speaking of that cop/ fag that took and held me for over 18 hrs. i was 16 yrs old, afraid of of my mind, he took me to an boarded up house and locked me inside as he undressed and tired to have his way with me. man was i afraid, tears streaming down my face. Quoting: chipg 24472516
i was with a co-worker at the time i was a dish washer at a steak house, he took me and no one even looked for him. my parents refused to hear one word. i was so mad i could have scream.
these are the people who claim to have your back. i knew i was screwed from even before this day, but this day was the nail in the coffin.
i have a warm place in my heart for the orphan, those without parents, i know their pain, their struggles. just finding a reason to live comes hard.
after having all the women, i felt empty, almost dead. what not? it was a real question.
i called out to GOD, sure he would show himself in some tiny way. and he did, but i couldn't be sure i wasn't just fooling myself.
many and i mean many strange events happen before July 31 2006. but that day changed my life, my dreams. i am alive today because of those events and those events only...
thank you nine for your kind words. i need them more than people understand. i know i come off hard and stupid, but it the real me. not holding nothing back on here, maybe i should, but then it wouldn't be me...
thank you again nine, a kind word has ripples too
The thanks goes to you Chip, for the kind words. You're right, everyone does need it and your words are very appreciated.
The incident with that cop would have been terrifying at any age. He should have been in prison. It's terrible that no one helped you and that he didn't have to answer for his crimes. Some day though, he will. There is a Supreme law and Judge that no one can hide or escape from.
Bless you for having a warm place in your heart for orphans and those without parents. In the heart of every child in that position, is hope that somewhere, someone cares.
It's good that you took your pain and channelled it into caring for others, and found some hard truths yourself. What you mentioned about after having all the women, and you felt empty. It's too bad more people can't learn that satisfying the physical needs doesn't satisfy the mental and emotional ones. Lots of wisdom there. Some people never learn it.
You know you come across as hard and stupid? That isn't true at all. Don't let anyone make you feel that way. You have a choice of whether or not to accept that wrong judgment. Make a choice to not accept it.
You're proving that you don't have to understand where you came from to know where you're going. You're moving ahead. Thank you again for sharing.