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I'm losing the battle for my soul...or is it my sanity...both?

 
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I'm losing the battle for my soul...or is it my sanity...both?
Meh...I'm not fooling myself any longer.

Let the downward spiral commence.

Might be a good show...for some.

If there's one thing I excel at that it's dwelling on/in the negative.

I might as well perfect my talent...see how far I can push it until a breaking point is reached.

Kind of like playing chicken with one's conscience.

Lose, lose either way.

I "win" and I get to undergo the task of pulling myself out of the tailspin.

Not much of a win there but it's something I guess...

I lose and I leave all my worries behind...presumably.

...though I have heard otherwise.

This is the one case where I will truly indulge in hope.

Game on.
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Go get a freakin hobby, dude.
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Beware spiritual gifts they often end up being a curse.
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[link to www.youtube.com]

This should feed any negative vibes.

I am a rather self destructive individual.

This is why I keep no company...no collateral damage.
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Beware spiritual gifts they often end up being a curse.
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I'm not fishing for gifts...hell take everything away in fact.

I care not.
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Jesus can wipe away all your sins and you can start afresh with a completely clean conscience. You need that to heal your broken relationship with God. There's no other way to pull out of the spiral down the toilet bowl. The current's just too strong.
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Jesus can wipe away all your sins and you can start afresh with a completely clean conscience. You need that to heal your broken relationship with God. There's no other way to pull out of the spiral down the toilet bowl. The current's just too strong.
 Quoting: SevenThunders


first of all, do not listen to a thing he just said. learn to become positive, watch only positive movies, shows. listen to only positive music and news until your are out of this slump then you can look at the dark side of life and shit in its face
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Jesus can wipe away all your sins and you can start afresh with a completely clean conscience. You need that to heal your broken relationship with God. There's no other way to pull out of the spiral down the toilet bowl. The current's just too strong.
 Quoting: SevenThunders


I certain Jesus could help but I'm quite fond of my idea.

I think I can "win".

Maybe I'm wrong.

Should be entertaining either way.

Besides, when was the last time someone got hurt while dabbling in the dark arts.

...oh wait, never mind.

I'll still take my chances.

Like I said...might make for a good show...train wreck?

Joke will be on me so no one else is going to get hurt.

Just me...potentially.

I like my odds.

50/50
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sincerely

your bag of responsibility is empty
so please load some before karma kicks in

never too late, you will get more understanding of reality
only after you realize corresponding portion of your responsibility for it

(these are mostly moral lessons our souls need for function/solution on much greater scales)


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Meh...I'm not fooling myself any longer.

Let the downward spiral commence.

Might be a good show...for some.

If there's one thing I excel at that it's dwelling on/in the negative.

I might as well perfect my talent...see how far I can push it until a breaking point is reached.

Kind of like playing chicken with one's conscience.

Lose, lose either way.

I "win" and I get to undergo the task of pulling myself out of the tailspin.

Not much of a win there but it's something I guess...

I lose and I leave all my worries behind...presumably.

...though I have heard otherwise.

This is the one case where I will truly indulge in hope.

Game on.
 Quoting: Devoted Follower 3311637


I feel your pain bro.

Life is an enigmatic experience. We all travel various paths....ultimately ending up at the same destination.

Searching for answers and only finding more questions.

Sometimes I think being labeled a sick bastard is a good thing. No time for miminal minds...total opposites. And nobody is stopping it.....

Stay tuned.
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Jesus can wipe away all your sins and you can start afresh with a completely clean conscience. You need that to heal your broken relationship with God. There's no other way to pull out of the spiral down the toilet bowl. The current's just too strong.
 Quoting: SevenThunders


first of all, do not listen to a thing he just said. learn to become positive, watch only positive movies, shows. listen to only positive music and news until your are out of this slump then you can look at the dark side of life and shit in its face
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 3037462


It's really all I know or ever knew.

I can pretend to be an optimist but it will be just that, pretending.

I'll go with what I know and take it to any of the two logical conclusions.

...or maybe I should start drinking.

Maybe I just need to numb myself.

Hmm...a 3rd option.

Hardcore alcoholic.

I might be good at that...
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sincerely

your bag of responsibility is empty
so please load some before karma kicks in

never too late, you will get more understanding of reality
only after you realize corresponding portion of your responsibility for it

(these are mostly moral lessons our souls need for function/solution on much greater scales)


abduct
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Thanks, this helps me realize that my assertion that I am in fact worthless is valid.

Thank you again friend.

Yes, completely and utterly worthless I am.

