surrounding them in the *real* world too. Many are angry and spiteful. It is ALWAYs nice to meet someone who is caring and friendly. Qualities few and far between sometimes here.

I don't know much about Taoism. Other than I think there is a book called the Tao of Pooh? LOL. I studied Tibetan Buddhism for awhile but didn't practice the Buddhism part, just integrated what I learned into my beliefs as a Christian. Spreading kindness and light is so very important, the world is becoming a dark place on many levels.

I too don't have many friends in the classical sense either. I am rather tied up with my kids and don't have time to go out and do things the way most of my friends do. They are two parent households which makes it a little easier I guess. I also am just really family oriented.

What state do you live in if you don't mind my asking????
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Glad that the thread gave you what you need. It is after all while you created it ;]. You are peaceful and wise so it was a pleasure. People need that positive karma on this shit and in general. Spreading your essence onto them probably has picked up a lot of people. Tis very good to read.I could not have gotten any better of a way to spend the night.

Taoism is hard to put into words, but the principles it represent were closure to me. Helped me reassure that i was on the right way and to continue on it. Which lead me back here in certain ways, which opened my eyes to some of the truths that linger in the ether. Things I've known and have let slip, and things that I appreciate finding. The Tao Te Ching is not very long, if you have a spare half and hour you should give it a once over. It seems like many people I've come across have given Buddhism a chance. What drew you to it?

I understand what It's like to not have the time, or to not be enthralled by going out to do some of the things that my friends like. But occasionally i will indulge just because I still love my friends and forget how much time spent with them means for all of us. It is very good though that you put your children first. Most people would at least give half the time, so it is refreshing to see you give most (if not all) of all your time to them. You are a wonderful role model for them and the people around you. <3

I'm from the right coast. ;] New Jersey to be a bit more specific, by the thread i can see you're from SoCal. We couldn't be further apart geographically speaking. Though for some reason I always share great thoughts with Californians.

I'm going to get this sleep now that i finally can. I will respond tonight if you still wish to talk and have the time. <3 If not it then i will see you around as you are worth remembering <3.
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So glad you are finally going to sleep my friend <3 I lived on the east coast for a few years, Groton CT to be exact. That was when I was a military wife. Love it there. The only thing I didn't like was being so far away from my family. The seasons were lovely and I adored the snow. Getting to watch each season come and go was always a wonderful joy for me. I miss that now that i'm back in CA. I would move back in a heartbeat if my extended family were willing to go but they aren't so here I stay for now, LOL. I am blessed to have my grandparents around, 83 and 82 years young and wonderful parents here. We all only live a few blocks away from each other so it is nice and great for the kids. Originally my clan is from Kentucky/Ohio (grandparents) so I spent most of my summers in Ohio with my great grandma. Always loved it. As a young girl I was always more California but now as an adult, I am much more mid-west/CT - ish, LOL.

New Jersey is nice. Although I hate the New Jersey turnpike, LOL. That thing is awful. It's been a few years since i've been on it but what I remember of it isn't fond, LOL. What type of work do you do, if you don't mind my asking?

I'm a nurse. It was and is my lifelong passion/dream. Thats how I hurt my back. I am a charge nurse at a psych hospital, I work with adolescents. Love it. Got hurt one night restraining a violent patient. Anyway, that is a story for another day.

Glad to hear you get out with friends every now and then. It's important. Being a single mom it is hard for me to get out. Before having kids I was a total *socialite*. I was out more than I was in, LOL. Very extroverted. Make friends easily and not shy at all although since becoming a mom I am much more reserved. Not so quick to leap without thinking I guess you could say.

I will check out the book/reading you suggested <3 As for what led me to study Buddhism for a bit, it was just life circumstances. I was in a horribly abusive relationship for a number of years in my early 20's and needed healing. I engulfed myself with Pema Chodron and Rinpoche Dali Lama. I read the Tibetan Book of Living and Dying in one night (it's HUGE) and re-read it many times after that. I learned a lot about compassion and enlightenment through that journey and I believe it made me a much more compassionate woman. It helped me to forgive and move forward without holding onto anger, resentment and hate. So like you with your Taoism, at the time Buddhism teachings were very helpful to me in overcoming some very difficult times. I didn't worship Buddha or pray to him. I just integrated the teachings of compassion and enlightenment in my Christian life. It really worked well to be honest.

I enjoyed talking the night away with you and am sorry for dozing off. I didn't sleep well and usually I put my computer down, try to sleep and end up back on it a short time later but last night I refrained thinking I could sleep. It was very broken sleep, my mind while relaxed was still heavy and I had trouble getting to sleep and staying asleep. Hopefully tonight will be different, highly unlikely but possible, LOL.

Well my friend I am off to visit family this morning. We didn't make it to church today unfortunately but will go and spend the day in the company of my grandparents, parents and sis/bro in law. I hope you slept well and I will be back tonight to talk more if you are up for it.

Hugs my friend and blessings for a wonderful day hf
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13
"I shall call upon the name of the Lord who is worthy to be praised; so shall I be saved from mine enemies" Psalm 18:2-4
"In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God." Psalm 62:6-8
"He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
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Can't sleep either. I've been thinking about a lot. Today was SO weird. I'm from Bakersfield, Ca and a HUGE storm just came from nowhere. Lightning 24/7 NONstop, yellow, purple, green, blue, orange, red lightning. Then get this. The sun appears from the black clouds, pure, deep, blood red. I have never seen anything more red. Lightning is shooting out of the clouds surrounding this red monster. I may sound crazy but I was at work outside under this weather and it really shook me up. Things are so insane lately. And I'm just starting school tomorrow, and I have to worry about that now? I feel whats the point of finishing college when I can inform myself the answer to Truth and Love before this world gets any crazier?

I feel much better. Karma for letting me post my feelings afrohf
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hf I'm so glad that posting your feelings here made you feel better. I'm just sorry I fell asleep and didn't get your post until this morning. I had a rough night but refrained from getting online like I usually do. Usually an hour after I try to go to sleep I find myself back online trolling the net, LOL. Anyway, last night I didn't do that otherwise I would have seen your post. Sorry about that.

My mind has been on overdrive as well. It has been VERY strange weather here the past few days. Yesterday when we got up I was amazed to see huge rain drops falling out of nowhere! It stayed cold most of the day yesterday where I am (LA County/OC boarder). I didn't see the sun or look at it so I didn't see the red color. Oh eerie.

I said a prayer for you for school and your safety today my dear. You need to stay motivated and learn what you can from school. Life is a constant cycle in which we learn and evolve to better ourselves and school is a big part of that. I too felt many times like stopping because of *truth* but you need to stay focused on something otherwise you can literally go crazy from all the *truth* in the world. School is a good thing. Don't give up. Use it as a distraction from getting to stressed about what is happening right now in the world. Sometimes we need things like that to pull us away a little bit, sometimes distractions are welcomed and needed. If that makes any sense. And, I believe school is important anyway, there are a lot of truths to be learned there and it's fun if you let it be that way! Are you in college? If so what is your major? I really liked college. Anthropology, creative writing, nursing and art were my favorites. Oh yeah, and sign language. That was a fun immersion class. The teacher was deaf so we had to learn, quickly to pass the course. LOL.

