the TRUTH....... I AM YOU....YOU ARE I

Alchemical wedding: con't .....


Beware.....
I went MAD!
Madness almost ruined me!
I was wrong!
Instead I persevered and was reborn!


A mist of green stars too numerous to count
Lace branches over and over with wealth
Set tacitly against the coming spring
Their coming! Their coming! Their coming!
Winters herald's have spoken again...
A retreat is certainly in the works
A pale sun awaits patiently in return
Steel grey regiments moan in wrath
And the cold is now well on it's path
It reaches into my pockets
And steals my warmth
I'll spend still many nights as if glued to the hearth

Saddness, such confusion and in the midst I'm responsible
You stroke my ego, I'll strike yours
I'm sick to death of hand feeding you bit by bit your happiness
... Don't get me wrong, even I need to feel overwhelmed
I'll try harder to be more compassionate today...

If I don't confront you
We belittle our love for one another
This is what is said to me!
How can I deny you when your in such pain?
The answer is you make it exceedingly easy for me...
Your confusion is your own....
So please just own it...
What can I do for you? If it's not easy and clear?
Through your own hands, through your own hands, if you only knew, lays the power to shape your future....
Where lays your intent?
Spineless wretches have no will....
And intent is now the domain of utopian fantasy.....

April 21, 1989....

Apollyon

I was born:
July 18, 1969
In peterborough N.H.
2:30 A.m.(EST)...

In this dream I see clean white laced undergarments.

Then I see a Lions face. I had seen this Lion's face before, so I asked ...."why do I keep seeing a Lion's

face?" What does this mean? I hear someone answer me, " you see this Lion, because you were chosen

because of your courage to show love to the poor and downtrodden, and the mistreated ones, which shows great

wisdom and love on your part for others, and you also kept yourself clean and unspotted from the world." This is

why you are wearing clean fine undergarments, because you first conquered the flesh, which then allows

you to also wear clean fine outergarments."

Brian, Ill take a quick look see when I get back home tonight

I was just about to post/show you this short version of my resume:

I AM ORDAINED, INITIATED , AND TAUGHT IN MANY OF KEYS THE MYSTERIES AND VARIOUS LEVELS OF THE HIGH ORDERS .I AM EXPERIENCED IN PUBLIC SPEAKING, WRITING,COURSES FOR THEOLOGY, ONE ON ONE INSTRUCTION AND MOTIVATIONAL LEADERSHIP. MY MODIS OPERANDI IS TO TEACH AND INSPIRE


MY SPECIALTIES ARE SHAMANIC ASTROLOGY (TOWARDS CERTIFICATION ), ALCHEMY, MYTHOLOGY, PROPHETIC ASTROLOGY AND NATAL CHART, HEBREW MAZZOROTH. THE 66 BIBLIA OF THE OLD AND NEW TESTAMENT (THEOLOGY SCHOOLED ), THE PREPARATION RITUALS/KEYS OF THE MYSTERIES OF THE GOLDEN DAWN (INITIATED AT THE TEMPLE) . AND TAROT SYMBOLOGY. I AM A MINISTER OF THEOLOGY, A PROBATE IN SCIENTIFIC ILLUMINISM AND ORDAINED AS A INITIATE PRIEST OF LUCIFERIAN. JUDAIC/ CHRISTIAN, MELCHIZEDEK, THE SHEM HA-MEPHORESH OCCULT AND INTERFAITH . I ASPIRE ALL TO BE ESTABLISHED AS NEOPHYTE AND STRIVE HIGHER TO MASTERY. LETS PART THE VEILS TO THE HOLY OF HOLIES, BUILD THE TEMPLE OF MAN, AND ASCEND THE STAIRWAY TO DIVINE PROVIDENCE. I AM WELL PLEASED TO MEET YOU AND TO SERVE.

The lion is god
Your higher self

Apollyon
I am at your service as well....
Though it seems that there is nothing I can offer you....
Your resume is impressive to say the least.....
Friendship will be the only gift I can offer, wrapped in a gold bow.
It seems you possess everything, and more, I am only a humble artist and wretched poet, ......
Like John the baptist , a lone madman, ranting to the desert wind !
I am not against this instruction, but like I said, direct contact has never been in the cards for me.
Until now!
Anyway, your instruction is truly to be applauded, hard work and dedication is the hallmark of a highly disciplined soul !
The cause is most worthy and the prize is eternal life!
To tell you the truth, I'm envious of you.
You see I'm married to Isis(Jessica), and we have a beautiful 9 year old son whose name is Osiris Horus Murray.
I've realized life is a gift and enjoyable, the illusion is digestible, but you don't have to live in ignorance.
Life is beautiful, and you are proof of this, because right now I'm doing my favorite thing, talking about truth and the mystery of god.
Which some call the " alchemical wedding"....