Do souls come with receipts?

If so I believe God is going to demand a refund on mine.

Hey...who could blame him right?

:D
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[link to www.youtube.com]

Almost not gloomy enough but not counterintuitive to my on going game...

Almost.
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goodgawdalmighty
pop a beer and even put a straw in it and take a few pulls offa that straw.

you might detest it.
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Beethoven has just thrown my game off a bit...but not all is lost.

...just somewhat negated.

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goodgawdalmighty
pop a beer and even put a straw in it and take a few pulls offa that straw.

you might detest it.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 1169966


Mixing alcohol and pills would speed my game up a bit but I may lose what little judgment I have left and lose.

...though I will take your suggestion into consideration none the less.

Cheers friend.
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Booo frickin hoooo. You live in better socioeconomic conditions than 99% of the world. Right now, kids are getting raped and murdered, wars destroy families and futures, and famine ensues.

Your first world problems are not impressive - stop being such a baby. Find something meaningful to do - go help someone - give someone a smile. Stop focusing on yourself - you're not that important.
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Meh...I'm not fooling myself any longer.

Let the downward spiral commence.

Might be a good show...for some.

If there's one thing I excel at that it's dwelling on/in the negative.

I might as well perfect my talent...see how far I can push it until a breaking point is reached.

Kind of like playing chicken with one's conscience.

Lose, lose either way.

I "win" and I get to undergo the task of pulling myself out of the tailspin.

Not much of a win there but it's something I guess...

I lose and I leave all my worries behind...presumably.

...though I have heard otherwise.

This is the one case where I will truly indulge in hope.

Game on.
 Quoting: Devoted Follower 3311637


Never Give up hope, it's always darkest before the dawn. ;-)


Praise You in This Storm




Set Me Free



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Isaiah 45
World English Bible
1Thus says Yahweh to his anointed, to Cyrus, whose right hand I have held, to subdue nations before him, and strip kings of their armor; to open the doors before him, and the gates shall not be shut:

2"I will go before you, and make the rough places smooth. I will break the doors of brass in pieces, and cut apart the bars of iron.

3I will give you the treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places, that you may know that it is I, Yahweh, who call you by your name, even the God of Israel.

4For Jacob my servant's sake, and Israel my chosen, I have called you by your name. I have surnamed you, though you have not known me.

5I am Yahweh, and there is none else. Besides me, there is no God. I will strengthen you, though you have not known me;

6that they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is none besides me. I am Yahweh, and there is no one else.

7I form the light, and create darkness. I make peace, and create calamity. I am Yahweh, who does all these things.

8Distil, you heavens, from above, and let the skies pour down righteousness. Let the earth open, that it may bring forth salvation, and let it cause righteousness to spring up with it. I, Yahweh, have created it.

9Woe to him who strives with his Maker-- a clay pot among the clay pots of the earth! Shall the clay ask him who fashions it, 'What are you making?' or your work, 'He has no hands?'

10Woe to him who says to a father, 'What have you become the father of?' or to a mother, 'To what have you given birth?'"

11Thus says Yahweh, the Holy One of Israel, and his Maker: "You ask me about the things that are to come, concerning my sons, and you command me concerning the work of my hands!

12I have made the earth, and created man on it. I, even my hands, have stretched out the heavens; and I have commanded all their army.

13I have raised him up in righteousness, and I will make straight all his ways. He shall build my city, and he shall let my exiles go free, not for price nor reward," says Yahweh of Armies.

14Thus says Yahweh: "The labor of Egypt, and the merchandise of Ethiopia, and the Sabeans, men of stature, shall come over to you, and they shall be yours. They will go after you. They shall come over in chains; and they will bow down to you. They will make supplication to you: 'Surely God is in you; and there is none else. There is no other god.

15Most certainly you are a God who hidden yourself, God of Israel, the Savior.'"

16They will be disappointed, yes, confounded, all of them. Those who are makers of idols will go into confusion together.

17Israel will be saved by Yahweh with an everlasting salvation. You will not be disappointed nor confounded to ages everlasting.

18For thus says Yahweh who created the heavens, the God who formed the earth and made it, who established it and didn't create it a waste, who formed it to be inhabited: "I am Yahweh; and there is no other.

19I have not spoken in secret, in a place of the land of darkness. I didn't say to the seed of Jacob, 'Seek me in vain.' I, Yahweh, speak righteousness. I declare things that are right.

20"Assemble yourselves and come. Draw near together, you who have escaped from the nations. Those have no knowledge who carry the wood of their engraved image, and pray to a god that can't save.