Thank you for the karma my friend. I will repay the kind gesture when mine is reloaded tonight. If you get a chance after school check in and let me know how it went, i'd love to hear about it. I hope you slept well last night and that you have a blessed first day of school today <3
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Hi, you have no idea how great it is to check glp and to see such a great reply from you :). I'm glad you fell back asleep lol and refrained from getting online. Logging onto the internet can be a nasty habit!! Thank you SO much for your words, you are very encouraging. It feels good to know someone out there thought about my upcoming hardships in school while trying to face the evil of the world. Yes I'm in college, starting my junior year. The thing is I have NEVER had any aspirations for a "job"; no desire to make millions, no desire to have a prestigious job...I simply want to live a humble life and help people and be a good example of truth, Love, and God (good). I am going to college,partly, honestly, to fulfill my gparents desires because I love them so much. That being said though, I LOVE college because I have learned so much! lol. I am a sociology major, idk what the hell I can do with that major but the thing is I LOVE the classes sociology offers. Learning sociology really helps me develop empathy for other humans and I feel empathy is needed in times like this.

Im glad you liked college :). What did you do? Anthropology is too much fun! I'd love to take sign language one day too...anyway thanks. For your motivation to look at school as an *escape* from the stress that the TRUTH brings. God bless.
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Can't sleep either. I've been thinking about a lot. Today was SO weird. I'm from Bakersfield, Ca and a HUGE storm just came from nowhere. Lightning 24/7 NONstop, yellow, purple, green, blue, orange, red lightning. Then get this. The sun appears from the black clouds, pure, deep, blood red. I have never seen anything more red. Lightning is shooting out of the clouds surrounding this red monster. I may sound crazy but I was at work outside under this weather and it really shook me up. Things are so insane lately. And I'm just starting school tomorrow, and I have to worry about that now? I feel whats the point of finishing college when I can inform myself the answer to Truth and Love before this world gets any crazier?

I feel much better. Karma for letting me post my feelings afrohf
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hf I'm so glad that posting your feelings here made you feel better. I'm just sorry I fell asleep and didn't get your post until this morning. I had a rough night but refrained from getting online like I usually do. Usually an hour after I try to go to sleep I find myself back online trolling the net, LOL. Anyway, last night I didn't do that otherwise I would have seen your post. Sorry about that.

My mind has been on overdrive as well. It has been VERY strange weather here the past few days. Yesterday when we got up I was amazed to see huge rain drops falling out of nowhere! It stayed cold most of the day yesterday where I am (LA County/OC boarder). I didn't see the sun or look at it so I didn't see the red color. Oh eerie.

I said a prayer for you for school and your safety today my dear. You need to stay motivated and learn what you can from school. Life is a constant cycle in which we learn and evolve to better ourselves and school is a big part of that. I too felt many times like stopping because of *truth* but you need to stay focused on something otherwise you can literally go crazy from all the *truth* in the world. School is a good thing. Don't give up. Use it as a distraction from getting to stressed about what is happening right now in the world. Sometimes we need things like that to pull us away a little bit, sometimes distractions are welcomed and needed. If that makes any sense. And, I believe school is important anyway, there are a lot of truths to be learned there and it's fun if you let it be that way! Are you in college? If so what is your major? I really liked college. Anthropology, creative writing, nursing and art were my favorites. Oh yeah, and sign language. That was a fun immersion class. The teacher was deaf so we had to learn, quickly to pass the course. LOL.

Thank you for the karma my friend. I will repay the kind gesture when mine is reloaded tonight. If you get a chance after school check in and let me know how it went, i'd love to hear about it. I hope you slept well last night and that you have a blessed first day of school today <3
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Hi, you have no idea how great it is to check glp and to see such a great reply from you :). I'm glad you fell back asleep lol and refrained from getting online. Logging onto the internet can be a nasty habit!! Thank you SO much for your words, you are very encouraging. It feels good to know someone out there thought about my upcoming hardships in school while trying to face the evil of the world. Yes I'm in college, starting my junior year. The thing is I have NEVER had any aspirations for a "job"; no desire to make millions, no desire to have a prestigious job...I simply want to live a humble life and help people and be a good example of truth, Love, and God (good). I am going to college,partly, honestly, to fulfill my gparents desires because I love them so much. That being said though, I LOVE college because I have learned so much! lol. I am a sociology major, idk what the hell I can do with that major but the thing is I LOVE the classes sociology offers. Learning sociology really helps me develop empathy for other humans and I feel empathy is needed in times like this.

Im glad you liked college :). What did you do? Anthropology is too much fun! I'd love to take sign language one day too...anyway thanks. For your motivation to look at school as an *escape* from the stress that the TRUTH brings. God bless.
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Yay, i'm so glad that you had a good day today and that this post made a difference <3 I can totally relate to doing the whole college thing for the glory of your parents, LOL but the good news is that you have found something you really enjoy, Sociology! Maybe you can be a teacher? You would be able to live a humble life and help people ;) I think you could touch many people doing that and it would put you in the perfect position to help people!!! I enjoyed sociology immensely too <3 You are doing great, don't give up and keep focused on the light at the end of the tunnel. Enjoy your youth while you can because once college is over you'll get a job, maybe fall in love and get married to start a family. These years should be some of the best years of your life. Don't get too weighed down with the weight of the world right now. Live in the moment and don't get caught up in the doom factor. Life is to short hf

I am so happy that you had a good day today and you are so welcome for the encouraging words! There are plenty more where those came from ;) I think you asked what I studied, my major was REgistered Nursing <3 My passion is helping others in their darkest hours. I am a very compassionate, loving and honest person who genuinely cares about others so nursing was perfect for me. It took me a long time to get my degree finished because I took the long road in life that was full of bumps and bruises but I wouldn't have had it any other way. I learned a lot about myself and what i'm capable of accomplishing when I set my mind on something. I went to college straight out of high school but got caught up with a *bad* boy and went astray for about 6 years, then I got my VN license and did that for 10 years before getting my RN. It all happened as it was suppose to and I have no regrets. Another life lesson, live your life with no regrets! I strive to do that everyday ;)

Well, I hope that you will check back in tonight. I'm sure i'll have another sleepless night. Hugs to you my friend and congrats on a great first day, i'm proud of you hf
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Evening. ;] Yeah. The east coast is beautiful in the fall as the change is prominent and stretches. The coming months are easily my favorite into winter. The peacefulness of snow is such an attraction to me. I can sit and watch it fall for hours without getting tired of it. It is very good that you have a strong core to be a part of. I don't really have that but I make due with what i do have and it's worked out well enough.

Everybody hates the Jersey turnpike and our highway system in general lol. And I don't have a steady job as it stands. It might sound foolish but i hate the idea of being locked into one path for very long (work related). So I tend to stick with labor as it always needs to be done. It also fits my ideas better. People don't normally understand when i say that i don't need much outside of conversation to be happy. So as long as i have a connection to the internet I am in steady supply of that at anytime. Being a nurse is a very noble cause. It's always the best when you can give back to humanity. Sorry to hear about your injury though and i wish you a speedy recovery.

You do seem like a true free spirit in that sense. The type to make conversation with the shy person but not in an awkward way. Genuinely wanting to get to know them. I'm very reserved but it has more to do with observation and awareness. I love when my mind runs but it only happens with people who i can truly connect with.

