Maybe this post was premature. I was trying to form it on the spot, but have not the words for it. There is confusion arising because of some nomenclature I am using, as well as numbers that are not meant to be numbers, as much as symbols for construction.

The thoughts in my head...I am having to form concepts of them in the form of words, and sequence of sentences...as well as symbols (that i am using as numbers), and a lot of distortion may be occurring.

Maybe I should use concepts and words, instead of relying on numbers and see what manifests.

I had related this problem to Aether, prior to conclusion of the vision, and had thought the answer would be forming numbers that represented symbols and forces and concepts. But, I do not know if this is possible because of the various meanings of language. It is as if I try and put words to the symbols and forces, and end up with the same problem...that the words have too much baggage associated with them, and are not representative of the clarity in which I see them.