21Declare and present it. Yes, let them take counsel together. Who has shown this from ancient time? Who has declared it of old? Haven't I, Yahweh? There is no other God besides me, a just God and a Savior; There is no one besides me.

22"Look to me, and be saved, all the ends of the earth; for I am God, and there is no other.

23I have sworn by myself, the word has gone out of my mouth in righteousness, and will not return, that to me every knee shall bow, every tongue shall take an oath.

24They will say of me, 'There is righteousness and strength only in Yahweh.'" Even to him shall men come; and all those who were incensed against him shall be disappointed.

25In Yahweh shall all the seed of Israel be justified, and shall glory.

Your not Invisible to Yeshua



Psalm 86
World English Bible
1Hear, Yahweh, and answer me, for I am poor and needy.

2Preserve my soul, for I am godly. You, my God, save your servant who trusts in you.

3Be merciful to me, Lord, for I call to you all day long.

4Bring joy to the soul of your servant, for to you, Lord, do I lift up my soul.

5For you, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive; abundant in loving kindness to all those who call on you.

6Hear, Yahweh, my prayer. Listen to the voice of my petitions.

7In the day of my trouble I will call on you, for you will answer me.

8There is no one like you among the gods, Lord, nor any deeds like your deeds.

9All nations you have made will come and worship before you, Lord. They shall glorify your name.

10For you are great, and do wondrous things. You are God alone.

11Teach me your way, Yahweh. I will walk in your truth. Make my heart undivided to fear your name.

12I will praise you, Lord my God, with my whole heart. I will glorify your name forevermore.

13For your loving kindness is great toward me. You have delivered my soul from the lowest Sheol.

14God, the proud have risen up against me. A company of violent men have sought after my soul, and they don't hold regard for you before them.

15But you, Lord, are a merciful and gracious God, slow to anger, and abundant in loving kindness and truth.

16Turn to me, and have mercy on me! Give your strength to your servant. Save the son of your handmaid.

17Show me a sign of your goodness, that those who hate me may see it, and be shamed, because you, Yahweh, have helped me, and comforted me. A Psalm by the sons of Korah; a Song.


With the Love of Yeshua,
~Jason
ALEPH-
Genesis/Book of Enoch
Isaiah 55
Book of Zechariah
Malachi 4
John, Jude & Revelation
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Booo frickin hoooo. You live in better socioeconomic conditions than 99% of the world. Right now, kids are getting raped and murdered, wars destroy families and futures, and famine ensues.

Your first world problems are not impressive - stop being such a baby. Find something meaningful to do - go help someone - give someone a smile. Stop focusing on yourself - you're not that important.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 2118159


I never claimed to have any significant problems.

I am the problem.

I'm quite aware of how unimportant I am.

I live while good people die...seems a waste to me.

Give my life to someone worthy...as I am unworthy.

I've done nothing noteworthy...surely anyone could do better than I.

I'll give it up in a heart beat if God asked it of me.

I DO NOT DESERVE THE GIFT OF LIFE.

...it is wasted on me.
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well u made it this far
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Meh...I'm not fooling myself any longer.

Let the downward spiral commence.

Might be a good show...for some.

If there's one thing I excel at that it's dwelling on/in the negative.

I might as well perfect my talent...see how far I can push it until a breaking point is reached.

Kind of like playing chicken with one's conscience.

Lose, lose either way.

I "win" and I get to undergo the task of pulling myself out of the tailspin.

Not much of a win there but it's something I guess...

I lose and I leave all my worries behind...presumably.

...though I have heard otherwise.

This is the one case where I will truly indulge in hope.

Game on.
 Quoting: Devoted Follower 3311637


Never Give up hope, it's always darkest before the dawn. ;-)


Praise You in This Storm




Set Me Free



[link to www.prayingscriptures.com]
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Isaiah 45
World English Bible
1Thus says Yahweh to his anointed, to Cyrus, whose right hand I have held, to subdue nations before him, and strip kings of their armor; to open the doors before him, and the gates shall not be shut:

2"I will go before you, and make the rough places smooth. I will break the doors of brass in pieces, and cut apart the bars of iron.

3I will give you the treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places, that you may know that it is I, Yahweh, who call you by your name, even the God of Israel.

4For Jacob my servant's sake, and Israel my chosen, I have called you by your name. I have surnamed you, though you have not known me.

5I am Yahweh, and there is none else. Besides me, there is no God. I will strengthen you, though you have not known me;

6that they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is none besides me. I am Yahweh, and there is no one else.

