meeting GOD and seeing him have the abilty to rain love down on my skin, was day one.
i always told the people who would say, "i love you" to me. these people being my family and the few women in my life that would have the right to say such things. i would hear thier words over and over, but thier actions screamed a very different song. so i would say, don't tell me but show me>>>
well meeting GOD and him knowing me for better than i knew myself, he didn't say i love you, he rained love down on my shin, the closer i got to the room he sat in, the stronger and heavier this love would pour down. this being had heard my pleads to all those who came before, claiming those 3 words. he never said it, he showed me! this was and would remain my GOD to the very min. it is he i serve, not yall, he asked me to come and bring the knews i have brought. i din't come on my own behalf.
like i said before i never liked most of the people i found here (earth), but he loved yall and i loved him. so i came and did the very best i knew how, not having any training other than life it's self. i brought what i believe to be the truth, nothing more.
i have been shown many things, so on that level i have reached the hieghts many people have sought after. if what i have said is true and it is. then i have far surpassed any dreams one could dream. i have seen what most must die to see. i have heard the words i love you and for once i believed the lips that those words crossed.
i have seen power on levels that i didn't believe were possable, i have seen a king worthy of his own kindom, i have met a GOD who is worthy of worship. with his hands and mind he has made a place where i wish to spend the rest of time. he values the only thing of value, love. he wished to teach us how to be happy and happiness is found outside our selves, while serving others my own insides become overflowing with true joy and peace...
if what i have said here on this page or any page is the making of my own mind brought on by the years of stress and pain, then those years have served me well.
because my message to anyone reading, is love, and how only threw love may we find hope, joy, and reasons for doing another day.
it also seems to me that this GOD i have found has spent a lot more time on me than i spent on him. the best way to say i'm sorry for being so self centered over the years while trying to please myself, when i didn't have a clue where to start or even what i was so despertly hunting is, SORRY! let me spend whatever time i have left fixing yesterday. i gave him my life in full only wishing to know if i have done any good on any level? have i helped one person who wishes to find reason and truth. i have tirelessly pushed into each new day, tiring to please one man/GOD. he ask me to find you and tell you what i have been shown. it is him i work for and am tiring to please, it is you whom he wants me to talk with. so i do as he ask. all i want to do, if i had my way, is to go and stay at the places i have been shown. the heaven that awaits us all. i wait here each day, because this morning, just like all those before, i wake up here. one morning soon i hope, i will wake up there!!! and not have to come and bother yall, that maybe, just maybe i will complete my task here and someone else will finish what i have started.
I WISH TO GO LAY IN LOVE'S ARMS FOR A VERY, VERY LONG TIME!!!