Apollyon
Thanks for the karma!
I'll give you some when you need it! Can you fit anymore ?
It looks like your bursting with good karma! Lol

hi Brian (and Appolyon), thanks for a beautiful thread

i am uneductaed, am not a memeber of any secret society and could count the total number of books that i have read on my two hands

through life experience I have discovered one thing from the all encompassing, all nurturing, all forgiving, all healing, all hugging, all loving unconditional love that we are part of, belong to and originate from

I am, you are, we are

<3 <3 <3

x

Then you know what once was hidden!
Welcome home. I am you!
The books held as sacred only reiterate this very fact.!
However they do it in veiled words of poetry and outright lies sometimes..
In the old days if you didn't stumble on the truth accidentally , you would be unlikely to ever come upon it.
It was purposely withheld from simple folks wildest dreams.
The 33 steps of masonry are meant to take you on the evolutionary ride of the mind through various stages of comprehension .
1,000 years ago 1 out of a hundred people could read.
What they read was limited mostly to priests and religious texts.
Just by keeping the ability of reading from the many they held the keys of understanding!
Ps.
I am the secret hidden master that controls all hidden secret societies.
I remain unverifiable

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woohoo!

on a side note, on paper it is impossible for me to have my current job. have no degree and it is impossible for someone to get this job without a degree

well i have this job, so nothing is impossible!

nothing does not exist!

Alchemical wedding: con't ....



" A CONVERSATION WITH GOD"
interlude: Madness, I am engulfed!


For a nations untimely demise
The stars shine a ruddy lime, putting sinners in their place
The American dream is alive and doing well in the guise of fate
The elite will gladly demon- strate the glory of a job well done
And when the time is ripe
The bursting fruit will decimate
The stench of decay is their sermon
The priest's are lined up in a row counting sheep
Making sure they don't bleat
Our time is our own and the hounds of Hell smell fresh blood
It's maddening to hear their cries!
So sad the minions of weak souls...
I will break you this time
The hands of Hell smear fresh the blood
Again and again

If I don't do it for you who will? He said....
Selective judgement means I love you...
Conditional love means I own you
Rome " WAS" built in a day...
This vision is as old as old
Romans would look great in a suit
A jewish would feel good with a whip!
Not everybody likes to play the game,
I guess it's the perfect time to play

Take off your skin and I'm there..
Holding you like a newborn babe...
Caressing your naked soul as slippery as the glassy moon
Worlds apart I test your will
Your afraid of my intentions and the cool breeze makes you mine
You are mine!

And then he smiled, and said;

The fire consumes the just and the sinner alike
Be grateful your god is gracious and even tempered
The spirit of evil is gods way of saying he loves us
But like the fire, god will consu e all things in his path
The difference is that fire will leave a charred remains,
And god will eat you whole, and clean his teeth with your bones!

Kill your god if any strength remains in your body
Sanctify his murder and be quick!
He knows your weakness, your god is yours!
Bury him quickly and anoint the earth with your tears.....
Lest he come to you in your dreams,.......
To take you away.......

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XEN
it gets complicated by simplicity itself!
It turns out, that wherever you look, the deeper you go, the closer you get to your actual being the more it alludes you!
It is nowhere to be found!
Turns out
There is only nothing!

Last Edited by Brian8888 on 11/23/2011 08:12 AM

if by nothing you mean pure supreme emptiness than it is really everything, not nothing!

manuel knows nothing, mr fawlty heard him say it!

Alchemical wedding; con't.


"NON - SENSE"


In the twinkle of a moment
I'm held loving by the arms of time
Everything around me seems just fine
The blessed image I behold....
It is the same to all.
It's just that I truly like what I see
And may remain emotionally detached from the image...
The image is not god
There s only I
Be true to thyself
This is all I can do..
I like how it all sounds out loud ....
Spoken with authority..
It sounds so special
Like a secret language
Spoken among children
The language of nonsense
No outward sensing
No inward sensing
No sensing at all
Non- sense

Exactly!
Supreme emptiness= everything.
The only way one thing can be all things.

so everything becomes something which becomes nothing which becomes everything which can become anything?