7I form the light, and create darkness. I make peace, and create calamity. I am Yahweh, who does all these things.

8Distil, you heavens, from above, and let the skies pour down righteousness. Let the earth open, that it may bring forth salvation, and let it cause righteousness to spring up with it. I, Yahweh, have created it.

9Woe to him who strives with his Maker-- a clay pot among the clay pots of the earth! Shall the clay ask him who fashions it, 'What are you making?' or your work, 'He has no hands?'

10Woe to him who says to a father, 'What have you become the father of?' or to a mother, 'To what have you given birth?'"

11Thus says Yahweh, the Holy One of Israel, and his Maker: "You ask me about the things that are to come, concerning my sons, and you command me concerning the work of my hands!

12I have made the earth, and created man on it. I, even my hands, have stretched out the heavens; and I have commanded all their army.

13I have raised him up in righteousness, and I will make straight all his ways. He shall build my city, and he shall let my exiles go free, not for price nor reward," says Yahweh of Armies.

14Thus says Yahweh: "The labor of Egypt, and the merchandise of Ethiopia, and the Sabeans, men of stature, shall come over to you, and they shall be yours. They will go after you. They shall come over in chains; and they will bow down to you. They will make supplication to you: 'Surely God is in you; and there is none else. There is no other god.

15Most certainly you are a God who hidden yourself, God of Israel, the Savior.'"

16They will be disappointed, yes, confounded, all of them. Those who are makers of idols will go into confusion together.

17Israel will be saved by Yahweh with an everlasting salvation. You will not be disappointed nor confounded to ages everlasting.

18For thus says Yahweh who created the heavens, the God who formed the earth and made it, who established it and didn't create it a waste, who formed it to be inhabited: "I am Yahweh; and there is no other.

19I have not spoken in secret, in a place of the land of darkness. I didn't say to the seed of Jacob, 'Seek me in vain.' I, Yahweh, speak righteousness. I declare things that are right.

20"Assemble yourselves and come. Draw near together, you who have escaped from the nations. Those have no knowledge who carry the wood of their engraved image, and pray to a god that can't save.

21Declare and present it. Yes, let them take counsel together. Who has shown this from ancient time? Who has declared it of old? Haven't I, Yahweh? There is no other God besides me, a just God and a Savior; There is no one besides me.

22"Look to me, and be saved, all the ends of the earth; for I am God, and there is no other.

23I have sworn by myself, the word has gone out of my mouth in righteousness, and will not return, that to me every knee shall bow, every tongue shall take an oath.

24They will say of me, 'There is righteousness and strength only in Yahweh.'" Even to him shall men come; and all those who were incensed against him shall be disappointed.

25In Yahweh shall all the seed of Israel be justified, and shall glory.

Your not Invisible to Yeshua



Psalm 86
World English Bible
1Hear, Yahweh, and answer me, for I am poor and needy.

2Preserve my soul, for I am godly. You, my God, save your servant who trusts in you.

3Be merciful to me, Lord, for I call to you all day long.

4Bring joy to the soul of your servant, for to you, Lord, do I lift up my soul.

5For you, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive; abundant in loving kindness to all those who call on you.

6Hear, Yahweh, my prayer. Listen to the voice of my petitions.

7In the day of my trouble I will call on you, for you will answer me.

8There is no one like you among the gods, Lord, nor any deeds like your deeds.

9All nations you have made will come and worship before you, Lord. They shall glorify your name.

10For you are great, and do wondrous things. You are God alone.

11Teach me your way, Yahweh. I will walk in your truth. Make my heart undivided to fear your name.

12I will praise you, Lord my God, with my whole heart. I will glorify your name forevermore.

13For your loving kindness is great toward me. You have delivered my soul from the lowest Sheol.

14God, the proud have risen up against me. A company of violent men have sought after my soul, and they don't hold regard for you before them.

15But you, Lord, are a merciful and gracious God, slow to anger, and abundant in loving kindness and truth.

16Turn to me, and have mercy on me! Give your strength to your servant. Save the son of your handmaid.

17Show me a sign of your goodness, that those who hate me may see it, and be shamed, because you, Yahweh, have helped me, and comforted me. A Psalm by the sons of Korah; a Song.


With the Love of Yeshua,
~Jason
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I appreciate your kind words friend, I really do.

I thought that I had found my path but I was wrong apparently...

I hold on to a strand of hope...and who knows, I might just make it.

I've lost confidence that I can right my self though.

