Again, I don't believe this pity party. Quoting: Once4All
You created your own circumstances. You now live what you
created for yourself. But, like i said, i will pray for
Maybe my reactions were my own.
But what sparked those reactions was not MY doing.
But I was a child..how in the world was I supposed to KNOW?
I do have a lot to regret and things that cannot be undone.
I also know about reaping what was sown. I live it every day.
If I could just go back to where it all started and tell those bastards to piss off..then I would not have been confused and led up the garden path.
I was only a child then..how was I to know the difference?
I was an ex JW child too..throw THAT into the mix..all the fear and death and doom..
You going to keep judging me?
Ive had a lifetime of doctrine..confusion..misleadings..fear..
But I KNOW..I know..I saw..I felt..
Then it was taken from me...
I didnt know how to find it again.
Lose your keys in a vast feild..how long do you think it will take you to find them again?
Pity party you call it?
Well..perhaps some of it is.
But if you had been through what I had been through..I am sure you would be feeling a bit miffed as well.
I am getting so jaded now..I KNOW what that means..and yet..I cant seem to stop..and I am getting desperate..and yet..I almost dont care anymore..and yet I DO care cause If I didnt I would not be telling you all this.
I still seek..I cant help it..
I found the pearl..the treasure..in that feild..and for the life of me..I cant seem to find where it was buried again.
ALL I know for sure is that its there...
But I forgot what steps I took to find it in the first place..it was so long ago.