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Anonymous Coward User ID: 1426901 United States 09/21/2011 11:06 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/21/2011 11:07 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow. The demons really play with you. You need a foundation of thought that cannot be moved to secure your mind. Quoting: Chip Oak trees in the hurricane if you will. Explain further. I have thought of demons doing it too, because recently I have found myself getting closer to God and changing a lot about myself and my behaviors. I feel crazy even talking like this because it is not how I usually am. My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/21/2011 11:15 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | You all also have to understand within 48 hours of my mothers death back in May I was taken to the ER and had to have my appendix removed. Upon her death I vomited and thought it was just stress as I got sicker rapidly. Then my appendix was removed. That is why I missed the wake and funeral because I was in the hospital. She was not a dark women. She always read the bible and went to church when she was well enough all through her cancer. She died of a massive stroke shortly after liver surgery to remove the rest of the cancer that had spread from her colon. That is why I don't understand since her death why all these experiences have been so dark. My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 1554402 United States 09/21/2011 11:20 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | After my grandmother died i was tormented day and night by it. After i started reading my bible and praying all the nightmares / depression and anxiety went away. God did for me what years of therapy could never accomplish. like i said, i know its not what you want to hear, but it's the truth. |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/21/2011 11:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Read your bible, i know this isnt what you want to hear. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 1554402 After my grandmother died i was tormented day and night by it. After i started reading my bible and praying all the nightmares / depression and anxiety went away. God did for me what years of therapy could never accomplish. like i said, i know its not what you want to hear, but it's the truth. I am not against doing that. Why do you think that happened to you after your grandmother died? My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
danwa User ID: 1522311 United States 09/21/2011 11:24 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dreams are often metaphors for current concerns in your life. The inability to move, for example, may mean there is something that requires you to act, but you are hesitating. The inability to open your eyes, may indicate that you do not want to admit your true position on the issue. Your mother asking you to wake, may be an unconscious attempt to figuratively and authoritatively "awaken" you to the issue. The cancer may be the issue itself, something previously unthinkable, undesired and unaddressed. Don't assume the worse. |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/21/2011 11:26 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dreams are often metaphors for current concerns in your life. The inability to move, for example, may mean there is something that requires you to act, but you are hesitating. The inability to open your eyes, may indicate that you do not want to admit your true position on the issue. Your mother asking you to wake, may be an unconscious attempt to figuratively and authoritatively "awaken" you to the issue. The cancer may be the issue itself, something previously unthinkable, undesired and unaddressed. Quoting: danwa Don't assume the worse. Yeah, however because of the blood I will def see a doctor now. Also the removal of my appendix within 48 hours of her death was already weird enough for me. My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/21/2011 11:28 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow. The demons really play with you. You need a foundation of thought that cannot be moved to secure your mind. Quoting: Chip Oak trees in the hurricane if you will. Explain further. I have thought of demons doing it too, because recently I have found myself getting closer to God and changing a lot about myself and my behaviors. I feel crazy even talking like this because it is not how I usually am. Explain further...hmmm. Well, I read your posts as they come and have noticed that you have some health issues and worries. This is a sign that your faith in your own body is a tad out of whack. It doesn't mean that your destined to die of some ailment you fear...it just makes you susceptible to outward influence (heart rates, scabs bump and the like). Fear is like an beacon for negative influence. It thrives on it. Your mind can become your own enemy. Make it for you, not against you. If you must lie to yourself repeatedly to make something within you true...DO IT! Remember, you cannot lie to yourself about outward influences or circumstances just about what is within. The placebo effect is enough evidence in this world to know that the mind (center of the nervous system) controls way more than we realize. Hope this helps. Ok yes that makes sense thank you. My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 1542253 United States 09/21/2011 11:29 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | omg me too! my mom was a sadistic mommy dearest type. she had once had EST for depression "in the late 60's" My mother made joan crawfords home look like paradise. She died this year. I have dreams of punching her...I'm ashamed to admit. But its been nearly every night for the past two months... Not punching her...LOL Just her being in my dreams..... |
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atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/21/2011 11:30 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Atomic- Good luck at the Dr's, I am glad you are checking it out. Sounds like a strong sign, but hopefully only good health is in your future. Quoting: Gemini Positive thoughts to you! My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
danwa User ID: 1522311 United States 09/21/2011 11:32 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dreams are often metaphors for current concerns in your life. The inability to move, for example, may mean there is something that requires you to act, but you are hesitating. The inability to open your eyes, may indicate that you do not want to admit your true position on the issue. Your mother asking you to wake, may be an unconscious attempt to figuratively and authoritatively "awaken" you to the issue. The cancer may be the issue itself, something previously unthinkable, undesired and unaddressed. Quoting: danwa Don't assume the worse. Yeah, however because of the blood I will def see a doctor now. Also the removal of my appendix within 48 hours of her death was already weird enough for me. Yes definitely see the Dr. Good luck and think positive! |