We both found knowledge, wisdom, and truth during rough times in the eastern philosophies. Which isn't very surprising at all. They are helpful when trying to uncover or reaffirm your spiritual side. For me Taoism was just another step in a realization of self after a terrible break up. My ex nearly broke me in ways i could not imagine, took a lot of time to find my way back to the path. Lots of thinking and figuring out what life (personal and collective) and the universe meant. But now that i have a solid grasp on it, i start looking into teachings and ideas that fit after i learned the base for myself. Now it's just truth to me.

Do not worry about dozing off, that was the point of the thread ;] <3. But you and i both suffered from segmented sleeping which is odd for me. The last month i have tossed and turned a lot which isn't usual without an external source (that i know of). But my dreams still come so That is a plus as I would be extremely disheartened if I lost my ability to dream.

I hope you had a blessed day with your family and if you're around tonight then i shall be also. <3
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Evening. ;] Yeah. The east coast is beautiful in the fall as the change is prominent and stretches. The coming months are easily my favorite into winter. The peacefulness of snow is such an attraction to me. I can sit and watch it fall for hours without getting tired of it. It is very good that you have a strong core to be a part of. I don't really have that but I make due with what i do have and it's worked out well enough.

Everybody hates the Jersey turnpike and our highway system in general lol. And I don't have a steady job as it stands. It might sound foolish but i hate the idea of being locked into one path for very long (work related). So I tend to stick with labor as it always needs to be done. It also fits my ideas better. People don't normally understand when i say that i don't need much outside of conversation to be happy. So as long as i have a connection to the internet I am in steady supply of that at anytime. Being a nurse is a very noble cause. It's always the best when you can give back to humanity. Sorry to hear about your injury though and i wish you a speedy recovery.

You do seem like a true free spirit in that sense. The type to make conversation with the shy person but not in an awkward way. Genuinely wanting to get to know them. I'm very reserved but it has more to do with observation and awareness. I love when my mind runs but it only happens with people who i can truly connect with.

We both found knowledge, wisdom, and truth during rough times in the eastern philosophies. Which isn't very surprising at all. They are helpful when trying to uncover or reaffirm your spiritual side. For me Taoism was just another step in a realization of self after a terrible break up. My ex nearly broke me in ways i could not imagine, took a lot of time to find my way back to the path. Lots of thinking and figuring out what life (personal and collective) and the universe meant. But now that i have a solid grasp on it, i start looking into teachings and ideas that fit after i learned the base for myself. Now it's just truth to me.

Do not worry about dozing off, that was the point of the thread ;] <3. But you and i both suffered from segmented sleeping which is odd for me. The last month i have tossed and turned a lot which isn't usual without an external source (that i know of). But my dreams still come so That is a plus as I would be extremely disheartened if I lost my ability to dream.

I hope you had a blessed day with your family and if you're around tonight then i shall be also. <3



Hello my friend <3

Thank you for the blessings. We did have a good day with our family aside from my kids wanting rip each others heads off but that is nothing more than simple sibling rivalry and their ages, LOL.

I too can sit for hours and watch it snow. I love the snow. I didn't enjoy being 8 months pregnant and having to dig myself out of a blizzard but it was beautiful regardless.

Funny that we both did find help from bad relationships in eastern religions/philosophy. I think that in life you need to be open minded and willing to learn about new ways of doing things if you want to stay afloat. I believe we are given lessons over and over again until we learn what we needed to, once we learn what we needed to from the lesson we don't have to repeat it. If that makes any sense. I found the lessons on compassion and enlightenment to be quite helpful even to this day.

I don't see anything wrong with being a free spirit and not wanting to be tied down for too long in one place (job). I am kind of like that too in a way. I love challenges and when a job isn't a challenge anymore it's time to move on (at least for me). I have a lot of respect for people in the labor industry/field. It's hard work that isn't glamorous by any means. I like the fact you are a *simpleton*, I am too. I don't need much either to be happy. Material things don't make a person happy, actually money and material things usually cause grief to some degree. As long as I have my faith I can and will overcome anything that comes my way!

I'm sorry you don't have a lot of close family. Seems I am not the norm, you are, LOL. Most people don't have family in the sense that I do. Most people I know grow up, get married and rarely see their family except at holidays or else they just don't have close relations. My grandparents practically raised me due to health problems my mom experienced during my birth so we are very, very close. I have cousins though who never come around or contact my grandparents except at the holidays when they want money. It's sad actually. My grandparents would go to the ends of the earth for them but they were raised to live their own lives and not depend on family so they don't have anything to do with our side of the family thanks to the way their dad raised them. I have the only grandkids/great grandkids so I make it a point to keep my parents and grandparents involved. It's a blessing. It can get chaotic having so many hands helping to raise my kids but I wouldn't have it any other way. God gives us what we need. He has yet to let me down on that one hf

It is odd that you had segmented sleeping last night too. Interesting. What were you thinking about, anything in particular? My mind was heavy but relaxed if that makes sense and I don't really recall thinking or contemplating anything in particular. Strange how that happens though. I did wake up quite startled last night and hate it when that happens. It must happen while i'm in REM because I jump up and run to the back of the house confused and when I get to the back door I can never remember why i'm there but i'm startled almost thinking someone was in my house or something was wrong. Really odd. Hopefully tonight we will both sleep soundly. It's still early so I guess time will tell.

I will be here until I fall asleep. I go back and forth between web pages, usually surfing the net and here to check messages. Hope to catch up with you here again tonight. Hugs to you my friend <3
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Hello my friend <3

Thank you for the blessings. We did have a good day with our family aside from my kids wanting rip each others heads off but that is nothing more than simple sibling rivalry and their ages, LOL.

I too can sit for hours and watch it snow. I love the snow. I didn't enjoy being 8 months pregnant and having to dig myself out of a blizzard but it was beautiful regardless.

Funny that we both did find help from bad relationships in eastern religions/philosophy. I think that in life you need to be open minded and willing to learn about new ways of doing things if you want to stay afloat. I believe we are given lessons over and over again until we learn what we needed to, once we learn what we needed to from the lesson we don't have to repeat it. If that makes any sense. I found the lessons on compassion and enlightenment to be quite helpful even to this day.

I don't see anything wrong with being a free spirit and not wanting to be tied down for too long in one place (job). I am kind of like that too in a way. I love challenges and when a job isn't a challenge anymore it's time to move on (at least for me). I have a lot of respect for people in the labor industry/field. It's hard work that isn't glamorous by any means. I like the fact you are a *simpleton*, I am too. I don't need much either to be happy. Material things don't make a person happy, actually money and material things usually cause grief to some degree. As long as I have my faith I can and will overcome anything that comes my way!

I'm sorry you don't have a lot of close family. Seems I am not the norm, you are, LOL. Most people don't have family in the sense that I do. Most people I know grow up, get married and rarely see their family except at holidays or else they just don't have close relations. My grandparents practically raised me due to health problems my mom experienced during my birth so we are very, very close. I have cousins though who never come around or contact my grandparents except at the holidays when they want money. It's sad actually. My grandparents would go to the ends of the earth for them but they were raised to live their own lives and not depend on family so they don't have anything to do with our side of the family thanks to the way their dad raised them. I have the only grandkids/great grandkids so I make it a point to keep my parents and grandparents involved. It's a blessing. It can get chaotic having so many hands helping to raise my kids but I wouldn't have it any other way. God gives us what we need. He has yet to let me down on that one hf

It is odd that you had segmented sleeping last night too. Interesting. What were you thinking about, anything in particular? My mind was heavy but relaxed if that makes sense and I don't really recall thinking or contemplating anything in particular. Strange how that happens though. I did wake up quite startled last night and hate it when that happens. It must happen while i'm in REM because I jump up and run to the back of the house confused and when I get to the back door I can never remember why i'm there but i'm startled almost thinking someone was in my house or something was wrong. Really odd. Hopefully tonight we will both sleep soundly. It's still early so I guess time will tell.

