Hi NIP. Haven't talked to you in a little while. I was wondering if I could ask you a question. I went to your site and saw something on anger etc. but couldn't retain well due to my current mood.

I can't figure out what is going on with me - my life. I am suddenly so tired. I don't want to mess around anymore and don't even want to be bothered by that. I am short and matter of fact with many people...I really want to be kinder but something takes over and I just spout off some reality and am done with it. Am I making any sense?

My husband is over the edge having major depression issues. I can't be messed with anymore...stand up, fix it and move on is my motto.

My little one's (star child if you get up with that sort of thing) occupational therapist made a big deal out of me sending her to preschool today, which I can't afford because I put out so much money to therapy etc. My answer - give up the therapist and send her to preschool. I put it in an email, in a very matter of fact way. You think she needs pre-school. That may be true but something has to go in order for me to afford that and it will have to be you. I will now search for a preschool that will treat my intellegent but sensory overloaded child with dignity and appreciate that I am bleeding money faster than I can make it (please I am begging for the money system to change soon).

Am I loosing my mind or just preparing by letting go of illusion...working towards reality? This is not normal for me, but I don't feel like it's wrong either. It's almost like I suddenly got some guts and can't turn back.