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Doomamatrix User ID: 1642330 United States 09/21/2011 11:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | It could be too that you are about to have a major break thru in your faith and this would ramp up your walk with God. satan does NOT like that. He wants you back under lock and key to him! Do NOT let him win. He's trying to scare you. However, I would take the warning from Mom very serious which You are doing. Please come back and let us know what happened. God Bless you! Obamacare: Never has so much been taken away from so many for so few. |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/21/2011 11:35 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | her way tell you she needs help with prayers Quoting: Anonymous Coward 1642868 she probobly es in purgatory and needs prayers go to Catholic Church y have Mass said for her (no matter if not Catolica) A month before her actual death I started having dreams that she was calling me on the phone. In my dream she was dead and often told me she was cold and not sure where she was. I would remind her she had died and she would say "yes I know" or "Oh ok". This of course was before her actual death. Back then it upset me to dream that because I was wanting her to get well and of course at that time she was not actually dead. My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/21/2011 11:35 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | It could be too that you are about to have a major break thru in your faith and this would ramp up your walk with God. Quoting: Doomamatrix satan does NOT like that. He wants you back under lock and key to him! Do NOT let him win. He's trying to scare you. However, I would take the warning from Mom very serious which You are doing. Please come back and let us know what happened. God Bless you! Thank you I agree with you on both points. My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 1636193 United States 09/21/2011 11:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ................ Quoting: atomic811 I almost feel tormented by these dreams to a point I have not been sleeping well because I am scared to go to sleep. ...... It is the opposite that you need to do. Lack of sleep and rest gives you more of the sleep paralysis episodes. Excercise and get tired so that you can sleep better. I used to get those till I figured out the cause. Even if you get them just remember that it is just a bad dream, try to breeth slowly, don't fight it and you may fall asleep peacefully. |
~Me User ID: 1544054 Canada 09/22/2011 12:04 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Because you were not able to attend the funeral, you feel guilty. Going to a loved one's funeral is a huge closer and you were not able to do that. You blame yourself/your health on not being able to attend. First, forgive yourself, God has forgiven you. Your mother forgives you. Don't be so hard on yourself. Talk to your Mother, she can hear you. This may be a helpful prayer before you sleep - Higher Forces Come into my body Give me strength, guidance and protection And please God, Put a strong protective Light around my body, And in the name of Jesus, Cancel all negative thoughts and actions that are being directed to me, and eliminate the enemies power to do any evil to me. So shall it be. In Jesus Christ's name I pray, who lives and reigns with the Father and the Holy Spirit One God forever and ever. Amen~ ~blessings to you "I AM Brenda" |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/22/2011 01:45 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | You need to let your mother go. Your too wrapped up in her death. I know. My mother died two years ago. It kills me daily. You have to live your life. This is what she would want. Relax, get over the death. Let it go. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 1556553 See that is the weird thing. I am not upset at all about her death. Though we were close. I always thought it would upset me a great deal. And now that it happened I feel nothing. People think I should be upset, yet I am just not. At first I thought maybe it just hasn't hit me, but its been 4 months. My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
atomic811 (OP) User ID: 1539404 United States 09/22/2011 01:47 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Sorry to hear of your loss. With reading what you and other's have said, this is what i believe may be happening. Quoting: ~Me Because you were not able to attend the funeral, you feel guilty. Going to a loved one's funeral is a huge closer and you were not able to do that. You blame yourself/your health on not being able to attend. First, forgive yourself, God has forgiven you. Your mother forgives you. Don't be so hard on yourself. Talk to your Mother, she can hear you. This may be a helpful prayer before you sleep - Higher Forces Come into my body Give me strength, guidance and protection And please God, Put a strong protective Light around my body, And in the name of Jesus, Cancel all negative thoughts and actions that are being directed to me, and eliminate the enemies power to do any evil to me. So shall it be. In Jesus Christ's name I pray, who lives and reigns with the Father and the Holy Spirit One God forever and ever. Amen~ ~blessings to you I almost feel bad about not feeling bad about it. Makes me seem like an awful son. Oddly I don't feel guilt over not going. I feel I should...I just don't. My Blog [link to brianunderwood.blogspot.com] My video [link to blip.tv] |
weegie User ID: 1556716 Switzerland 09/22/2011 11:03 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Sorry to hear of your loss. With reading what you and other's have said, this is what i believe may be happening. Quoting: ~Me Because you were not able to attend the funeral, you feel guilty. Going to a loved one's funeral is a huge closer and you were not able to do that. You blame yourself/your health on not being able to attend. First, forgive yourself, God has forgiven you. Your mother forgives you. Don't be so hard on yourself. Talk to your Mother, she can hear you. This may be a helpful prayer before you sleep - Higher Forces Come into my body Give me strength, guidance and protection And please God, Put a strong protective Light around my body, And in the name of Jesus, Cancel all negative thoughts and actions that are being directed to me, and eliminate the enemies power to do any evil to me. So shall it be. In Jesus Christ's name I pray, who lives and reigns with the Father and the Holy Spirit One God forever and ever. Amen~ ~blessings to you I almost feel bad about not feeling bad about it. Makes me seem like an awful son. Oddly I don't feel guilt over not going. I feel I should...I just don't. ^^^^Why should you feel guilt? Do you think your mother was looking down at her funeral and taking roll? It was only her body...her spirit lives on. Stop worrying about what others think...being in the hospital is a totally valid excuse...but you don't have to justify your decisions to anyone except yourself and God. Why do you feel a need to shout for help in your dreams? Is it because of the paralysis? Or is something happening in the dreams that is scaring you? If she really came to give you a warning about your health...then be glad she is looking over you even now. She's OK where she is and still loves you. Before you go to bed, pray about the dreams...that you will understand their message if there is one, or be delivered from them if they are demonic attacks. Be at peace...God is still in control. |
442 User ID: 476132 United States 09/22/2011 11:04 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I keep having dreams recently of my dead mother. However these are not pleasant dreams. These are nightmares of epic proportions. Quoting: atomic811 In them I can't always move. I can't always open my eyes to see her in a dark silhouette. I am unable to shout for help in the dream. The one that concerns me the most. She came to me and said in my ear. "Wake up! You have cancer!", so I did wake up from fear. I went to the bathroom 10 mins later and there was blood. So I am going to see a gastro doctor soon. I almost feel tormented by these dreams to a point I have not been sleeping well because I am scared to go to sleep. I am also scared about what they mean. A dream of a mother-- so matter what you dreamed is ALWAYS good. |