I will be here until I fall asleep. I go back and forth between web pages, usually surfing the net and here to check messages. Hope to catch up with you here again tonight. Hugs to you my friend <3
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Glad to hear it. Sibling rivalry is always amusing because no matter how much they wish to battle, they will always have each others backs. And even without being pregnant i can tell you that shoveling 2 feet of snow is never fun. But while it is coming down I won't complain. ;]

Indeed, the lessons are always giving out to us. Most of the time 'we' are aware and can correct, learn and move on from them. But sometimes we get caught in situations were our ability has taken a hit and he crumble. My ex after two years emotionally cheated on me, and insisted that i hate her because she felt guilt. I could not do this and she begged me, pleaded with me to hate her...and finally i told her i did and at that very moment I felt the person i was slink down into oblivion. Was lost for a year and a half after that. She only broke my heart, it was I who had broken my spirit. Then i found a female (not dating just a friend) who helped shine a little light onto me. And i started feeling that light again. Searching and finding and then it all clicked. So maybe i needed that darkness to find out the truth. And even though your faith and mine may differ in origin the message of keeping it and fighting thru the hardship is still there. <3 May i ask what you believe in ultimately and what your ideas of heaven/afterlife/death are?

Well being simple is the key to life. People always wonder why I don't care about food or drink. It's because you can get the same joy out of eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches that you can out of a steak as long as the mind set or company is right. Plus I'm more likely to get lost in myself or something I'm reading then to need massive external stimuli. I won't lie though, going to a play, concert or comedy club is one of my joys. But other than that, as long as I have a roof, a bed and a shower I'm perfectly content with life. But I don't really put myself over much. It's all about helping your fellow beings.

Well let me correct myself, i don't have a massively close family like your one half. Never knew my dad and my mom died when i was 13 and I only knew one of my grandparents for a few years. I do love my family, but I think I'm just more apt to be apart of a family that is humanity even if it is rough around the edges. But it's great that you are entrenched in the bond the right way. <3. Do you plan on looking for another husband or just playing it by ear?

Nothing in particular to think about, just trying to focus on sleep, but it probably had to do with me needing to augment something at noon, so the first half was barely under, then i just couldn't fall asleep after...tossing and turning for an hour before finally going under. The dream i had the first half was interesting though. I won't go into detail unless you want to hear it, but it did involve snow and I've never dreamed about snow in my 27 years. Though it might have something to do with my mind being a bit hyper active because of our conversation. When i meet people i really enjoy I tend to be a bit more jittery( not completely the right word, but it works). That is very interesting that you get up and move towards your back door...can you ever put a finger on the presence you feel?

What other places do you browse? I'm always searching for new spots on the web. Sorry it took me a while to respond. I promise I'll be a bit more quick in the future, friend.

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Ok, once again it's another sleepless night for me. Insomnia has a hold of me, LOL. Took my pain meds now i'm just waiting for them to kick in so I can hopefully go to sleep.

Stop by to say hello or stay for awhile if you wanna talk :)

Either way I hope you have a blessed night hf
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me too. I have tried everything, I even tried applying ice to my wrist per a suggestion in Women's Magazine.. Still no sleep for me..
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Glad to hear it. Sibling rivalry is always amusing because no matter how much they wish to battle, they will always have each others backs. And even without being pregnant i can tell you that shoveling 2 feet of snow is never fun. But while it is coming down I won't complain. ;]

Indeed, the lessons are always giving out to us. Most of the time 'we' are aware and can correct, learn and move on from them. But sometimes we get caught in situations were our ability has taken a hit and he crumble. My ex after two years emotionally cheated on me, and insisted that i hate her because she felt guilt. I could not do this and she begged me, pleaded with me to hate her...and finally i told her i did and at that very moment I felt the person i was slink down into oblivion. Was lost for a year and a half after that. She only broke my heart, it was I who had broken my spirit. Then i found a female (not dating just a friend) who helped shine a little light onto me. And i started feeling that light again. Searching and finding and then it all clicked. So maybe i needed that darkness to find out the truth. And even though your faith and mine may differ in origin the message of keeping it and fighting thru the hardship is still there. <3 May i ask what you believe in ultimately and what your ideas of heaven/afterlife/death are?

Well being simple is the key to life. People always wonder why I don't care about food or drink. It's because you can get the same joy out of eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches that you can out of a steak as long as the mind set or company is right. Plus I'm more likely to get lost in myself or something I'm reading then to need massive external stimuli. I won't lie though, going to a play, concert or comedy club is one of my joys. But other than that, as long as I have a roof, a bed and a shower I'm perfectly content with life. But I don't really put myself over much. It's all about helping your fellow beings.

Well let me correct myself, i don't have a massively close family like your one half. Never knew my dad and my mom died when i was 13 and I only knew one of my grandparents for a few years. I do love my family, but I think I'm just more apt to be apart of a family that is humanity even if it is rough around the edges. But it's great that you are entrenched in the bond the right way. <3. Do you plan on looking for another husband or just playing it by ear?

Nothing in particular to think about, just trying to focus on sleep, but it probably had to do with me needing to augment something at noon, so the first half was barely under, then i just couldn't fall asleep after...tossing and turning for an hour before finally going under. The dream i had the first half was interesting though. I won't go into detail unless you want to hear it, but it did involve snow and I've never dreamed about snow in my 27 years. Though it might have something to do with my mind being a bit hyper active because of our conversation. When i meet people i really enjoy I tend to be a bit more jittery( not completely the right word, but it works). That is very interesting that you get up and move towards your back door...can you ever put a finger on the presence you feel?

What other places do you browse? I'm always searching for new spots on the web. Sorry it took me a while to respond. I promise I'll be a bit more quick in the future, friend.

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No worries lovey on not responding sooner, we all have things to do. I don't ever get upset about things like that. As for where I browse on the net, just surf around. Sometimes I just google (actually I prefer Yahoo, but to me they both perform the same search functions, LOL). Anyway, just search key words on random topics. I've been doing quite a bit of research on the back surgery i'll be having so lately i'm researching doctors, hospitals and *spine* forums so i'm completely educated on what to expect, etc. I also look at different prophecy sites, not really any specific one. Sometimes I just search *end times* or *prophecy*. TBH, this is really the only conspiracy site I go to. Sometimes I go to C2C to listen to shows with the person you aren't suppose to name here (I think you aren't suppose to name him here, lol). Then I go on FB and play games when the insomnia gets bad and i'm bored searching the net. I just pass the time away in no particular spot, LOL. Except here, this is my every night go to place lolsign I've been a GLP junkie so to speak since March when Fukushima happened. This was the only place to get *real* news.

