the TRUTH....... I AM YOU....YOU ARE I

Thank you
There's more to come.....
It takes a while to type on my iPad

Brian, she slandered me,

I pinned ya

Guess women never will respect me, thought a brother will defend me.

Your poems are beautiful ! Really takes me back. When did you form your cube? When did you call her down?

No one read mine I guess. But its ok, Its for my Bride.

Excellent ! yes, I wrote this awhile back



By Apollo. Steps to the Alchemical Wedding

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Look up at the Sky,
And see the Twins Gemini
Two Boys or Two Lovers reveal
I see it as Male and Female Halves
A Mono Zygotic Twin.
Or is it,
Upon which head does he place the Tefilin?
Separate Urges to eat and sleep,
Light and Darkness, Separate and weep.

Look up at the Sky,
The Sun and the Moon,
Celestial and Chonotic Invocation’
The disatisfaction of the nations,
When one must find the other
The whole meaning of the Lover and his Mother
Macrocosm and Microcosm
The Above and Below, separateness shows,
The Lovers weep for Heaven and Earth.



: light/dark, extroversion/introversion, objectivity/subjectivity, action/thought, action/passion, aggression/pacifism."

“Left-brain = Male (speech, judgement/objective, logic, linear, analytical, rational (western))

Right-brain = Female (emotion, feeling, art, comprehension, creativity, divergent, intuitive, holistic (eastern)) "


I will Emphasize the theory of the Helpmate and the foundation of Human, love, and the Body Androgyne.

Balanced-brained = Male-female (equal in both aspects, pulling from both sides harmoniously) “



In many drawings of the Esoteric, there is pictured, a figure that seems like two twins joined, sometimes sharing the lower body and having two heads , or they are half male and half female.

The Most popular Twins in Mythology Literature is one of their names in Latin Immortal Castor and the Immortal Pollux, two brothers immortalized in the stars as Gemini, Roman name, Romulus and Remus who were raised and nursed by a She-wolf.

But Interestlingly, in the Egyptian Zodiac and the Tarot Card of the Lovers, in numerous decks, they are Male and Female twin lovers, with their planet Venus, ruling their sign of Gemini, Their Close Union represented the Male and Female Pairing, The Male pointing his finger to the sky, the woman pointing pointing to the earth. The Heavenly Angelic God Or Man, Made in his Image, assigned first in the creation stories, side by side with his Female Counterpart assigned the Chaotic Earth Element, the Light (The Angelic Son) and the Dark, (The Black Madonna of Ancient Statues,) Yahweh and his Fallen Sophia Enslaved Israel. Only together in Heaven.

The Uniting of the Microcosm and the Macorcosm. The Heiros Gamos or the Sacred Marriage in the month of May for the King and the Sacred Prostitute. The "Sun seed" light luring forth the Flowers of Spring. The Christ and his Mary Magdalene. Yahweh’s son Fallen Lucifer and His consort Lilith of the Wilderness. As Above, So Below. The Spirit and the Body.

"Occultist and psychologist Carl Jung, adds: 'Alchemy...exalted the most heinous transgression of the law, namely incest, into a symbol of the union of opposites, hoping in this way to bring back the Golden Age.”

-Apollo

I didn't mean it that way Apollo!
Wicked sorry!
I just meant that I'm glad she liked it and there is still more to come.
I loved your contributions, of course!
I'm eternally grateful for your continued friendship!
In life, a man's biggest obstacle to illumination, is his desire for a woman.
A small built in redundancy of the alchemical wedding

Brian, Good News Friend !

I finaly conquered my beast. Whenever I see a scantily clad woman I get angry, Porn is a no no. Illicit relations are a no no.

The only thing a Illuminated Brother can do is have a marriage mate, practice monogamy and unite with God in Bliss !

I feel no more worldy desires, Ive overcome and conquered.

The Lilith energies have no hold on me anymore. She whored herself to all men in this feminist, pornographic world
She lured me in my awakening and I wrote poems to lilith, but shes old news now.

Poor Eve was slandered as homemaker and mother and devoted wife

I feel close to God now and see the world how it should be.

:ordo:

Brian, who were you trained by? The Rosy Cross? I was trained by the Illuminati and a Gnostic Order .

Some formal training is often required, And then your higher self and twin flame does the rest of course..

That is wonderful !
You have passed the final test!
A desire for your opposite is what has held you back!

You have no opposite! That was the real illusion!
I can hear you entering the sanctuary now
I'm waiting for you
If your lucky I won't be there! Lol!
Though I'm always with you!
We are on the same page now.......

