My son died yesterday, please say a prayer for his soul...and mine

Wow...

I am amazed at the outpouring of support...it really does mean a lot to me. I usually am not the type to write my feelings down. I usually try to mask things with humor. It's just how I am. Thank You

To those of you who think I am trolling, yes maybe posting on here is a bit odd to some. Fortunately for you, you apparently have a large friend base to give you support. I do not. I can't expect my family to stay with me 24 hours a day, they all have families and lives to tend to still. Right now I am at home with nothing more than my dog and cell phone to give me support. I spent most my adult life trying to grow a business and family. I didn't leave room for close friendships. Yes, I see now how foolish that was..all in the pursuit of money basically. I felt that was what fathers did and were supposed to mainly do. In the last few years, I have lost everything else, and am finding myself quite alone. Even my sons were off doing their own thing most of the time..Yes, I realize I spend way too much time on here, but there are people on here I have grown to care for and enjoy conversing with as best we can in this situation. It has helped me tremendously over the past few months, and I am grateful for having met them...and very grateful for everyones kind words.

I know I am pathetically fucking desperate but I can't help it right now...I wish this on no one


any way thanks for all the great posts, it does help...got me through writing this all down without losing it.

the flag must go up

your son died yesterday and your on glp today

hhmmmmmm

attention seeker in such a sick fucked up way

From one human being to another, I would rather risk giving love to someone so desperate for it that they make something up... than fail to give love to someone who truly has lost his son.

Love is never wasted.

That's terrible...

My warmest condolences

those are wise and kind words, sandi_t. very well spoken and extremely correct.

Agreed..!!
NOW is the time to truly 'turn the other cheek'...
Love them more (them being those who are spitting hate)

"I am at a loss for words. I know there is nothing for me to say that will make your loss easier. I hope you can understand what I can't put to words."

:nothing_to:

I just don't know what to do. This isn't supposed to happen. Not this way...

My son was killed in a car accident yesterday. It is so painful to type these words, but I know there are good people on here and I really need all the help I can get right now.
One month away from his twentieth birthday, didn't even make it out of the teens...damnit it hurts, and I feel so bad for his brother, he has no other siblings.

I really thought I was through with the loss, I thought I had no more to lose...never thought this would happen, never even entertained the thought. I really believed I was making a comeback and things were starting to get better. Why this, why now???

I just returned from picking out caskets for him, believe me there is nothing more heart breaking to have to do...I still can not believe this is really happening. Family have been here fortunately but times like this when I am alone, gets pretty rough. One minute I am fine, the next you get knocked over by an overwhelming sense of grief or something...it really is too much to handle, I don't know what to do. I just wish i could go back in time and stop it from happening somehow...

I don't know what to say, but please, please just say a prayer for us...I really don't think I am coming back from this one....its hurts so damn bad knowing you will never see him again...He was my fishing buddy and we never made the time to go out this past summer. The missed moments are tearing me up right now, didn't know I could hurt this bad. i am usually tougher than this.

I love you buddy