I am so sorry to hear about your parents hf I believe you will be reunited with them again. I know it sounds silly but I believe everything happens for a reason and while we may not understand it at the time, it's all part of a master plan. I wish we were closer so I could give you a hug <3 grouphug

As for my beliefs, I will glady share :) I believe in God. I believe God sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ to die for our sins and that 3 days later He rose from His grave and went to heaven to prepare a place for us. I also believe He will return to take us home. Somedays I believe that is much sooner rather than later, LOL. I also believe that we are to try to be more *Christ-like* and by that we are to love others unconditionally, treat others the way we want them to treat us and to spread good will to others. I believe that we each have a path on this journey through life and that we can either choose to take control of the drivers seat or allow God to be in the drivers seat and take us where He wants us to go. Those are my basic core beliefs. Now where it gets sketchy and some Christians don't agree is that I am open to learning about other religions and have no problem loving someone with open arms who chooses differently than I do. I do not believe my way is right for everyone and don't try to push it off on anyone. I believe that when it comes to religion or a belief system, it's a highly personal relationship and it is not place to impose my belief system on someone else just because it is right for me. I try to embrace others and love them regardless to how different we may be. For example, while I don't agree with gay marriage, I have a cousin who is gay and if he chooses to get married, more power to him. I have no place in judging him, that is up to God IMHO. I try not to judge others whenever possible. I don't know what life path others have walked or what has happened to make them into the people they are today so I it's not right for me to judge them, instead I should try to show unconditional love and acceptance.

We are all different. Variety is the spice of life. The world would be boring if we were all the same. Sometimes Christian's here get really upset with me because I am willing to explore other possibilities. My belief system doesn't change just by doing this but a lot of times people freak out. Life is full of surprises and I think you have to be led by the Holy Spirit aka Intuition. I have a very, very strong intuition and it's almost always spot on. I believe it's driven by the Holy Spirit but others may just believe it's a sixth sense. Now, since I brought up sixth senses, I will also divulge that I have a very keen sixth sense and come from a long lineage of this. My kids have it too. They see things a lot so i've taught them to not be afraid. You can always say go to the light or bind it in the name of Jesus and it will be gone. No harm, no foul. LOL. Oh and I do believe in heaven and hell. I believe that if you love Jesus and accept Him as your Savior that you will go to heaven and that it is not too late until you draw your last breath and can't ask His forgiveness. Again, while these are my beliefs, they aren't a one shoe fits all and thats okay. I really prefer to be able to have open conversation with others so I can learn and they can learn. If someone decides to accept Christ then all the Glory goes to God, if they don't, I just pray for them the same as I would the person who accepted Christ. All of this just touches the surface of my belief system. What are your beliefs if you don't mind my asking?

Please tell me about your dream. Dreams speak volumes to us. I love to dream. I have really vivid dreams now. As for the presence at the backdoor...not sure it's a presence. If it were a spirit i'd see it or at least feel it or smell it (crazy you can smell the bad ones, they smell kind of like rotten eggs, wild huh?). Anyway, if it were a spirit i'd bind it or cast it out if I felt danger but I don't. I feel more like i'm partially asleep when I get to the door or have had an OOBE and am waking up too quickly. It's quite odd TBH. Scary because I wake up totally startled and unsure of my surroundings. Sometimes I wake up and think I fell asleep with the windows open in the house and run to check on my kids. I'm sure it ties in with whatever vivid dream I was having and REM phase or again an OOBE that I didn't realize I was in. I don't know.

I hope all this hasn't scared you off or made you look differently upon me. This is just me, LOL.

As for me wanting to get remarried, yeah, it would be nice. I figure it will happen when the time is right. They say you find true love when you aren't looking so 4 years later i'm still not looking, I guess if it's part of the plan for us, it will happen. I guess only time will tell. LOL.

What is your name if I may ask? Mine is Kimberly <3
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Ok, once again it's another sleepless night for me. Insomnia has a hold of me, LOL. Took my pain meds now i'm just waiting for them to kick in so I can hopefully go to sleep.

Stop by to say hello or stay for awhile if you wanna talk :)

Either way I hope you have a blessed night hf
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me too. I have tried everything, I even tried applying ice to my wrist per a suggestion in Women's Magazine.. Still no sleep for me..
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Ok, once again it's another sleepless night for me. Insomnia has a hold of me, LOL. Took my pain meds now i'm just waiting for them to kick in so I can hopefully go to sleep.

Stop by to say hello or stay for awhile if you wanna talk :)

Either way I hope you have a blessed night hf
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me too. I have tried everything, I even tried applying ice to my wrist per a suggestion in Women's Magazine.. Still no sleep for me..
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Really, ICE to put you to sleep? Thats crazy! Yeah, I haven't been able to find anything to work for me. I really hate taking meds and prefer naturopathic/homeopathic remedies. Have you tried peppermint aromatherapy?
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Start listening to c2c am, you'll fall asleep in no time lol
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lolsign Either that or i'll be a total paranoid insomniac too afraid to go to sleep :)
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Read GLP all day = sleeplessness
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I think you hit the nail right on the head!!!! LOL
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Sorry you can not rest, TM.

I've been having a hell of a time finding the same myself. I could get 4 hours of sleep...go to work for 8 or 9 hours...get off work and then go to the farm and mow...and I still can't manage to find the ability to just go lay down and sleep. It really sucks.

I laid in the bed next to my wife the last two nights....and was just laying there for over an hour both times...wishing and hoping that the sand man would come find me.

Does cold air do anything to help you? I know it has the opposite effect on some folks...but in my case...if I sit in front of the air conditioning long enough...I finally get cold enough that my body says "hibernation time".

Oddly enough...I work in a freezer. So my bones already hurt from such...but sitting in front of the air seems to be the only solution. Otherwise, a brutal waiting game ensues.

I hope the problem goes away for you. hf
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Can't sleep either. I've been thinking about a lot. Today was SO weird. I'm from Bakersfield, Ca and a HUGE storm just came from nowhere. Lightning 24/7 NONstop, yellow, purple, green, blue, orange, red lightning. Then get this. The sun appears from the black clouds, pure, deep, blood red. I have never seen anything more red. Lightning is shooting out of the clouds surrounding this red monster. I may sound crazy but I was at work outside under this weather and it really shook me up. Things are so insane lately. And I'm just starting school tomorrow, and I have to worry about that now? I feel whats the point of finishing college when I can inform myself the answer to Truth and Love before this world gets any crazier?

I feel much better. Karma for letting me post my feelings afrohf
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hf I'm so glad that posting your feelings here made you feel better. I'm just sorry I fell asleep and didn't get your post until this morning. I had a rough night but refrained from getting online like I usually do. Usually an hour after I try to go to sleep I find myself back online trolling the net, LOL. Anyway, last night I didn't do that otherwise I would have seen your post. Sorry about that.

My mind has been on overdrive as well. It has been VERY strange weather here the past few days. Yesterday when we got up I was amazed to see huge rain drops falling out of nowhere! It stayed cold most of the day yesterday where I am (LA County/OC boarder). I didn't see the sun or look at it so I didn't see the red color. Oh eerie.

I said a prayer for you for school and your safety today my dear. You need to stay motivated and learn what you can from school. Life is a constant cycle in which we learn and evolve to better ourselves and school is a big part of that. I too felt many times like stopping because of *truth* but you need to stay focused on something otherwise you can literally go crazy from all the *truth* in the world. School is a good thing. Don't give up. Use it as a distraction from getting to stressed about what is happening right now in the world. Sometimes we need things like that to pull us away a little bit, sometimes distractions are welcomed and needed. If that makes any sense. And, I believe school is important anyway, there are a lot of truths to be learned there and it's fun if you let it be that way! Are you in college? If so what is your major? I really liked college. Anthropology, creative writing, nursing and art were my favorites. Oh yeah, and sign language. That was a fun immersion class. The teacher was deaf so we had to learn, quickly to pass the course. LOL.