The idea we call " god", is a way of saying nothing.
Or more precisely said, it is the word for that which we don't understand.
Because god is the creator of words, ideas, thinking, definitions, smell, sight, and all conceivable ways of being.....
Meanwhile only one thing,may exist, in one place at one time......
That thing, has two meanings, or beings of thought. Mind/matter...
Everything/ nothing
But still there is only room for " one"something!

well if i was that "one" something i would want to make room and give birth to anything/anybody

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Alchemical wedding: con't .....


" YOUR TOUCH"

It doesn't mean I'm not in pain...
I rebound at your very touch
She is melting right there in front of me,
But don't turn around there's very little to see
I please, appease , the vultures come..
Disease, diss-ease, the carrion robs the blind of their senses
You've found very little joy in a world left to rot
Keep the body clean
What you see is all to your benefit
Whether you like it or not
It is what you've got....

Insatiable, it grabs you, holds you in it's sway
The very breath you possessed is just taken away
Your plotting your course without not knowing where you go...
I'll meet you there in the end for sure...
I want you to know I'm already there waiting for you
I want you to know your welcome here in heaven
Find the path there inside your heart
There is no other way
Wouldn't you know it, truth is always in the last place you look!

There are starving children in every crumb that missed your mouth!
There are laughing children on starvations doorstep!
The food is just poisonous intoxication for the weak minded
But it is of no fault of the sheep,
The master has provided no spirituality
So the souless seek for it elsewhere....
Food is like a woman to a man
Remove the hunger and the digestion improves
Remove the desire and the heart is whole.....!
Remove your longing and already your sight is clearing fom the confusion..
Remove yourself from the picture and you are complete!

Didn't it occur already in your nightmares?
This thing you can't quite compute?
Years of programming, lies,illusion, and fear aren't easy to shed!

Hardly a tool anymore he feels to be stuck! In a rut! Not wanting !
I can't remember what you were going to say....

" oh yeah"!
your god hates you!
Because you hate your god!
You treat gods gifts like a child!
Your enjoyment is brief , and soon your attention is focused on something else...
Only god is not surprised
.. How long the temple must remain hidden
God is the master of the temple...
God is the temple....
God is the congregation, and the choir.....

Of course!
Good luck with it!
But one it will forever remain!

Alchemical wedding; con't.....


"STILL"
( faint sound of birds are heard in the background)

It's about lying in the sun - eyes closed
Naked on a blanket of self
Aware of light and heat, exposed
Shown, and it is almost unbearable
The suns direct scrutiny lays me out
It's about sitting on a step
Sipping my coffee with ease
A slender tendril of tobacco smoke
Rides lazily on the air.....

It's about face
It's about surrender
It's archaic and primitive
It's about living within the earths means
I remember when we did the chants of disbelief and wonder!
We sang the song divine
We renewed it constantly, every second...
And each a magi/ or magician
Each a singer/ a master,.......
The humble servant ....

indeed

thank you

wish you the same luck

am sure it will

or maybe it won't

or just maybe it will and won't

nothing is forever

everything is forever

anything will be forever

Trapped in the rabbit hole four years
ALCHEMICAL WEDDING: con't....


"WHISPERS"



Darkness whispers in on abysmal wings of haste....
Covering everything in waves of fear, of fear, to dear to waste....
A child of sunset has sealed their fate in stone....
Battallions of angels have signaled this life is done...
In the still of the night the dead are ever waking...
Mute screams and pale faces rest on their king
Screams on high! Screams on high, the eye in th sky
Screams on high
Dumbfounded till wise

My hope is that I will encounter another ....
No insult intended!
You are as real to me, as I myself!

Alchemical wedding; con't....




The heat and cold dance with vivid delight
Their embrace is a legend and sight!
His heat is so stern and unyielding, and noble!
Her fluid e-motions cradle his weakness with devotion!
Their image is burned into my mind
The couple
The king and queen
Over and over
On very street
Every person, a copy, complete
The couple, a duo, duality
A marriage , a contract, a beneficiary...

She soothes the angry beast..
He saves her from death!
They complete each other
Like two sides of a coin
Aware of each other they annihilate each other/ absorb into/ integrate...
In an alchemical sense you must absorb your opposites best attributes
Their temperaments and qualities
Then you can become metaphorically whole / hole!

all good friend

my heart says that we choose, some merge back with one and others keep it on and on

the great mystery

I can't shake the feeling of just one !
No one else really, just god the one pretending to be everyone

me too, lol

the mother of all paradoxes!

we are one

<3

And yet beyond strange odds we agree!
All thanks to the net of Indra....

Today is 11/22/2011
So , at 11:22 I plan to be in bed
Eyes closed
Mind blank
..................
Till morning I bid you farewell.

The Kennedy assassination was today!
48 years ago

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