Why are you crying? You just need to surrender 100% to God.
The only lies are the ones you allow your self to be decieved by. The truth has always been there. You just need a pure heart to see it. When you give yourself 100% unconditionally, you are in fact loving in the highest form. Then you will always be loved 100% unconditionally in return. The only thing to cry about is that you haven't surrendered yourself, let the walls down, and accepted the love that was always there. Try having 666 plastered all over your entire life. Or 616 also.