Thank you for the karma my friend. I will repay the kind gesture when mine is reloaded tonight. If you get a chance after school check in and let me know how it went, i'd love to hear about it. I hope you slept well last night and that you have a blessed first day of school today <3
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Hi, you have no idea how great it is to check glp and to see such a great reply from you :). I'm glad you fell back asleep lol and refrained from getting online. Logging onto the internet can be a nasty habit!! Thank you SO much for your words, you are very encouraging. It feels good to know someone out there thought about my upcoming hardships in school while trying to face the evil of the world. Yes I'm in college, starting my junior year. The thing is I have NEVER had any aspirations for a "job"; no desire to make millions, no desire to have a prestigious job...I simply want to live a humble life and help people and be a good example of truth, Love, and God (good). I am going to college,partly, honestly, to fulfill my gparents desires because I love them so much. That being said though, I LOVE college because I have learned so much! lol. I am a sociology major, idk what the hell I can do with that major but the thing is I LOVE the classes sociology offers. Learning sociology really helps me develop empathy for other humans and I feel empathy is needed in times like this.

Im glad you liked college :). What did you do? Anthropology is too much fun! I'd love to take sign language one day too...anyway thanks. For your motivation to look at school as an *escape* from the stress that the TRUTH brings. God bless.
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Yay, i'm so glad that you had a good day today and that this post made a difference <3 I can totally relate to doing the whole college thing for the glory of your parents, LOL but the good news is that you have found something you really enjoy, Sociology! Maybe you can be a teacher? You would be able to live a humble life and help people ;) I think you could touch many people doing that and it would put you in the perfect position to help people!!! I enjoyed sociology immensely too <3 You are doing great, don't give up and keep focused on the light at the end of the tunnel. Enjoy your youth while you can because once college is over you'll get a job, maybe fall in love and get married to start a family. These years should be some of the best years of your life. Don't get too weighed down with the weight of the world right now. Live in the moment and don't get caught up in the doom factor. Life is to short hf

I am so happy that you had a good day today and you are so welcome for the encouraging words! There are plenty more where those came from ;) I think you asked what I studied, my major was REgistered Nursing <3 My passion is helping others in their darkest hours. I am a very compassionate, loving and honest person who genuinely cares about others so nursing was perfect for me. It took me a long time to get my degree finished because I took the long road in life that was full of bumps and bruises but I wouldn't have had it any other way. I learned a lot about myself and what i'm capable of accomplishing when I set my mind on something. I went to college straight out of high school but got caught up with a *bad* boy and went astray for about 6 years, then I got my VN license and did that for 10 years before getting my RN. It all happened as it was suppose to and I have no regrets. Another life lesson, live your life with no regrets! I strive to do that everyday ;)

Well, I hope that you will check back in tonight. I'm sure i'll have another sleepless night. Hugs to you my friend and congrats on a great first day, i'm proud of you hf
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Thanks for replying again, you sure do seem like such a sweetheart; a caring individual who I KNOW I will see someday in this beautiful universe.
It's hard for me not to get weighed down in the world lately...here is a story for you: I found God about a month or two ago, FINALLY accepted that HE was yearning for me to return to Him and follow His ways through Love and care. I have been a devout athiest as long as I can remember (since my family forced me to attend church) and long story short, I went through many, many strange occurrences this year that have proven God to me. I feel so much peace. What is even more wonderful is I have been blessed with many opportunities to spread the LOVE of God (because that's what He is, Love), to my friends and family!!! That being said, I have a good supply of friends who are now *truthers* and even accept the possibility of God (AND ALIENS!!!) who I can discuss issues like this with :D.

Anyway, school seems so trivial because ALL I want to do is prepare and love. But the Lord tells us we have to make Sacrifices...and I understand going to school is a worthy sacrifice for me, my family, and future.

I feel like I can relate with how you met this "bad boy." I dated this CRAZY girl for about 3 years during and after high school. I understand how other people and "love" (obsession) can screw with your life! That's wonderful you ended up being a registered nurse!!! How inspiring that the person I am talking to saves and inspires the lives of many :). The verse that I will always think of when I see you post on glp (I'm gunna upgrade my account when I have $) will forever be: "Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it." Oh and 1 more thing, I actually start school tomorrow, monday. wish me luck! Peace be to with you and also in your dreams.afro
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Sorry you can not rest, TM.

I've been having a hell of a time finding the same myself. I could get 4 hours of sleep...go to work for 8 or 9 hours...get off work and then go to the farm and mow...and I still can't manage to find the ability to just go lay down and sleep. It really sucks.

I laid in the bed next to my wife the last two nights....and was just laying there for over an hour both times...wishing and hoping that the sand man would come find me.

Does cold air do anything to help you? I know it has the opposite effect on some folks...but in my case...if I sit in front of the air conditioning long enough...I finally get cold enough that my body says "hibernation time".

Oddly enough...I work in a freezer. So my bones already hurt from such...but sitting in front of the air seems to be the only solution. Otherwise, a brutal waiting game ensues.

I hope the problem goes away for you. hf
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Thanks hun! I'm so sorry to hear you have trouble sleeping too. Pooy on the sand man who keeps missing our houses!! lolsign

I wonder if our subconscious is just working overtime with all the world chaos and it's making it so we can't sleep? IDK. It seems the harder I try to fall asleep the less likely I am to sleep. I try to make sure my mind is quiet when I lay down and *feel* tired and most of the time it is quiet, at least to the point where things are going on over drive up there with random thoughts and still no luck most nights.

It gets old, really, really quick. Especially when you have other responsibilities. Maybe there is just something in the air, like we are waiting for the other shoe to drop and it never does. I know personally I am just ready for the doom to show it's face, get it over with and lets pick up the pieces and move on.

As for cold air coming into play, we don't have AC. I have ceiling fans and awesome ventilation in my house so we stay cool enough. I bet that your body is just so use to working in a cold environment, it's become nature that it can only function, i.e. work and sleep when in a similar environment. I'm sorry hun you are going through this. It sucks. Know that you are not alone though and on sleepless nights you can come and join us here on this thread to pass the time away ;)

I hope that the sand man finds you tonight and that you get a good nights sleep. You deserve it and need it especially when you have so much on your plate.

Hugs to you my friend hf Here are some sheep to help get you to sleep....

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Sorry you can not rest, TM.

I've been having a hell of a time finding the same myself. I could get 4 hours of sleep...go to work for 8 or 9 hours...get off work and then go to the farm and mow...and I still can't manage to find the ability to just go lay down and sleep. It really sucks.

I laid in the bed next to my wife the last two nights....and was just laying there for over an hour both times...wishing and hoping that the sand man would come find me.

Does cold air do anything to help you? I know it has the opposite effect on some folks...but in my case...if I sit in front of the air conditioning long enough...I finally get cold enough that my body says "hibernation time".

Oddly enough...I work in a freezer. So my bones already hurt from such...but sitting in front of the air seems to be the only solution. Otherwise, a brutal waiting game ensues.