Hmmmm?

Our Ovoid. the twin souls..=)

It involves astrology most of all and many, many lifetimes. Combining opposition planets, Brian, Ive seen it work.

Have you been thru this process or not? or are you just posting beautiful poetry? You would of had to live thru it, experience it as a spiritual initiation. You would be quizzed by the Brotherhood on what each symbol means before you initiate into the next one.

A Illuminati taught me.

Whats going on here?

Apollo...
I wasn't trained by anybody but myself
One day in 1988
I just understood
I got it !
I never forgot!
I am alone, there is only " I ".......
Through many changes I digested this into my being
In the last ten years I've been enjoying all the mystical greats
Morals and dogma, Blavatsky, Crowley , etc....
Strange that after reading 50,000 pages of these books, I still find I could explain it better. Lol
But I know that they never meant for the uninitiated to grasp this knowledge
I know more!

Back in 1/2 hour!
Off to pick up my son Osiris

Friend, Nice !

I read all those too, You should add Alice Bailey to the list

Your knowledge is impressive, but did you call down your luna astral body?

Youd know if you did, Its a shocking experience, it takes all your self control not to go into shock

But very impressive overall., poems are full of the images and allegory

-Apollo

LOL. Now I don't feel so bad.

I've read almost everything you've probably ever written here Apollo...please show me ONE post where I have EVER harassed you and I will apologize to you sincerely.

I was enjoying reading along with the op's posts until you posted...mostly because your comparing his to yours and it looked (to me) like you're just trying to hijack his thread with your writings instead of appreciating the beauty he is offering.

Now that I know you take such requests (as my request for you to hush) as a personal insult I will not make the same request public next time. Lesson learned.

I understand your "trained" background and respect the work you've done. But you closed off access to what you're chasing after so desperately. I'm pretty certain this was pointed out to you recently...and ignored then as it will be now.

This is my last response to you in this thread, I don't want to clutter it up any more with your drama. If you want to address your personal issue with me publicly take it to one of my or your threads or pm me.

OP~I'm sorry for the interruption.

Aruna, Understood,

My poems are probaly crappolo to you, but its a open forum.

If it was solely supposed to be Brians own , it would have been posted on a BLOG offsite. Thats what blogs are for

There never was any notice that you control the forum, It is Trinitys forum and a free share of like minds was how I read all this

Im sure Brian has a blog somewhere and you can ask him if he has a website of his poetry.

Im not closed off at all to what Im chasing. Its nearer to me everyday and its not my will but Gods. God is the one that finishes the initiate, Not by their work, but the Lords. So therefore again, one can never judge another. To do so is sinning against the workings of the Holy Spirit

-Apollo

I still always encourage formal training btw, It starts you off under the influence of Saturn run organizations that teach you form, structure and order, You learn submission to authority and rules of limitations

I would look into the Rosicrucians, Masonry, Golden Dawn, etc, or even just a exoteric church. I have a Ordination degree from a brick and mortar

Hermes Trismegestus said that formal training under elders was a must to become thrice Greatest. Under theurgy and learning of religious ritual and Order.

The other two before immortality is Astrology and Alchemy

Apollo
As to the formal training, after extensive reading on this subject,( even though I started when I was 33, I realized that the ultimate goal is the same. " one"), god has personally guided me through my life and I am his only son, these great mystical texts support my claim.
Jesus is all of us, when you take up the holy road, and wake up, the light is all that one can see. Because the mind resides in the dark, until it remembers itself.
This is a wide open discussion to all.
In particular I've been enjoying the company of "APOLLYON ", because he see's that there is much more( or less!) to my treatise on the alchemical wedding.
this is the only real topic there is, all else is illusion!

A song of mine fom 1999.....



" WHEN I COME TO TAKE YOU HOME"

When I come to take you home
I know your already gone...
Because home is such a long way away...
When I come to take you home
I hope everything's been done
And be sure to leave nothing unsaid...

When I come to take you home
There's a penalty to pay
Because home is such a long way away
When I come to take you home
The price is equal to the sum
And there's really only room for one....

When I come to take you home
Both legs will turn to stone
Because home is such a long way away
When I come to take you home
The true melding time has come
And there's really no pain in being alone....