...one battle at a time I suppose.

Sometimes it's about the small victories.
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I appreciate your kind words friend, I really do.
We all need kind words from one another, I was more than happy to send a few your way. :-)
I thought that I had found my path but I was wrong apparently...
I think we have all been there at some point in our lives.


I hold on to a strand of hope...and who knows, I might just make it.

2 Corinthians 12: 7-10

A Thorn in the Flesh

7 Because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, for this reason, to keep me from exalting myself, there was given me a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me—to keep me from exalting myself! 8 Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. 9 And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10 Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.



I've lost confidence that I can right my self though.


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More Power to Ya








...one battle at a time I suppose.

Sometimes it's about the small victories.



The Battle Belongs to the Lord







Foot Prints in the Sand





Footprints
Also Known As "I Had a Dream"


One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."


The Voice of Truth




I hope these addition videos & scriptures help. I'll keep you in my prayers.

With the Love of Yeshua,
~Jason
ALEPH-
Genesis/Book of Enoch
Isaiah 55
Book of Zechariah
Malachi 4
John, Jude & Revelation
-TAV
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Hi OP,

It sounds to me like you've fallen into quite the guilt trap. Guilt has a very good purpose. It says, "That was a bad choice. I don't want to do that one again!"

But all too often, we move in with our guilt. We take up residence with it, and we leave guilt behind and become embroiled in shame.

You've passed guilt, that initial "that was a bad choice" feeling and you've become bosom buddies with shame, "I am a bad person".

Learn to forgive yourself first off. See, all of these people will tell you that you need God's forgiveness, but you don't. You see, God loves you. Every second. Without fail, without pause. No matter what. God doesn't sit out there somewhere hating you because you picked your ass, kicked your cat, or called you mother a whore.

God is love. This much, they can and will happily tell you. But then they'll say that this "love" keeps score and writes down everything you do and can't wait to destroy and torture you for it--unless you accept their religion. We don't call this love, my friend. We call this rape. God's not a rapist. He doesn't ONLY love you when you suck a certain religion.

So what's the problem, then? Why don't you feel loved by God?

Because you're dwelling in the house of Shame. Because you are sabotaging your connection to God, since YOU have not forgiven YOU.

Your feeling of not deserving God is what is closing you off from God. Your belief that, rather than BAD ACTIONS and BAD CHOICES... you ARE a BAD PERSON.

When you feel that way, and you choose to believe that way, then you shut the conduit from God off. You turn off the spigot, so to speak.

The answer is to forgive yourself. All of this negativity is your self-punishment. All of the loss, the pain, the sorrow, the regret... they're not from God. They're your own punishment of yourself. Your own design. Because you know better than anyone how to punish yourself--and how to be so sneaky about doing it that it doesn't even look like you doing it at all.

Your path back is forgiveness. But not God's. God never has hated you. God has never been angry at you.

Your guilt and your shame are your own creation to punish yourself.

There's a way out. Love yourself as much as you would a total stranger. Forgive yourself just as willingly as you would a stranger you met who sat weeping on a doorstep and explained what a terrible person he was.

You'd never follow him around all day, every day, telling him how shitty life is and what a miserable asshole he is. But you will to yourself... no wonder you can only see the negative!

Make a new choice. Choose forgiveness and understand that your actions don't define you unless you willingly let them do so.

hf
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12/06/2013 05:35 PM
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Re: I'm losing the battle for my soul...or is it my sanity...both?
I hope I'm not to late.

Ya know, it's like this.... We're all misfits. So, we suck at spelling, interaction, shit like that. So what.

Live is hard man, harder than anyone can think.

You don't have the damn answers and nor do I. In fact, no one does.

Life is what it is, a game of chance.

Forget what you feel because you are here to make a difference for someone else. We all work on each others energy, no I don't know why it's just how it is.

Giving up is shit. Just selfish shit. You need to prove something in life.

I'm no expert but I can say this; Be strong, be you. Tell people your intentions because you need to lead or be guided.... either way it's a learning thing.

Eat, drink, and bee merry. It is by no accident you are here today.
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12/06/2013 06:27 PM
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I might as well perfect my talent...see how far I can push it until a breaking point is reached.

sorry to tell you OP there is no breaking point
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12/06/2013 06:42 PM
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Achieve balance. You know the negative well enough already and exploring it further is a waste of your time and efforts. Dare to explore the positive; learn it. Once you know both you will know true power and this pitiful thought process that caused you to create this thread will be but a memory of times when weakness was a possibility.

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