I hope the problem goes away for you. hf
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Thanks hun! I'm so sorry to hear you have trouble sleeping too. Pooy on the sand man who keeps missing our houses!! lolsign

I wonder if our subconscious is just working overtime with all the world chaos and it's making it so we can't sleep? IDK. It seems the harder I try to fall asleep the less likely I am to sleep. I try to make sure my mind is quiet when I lay down and *feel* tired and most of the time it is quiet, at least to the point where things are going on over drive up there with random thoughts and still no luck most nights.

It gets old, really, really quick. Especially when you have other responsibilities. Maybe there is just something in the air, like we are waiting for the other shoe to drop and it never does. I know personally I am just ready for the doom to show it's face, get it over with and lets pick up the pieces and move on.

As for cold air coming into play, we don't have AC. I have ceiling fans and awesome ventilation in my house so we stay cool enough. I bet that your body is just so use to working in a cold environment, it's become nature that it can only function, i.e. work and sleep when in a similar environment. I'm sorry hun you are going through this. It sucks. Know that you are not alone though and on sleepless nights you can come and join us here on this thread to pass the time away ;)

I hope that the sand man finds you tonight and that you get a good nights sleep. You deserve it and need it especially when you have so much on your plate.

Hugs to you my friend hf Here are some sheep to help get you to sleep....

sheep sheep sheep sheep sheep sheep
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Thank you.

After the last couple of days...one thing is for sure. It is not just us GLP'ers.

I talked to my sister who lives out by Chicago the past couple of nights. Her husband is a pretty mellow dude, works hard...just an all around good guy. But even he has this sneaking suspicion that something wicked this way comes.

I talked to her today after I got home from work. She was asking me if everything was good. I told her "Yeah, aside from the president making a very odd speech." and then I played it for her. Her response was something to the effect of "What kind of apocalyptic shit was that?!"

*shrugs*

There is an energy...an awakening happening.

Just wish that it didn't come with the added trouble of making rest (which is already in relatively short supply) hard to find in the first place.


You take care, and may you and yours be well, and hopefully well rested.
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Poor thing, Trixie Mama. That's miserable. If you can take benadryl with the meds you're taking, two of them should help within about 15/20 min. Wishing you sweet dreams and relaxing sleep!
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hf I'm so glad that posting your feelings here made you feel better. I'm just sorry I fell asleep and didn't get your post until this morning. I had a rough night but refrained from getting online like I usually do. Usually an hour after I try to go to sleep I find myself back online trolling the net, LOL. Anyway, last night I didn't do that otherwise I would have seen your post. Sorry about that.

My mind has been on overdrive as well. It has been VERY strange weather here the past few days. Yesterday when we got up I was amazed to see huge rain drops falling out of nowhere! It stayed cold most of the day yesterday where I am (LA County/OC boarder). I didn't see the sun or look at it so I didn't see the red color. Oh eerie.

I said a prayer for you for school and your safety today my dear. You need to stay motivated and learn what you can from school. Life is a constant cycle in which we learn and evolve to better ourselves and school is a big part of that. I too felt many times like stopping because of *truth* but you need to stay focused on something otherwise you can literally go crazy from all the *truth* in the world. School is a good thing. Don't give up. Use it as a distraction from getting to stressed about what is happening right now in the world. Sometimes we need things like that to pull us away a little bit, sometimes distractions are welcomed and needed. If that makes any sense. And, I believe school is important anyway, there are a lot of truths to be learned there and it's fun if you let it be that way! Are you in college? If so what is your major? I really liked college. Anthropology, creative writing, nursing and art were my favorites. Oh yeah, and sign language. That was a fun immersion class. The teacher was deaf so we had to learn, quickly to pass the course. LOL.

Thank you for the karma my friend. I will repay the kind gesture when mine is reloaded tonight. If you get a chance after school check in and let me know how it went, i'd love to hear about it. I hope you slept well last night and that you have a blessed first day of school today <3
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Hi, you have no idea how great it is to check glp and to see such a great reply from you :). I'm glad you fell back asleep lol and refrained from getting online. Logging onto the internet can be a nasty habit!! Thank you SO much for your words, you are very encouraging. It feels good to know someone out there thought about my upcoming hardships in school while trying to face the evil of the world. Yes I'm in college, starting my junior year. The thing is I have NEVER had any aspirations for a "job"; no desire to make millions, no desire to have a prestigious job...I simply want to live a humble life and help people and be a good example of truth, Love, and God (good). I am going to college,partly, honestly, to fulfill my gparents desires because I love them so much. That being said though, I LOVE college because I have learned so much! lol. I am a sociology major, idk what the hell I can do with that major but the thing is I LOVE the classes sociology offers. Learning sociology really helps me develop empathy for other humans and I feel empathy is needed in times like this.

Im glad you liked college :). What did you do? Anthropology is too much fun! I'd love to take sign language one day too...anyway thanks. For your motivation to look at school as an *escape* from the stress that the TRUTH brings. God bless.
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Yay, i'm so glad that you had a good day today and that this post made a difference <3 I can totally relate to doing the whole college thing for the glory of your parents, LOL but the good news is that you have found something you really enjoy, Sociology! Maybe you can be a teacher? You would be able to live a humble life and help people ;) I think you could touch many people doing that and it would put you in the perfect position to help people!!! I enjoyed sociology immensely too <3 You are doing great, don't give up and keep focused on the light at the end of the tunnel. Enjoy your youth while you can because once college is over you'll get a job, maybe fall in love and get married to start a family. These years should be some of the best years of your life. Don't get too weighed down with the weight of the world right now. Live in the moment and don't get caught up in the doom factor. Life is to short hf

I am so happy that you had a good day today and you are so welcome for the encouraging words! There are plenty more where those came from ;) I think you asked what I studied, my major was REgistered Nursing <3 My passion is helping others in their darkest hours. I am a very compassionate, loving and honest person who genuinely cares about others so nursing was perfect for me. It took me a long time to get my degree finished because I took the long road in life that was full of bumps and bruises but I wouldn't have had it any other way. I learned a lot about myself and what i'm capable of accomplishing when I set my mind on something. I went to college straight out of high school but got caught up with a *bad* boy and went astray for about 6 years, then I got my VN license and did that for 10 years before getting my RN. It all happened as it was suppose to and I have no regrets. Another life lesson, live your life with no regrets! I strive to do that everyday ;)

Well, I hope that you will check back in tonight. I'm sure i'll have another sleepless night. Hugs to you my friend and congrats on a great first day, i'm proud of you hf
 Quoting: TrixieMama


Thanks for replying again, you sure do seem like such a sweetheart; a caring individual who I KNOW I will see someday in this beautiful universe.
It's hard for me not to get weighed down in the world lately...here is a story for you: I found God about a month or two ago, FINALLY accepted that HE was yearning for me to return to Him and follow His ways through Love and care. I have been a devout athiest as long as I can remember (since my family forced me to attend church) and long story short, I went through many, many strange occurrences this year that have proven God to me. I feel so much peace. What is even more wonderful is I have been blessed with many opportunities to spread the LOVE of God (because that's what He is, Love), to my friends and family!!! That being said, I have a good supply of friends who are now *truthers* and even accept the possibility of God (AND ALIENS!!!) who I can discuss issues like this with :D.