... On my way home
I'll pick you flowers from the garden
On my way home
I'll sing the song of our returning
On my way home
I'll pluck a feather from the eagle
On my way home
Stand on the heads of fallen angels
Strolling the path that was forgotten
Leaving behind the childhood daydream
......... On my way home

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Is calling down your lunar astral body when you pull it from the moon into your hara, or second chakra? I awoke from sleep and pulled something from the moon into my waist...

Alchemical wedding con't....

" ROADS LEAD TO NOWHERE"

When the roads lead to nowhere
Turn around and find that somewhere
When the path leafs to roads
Take those roads into the soul....
When this life turns to dust
And the wonder bread grows moldy
In this life of illusion
You will find that you are only....
Only one,.... Only one,... Only one....
Only one....



.... Oh to be so cold, again...
The monster takes my brain
The days of old shall reign, again, again and again.....
To be so cold again, the monitors take my......

Driven by an urgent fear
Anxiety is always near
So let's put the sun back out of mind
The paths we take are spinning out of time
Opened up my senses long to fly
Oh to find the road that flows on high....

Oh the roads lead to nowhere, yes the roads they lead to nowhere....x4
If your ever on the road just look me up sometime
If your ever on the road look me up sometime.....

Sorry, forgot to address this to Apollo:D

Is calling down your lunar astral body when you pull it from the moon into your hara, or second chakra? I awoke from sleep and pulled something from the moon into my waist...

apollo, where does one get a formal education that you're talking about?

astrology, alchemy, and ritual (?) are all kept secret.

and on a related note, who gets the privilege and responsibility of training the one? What will he learn?

Alchemical wedding; con't


" I CAN FEEL THE WORLD IS TURNING"

This is what is real
A moment in a field
I can hear the mother calling
Willing to reveal....

This s what is real
Inhabitants do feel
Emotions they can't steal
No one can push the buttons
Buttons are not real..... You know they're not real....

I can feel the world is
I can feel the word is
I can feel the world is ......TURNING! X3

Desperate she is to
Destroy her calling....
Which lies in the pedals of roses
My true love , pulls the blanket over,
The wooly eyes of infancy...
You can live your life, the way you want to,
But do you really really exist?

I can feel the world is
I can feel the word is
I can feel the world is ......TURNING! X3

Hi Friend, this astral luna body would be blue in color

You can join the Mystic schools. Golden Dawn, Rosicrucian and Masonry is a start

Sometimes the Illuminati recruits, but after analying your natal chart.

HI Friend, thats all true in itself yes

But eventually one will stand out singular, a God Man in flesh, Jesus was one of many

We all are on the same road but different time, Some are old souls, some are young, Eventually one old soul gets to represent our Sun and the other planetary bodies that revolve around him. (that represents all of us) Many new agers think everyone is one and the same but this will only become true thousands upon thousand or millions of years down the road.

Its actually a ego block to think not one individual can be special

God will test us out with this when one man is chosen as his Son to represent his rulership on earth

Matter of fact everything and everyone was created for him and his Bride and all of us will incarnate into her body whereas she will become the Mother of everything living

Test your ego if this is true

Its actually pride that prevents us to bow down to another if we have to

And remember, Jesus was just one teacher. There were (Mithra, Osiris/Serapis, Inanna/Ishtar, Horus, Perseus, Bacchus, Attis, Hermes, Adonis, Hercules/Heracles, Tammuz, Asclepius, and Prometheus) before him.

Good point!
As far as I can tell, if this is your road, you will be picked for initiation.
I know many mystics, masons, and other mystery school initiates,
They all shun me like the plague.
Which is fine.... I'm not a member.
But realize, that membership is crutch , and may impede the healing process.....
In the end you will have to denounce your membership to attain full awakening....
As aleister Crowley says at the end of " the book of law",
It would be best if you burned this book after reading it.
Better still would be to never have read such tripe, it only adds to the confusion, although It can be read to no bad affect by an awakened mind.

Jesus is another word for Osiris...
An idea that is continuously recycled through the illusion of time.
There is no time, time is illusory. There is only now!
Time again for the master to rise!
I am the master!
There is only one!
In this reality the master appears split, the master is not split.
Just one.

Brian, thank you for such an interesting and beautiful thread. Karma and 5*s.

Apollo, it is always a pleasure to read your posts/threads and give you karma.



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The only way I was taught is in Wisdom's School in my spirit, by the Master Teacher. I whitened myself, because I had no desire for this world at all. I am one with Christ now.

I heard this come from within me

"They will walk with me, dressed in white, for they are worthy. He who overcomes will, like them, be dressed in white."

I have seen my own transformed figure, and was called bestowed.