Anyway, school seems so trivial because ALL I want to do is prepare and love. But the Lord tells us we have to make Sacrifices...and I understand going to school is a worthy sacrifice for me, my family, and future.

I feel like I can relate with how you met this "bad boy." I dated this CRAZY girl for about 3 years during and after high school. I understand how other people and "love" (obsession) can screw with your life! That's wonderful you ended up being a registered nurse!!! How inspiring that the person I am talking to saves and inspires the lives of many :). The verse that I will always think of when I see you post on glp (I'm gunna upgrade my account when I have $) will forever be: "Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it." Oh and 1 more thing, I actually start school tomorrow, monday. wish me luck! Peace be to with you and also in your dreams.afro
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LOL, I am SUCH a NERD! It's okay, this is ME lolsign So tired I forgot what day of the week it was/is! Well, I know you will have an awesome first day tomorrow and be super blessed as a result of your decision to continue with school!

Praising God right now for your acceptance of Jesus and no longer following the Atheist path! Woo Hoo! Thank you JESUS! I love it when someone comes to Him! Such an exciting thing and the angels sing out in praise and glory to God for your choice! YAY!

I will let you in on a little secret that you may or may not know. A lot of times,, and I mean A LOT of times when a person first comes to know God the devil will begin to work hard to sway them. He will do whatever he can to take their eyes off God and focus on other things that would not make God happy. Consider this, the feelings you have shared with me could stem from the devil trying to sway you off track! Yup, he has done it to me many times. The more you come to believe and follow Christ, the more the devil will show his ugly head and try to steer you in the opposite/wrong direction! Stay grounded in your faith and when you feel like giving up or that you aren't motivated pray, pray and pray some more!

One of my favorite quotes is, "fear is of the devil and there is NO room for him in my life!". Anytime i'm conflicted, overwhelmed and fearful I say that quote and instantly feel more at ease. The devil wants what he can't have and right now, thats you babe! Give him a run for his money! Another favorite one is "what the devil tries to use for evil let God us for HIS glory".

I am so proud of you! I really am! You overcame something that many people can't. You totally changed your belief system and you believe it in your soul! That is so awesome! Yay! And you have blessed with the opportunity to help people learn about Christ as well as open their eyes to the world around them! God works in mysterious ways and we never know how He will use us but He is in control and guiding you right now! Awesome! I can't begin to tell you how excited I am for you! Thank you for sharing your testimony with me smile_kiss

Oh and while school may seem trivial, it's a stepping stone. Let God guide you, let Him take you down the path He has chosen for you. Life becomes quite simple when you master that. It's hard to not be in control and just have faith that God has a plan but trust me, it's an amazing journey when you do!

Thank you for the kind verse hf You know, life is short and we only have a brief time in this life to make a difference in the lives we touch and I believe that opening ourselves to others and embracing them is what God wants us to do so I try to do that here. Sometimes I get to meet like minded, friendly people and other times people put me down for my genuine *friendly* efforts. Nursing is awesome. It isn't for everyone and it's a hard, non glamorous job but I love knowing that I can make a difference in the lives of people in their deepest, darkest moments. It's really a passion. It's a close second to being a mother. LOL.

God is working through you and it's awesome! I am so excited for you and looking forward to hearing about your first day at school tomorrow! You don't need luck, you have God on your side and i'll say a prayer for you! Let me know how it goes tomorrow ok? Hugs my friend and it is such a blessing and honor to know you smile_kiss
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13
"I shall call upon the name of the Lord who is worthy to be praised; so shall I be saved from mine enemies" Psalm 18:2-4
"In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God." Psalm 62:6-8
"He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
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Re: Wide awake, can't sleep.
Sorry you can not rest, TM.

I've been having a hell of a time finding the same myself. I could get 4 hours of sleep...go to work for 8 or 9 hours...get off work and then go to the farm and mow...and I still can't manage to find the ability to just go lay down and sleep. It really sucks.

I laid in the bed next to my wife the last two nights....and was just laying there for over an hour both times...wishing and hoping that the sand man would come find me.

Does cold air do anything to help you? I know it has the opposite effect on some folks...but in my case...if I sit in front of the air conditioning long enough...I finally get cold enough that my body says "hibernation time".

Oddly enough...I work in a freezer. So my bones already hurt from such...but sitting in front of the air seems to be the only solution. Otherwise, a brutal waiting game ensues.

I hope the problem goes away for you. hf
 Quoting: The Voice In Your Head


Thanks hun! I'm so sorry to hear you have trouble sleeping too. Pooy on the sand man who keeps missing our houses!! lolsign

I wonder if our subconscious is just working overtime with all the world chaos and it's making it so we can't sleep? IDK. It seems the harder I try to fall asleep the less likely I am to sleep. I try to make sure my mind is quiet when I lay down and *feel* tired and most of the time it is quiet, at least to the point where things are going on over drive up there with random thoughts and still no luck most nights.

It gets old, really, really quick. Especially when you have other responsibilities. Maybe there is just something in the air, like we are waiting for the other shoe to drop and it never does. I know personally I am just ready for the doom to show it's face, get it over with and lets pick up the pieces and move on.

As for cold air coming into play, we don't have AC. I have ceiling fans and awesome ventilation in my house so we stay cool enough. I bet that your body is just so use to working in a cold environment, it's become nature that it can only function, i.e. work and sleep when in a similar environment. I'm sorry hun you are going through this. It sucks. Know that you are not alone though and on sleepless nights you can come and join us here on this thread to pass the time away ;)

I hope that the sand man finds you tonight and that you get a good nights sleep. You deserve it and need it especially when you have so much on your plate.

Hugs to you my friend hf Here are some sheep to help get you to sleep....

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 Quoting: TrixieMama


Thank you.

After the last couple of days...one thing is for sure. It is not just us GLP'ers.

I talked to my sister who lives out by Chicago the past couple of nights. Her husband is a pretty mellow dude, works hard...just an all around good guy. But even he has this sneaking suspicion that something wicked this way comes.

I talked to her today after I got home from work. She was asking me if everything was good. I told her "Yeah, aside from the president making a very odd speech." and then I played it for her. Her response was something to the effect of "What kind of apocalyptic shit was that?!"

*shrugs*

There is an energy...an awakening happening.

Just wish that it didn't come with the added trouble of making rest (which is already in relatively short supply) hard to find in the first place.


You take care, and may you and yours be well, and hopefully well rested.
 Quoting: The Voice In Your Head


I believe you are right my friend. It isn't just people here on GLP. There is some type of awakening going on and people realize things are worse than wrong and amiss. I too feel it. Something isn't right, hasn't been right for a long time. Being a Christian I keep looking forward to the possibility of *going home* when TSHTF. I think that something is on the verge of happening, I don't know what and won't speculate to know what it is. I just wish it would hurry up and happen so we can move forward. I'm tired!!!

I too wish whatever it is didn't mean sleepless nights but there must be a reason. BTW, I too thought his speech was really apocalyptic in nature. I didn't find it appropriate at all. That Psalms talks about the future, not past events or sorrows. That Psalms has yet to take place and can be echoed in Revelations.

Stay safe my friend. Blessings to you and yours! If you can't sleep, you know where the thread is, kind of like Motel 6, we'll leave the light on for ya hf
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13
"I shall call upon the name of the Lord who is worthy to be praised; so shall I be saved from mine enemies" Psalm 18:2-4
"In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God." Psalm 62:6-8
"He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30

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