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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 6761689  Canada02/18/2012 09:45 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] Again, I don't believe this pity party. Quoting: Once4All You created your own circumstances. You now live what you created for yourself. But, like i said, i will pray for you. Maybe my reactions were my own. But what sparked those reactions was not MY doing. But I was a child..how in the world was I supposed to KNOW? I do have a lot to regret and things that cannot be undone. I also know about reaping what was sown. I live it every day. If I could just go back to where it all started and tell those bastards to piss off..then I would not have been confused and led up the garden path. I was only a child then..how was I to know the difference? I was an ex JW child too..throw THAT into the mix..all the fear and death and doom.. You going to keep judging me? Ive had a lifetime of doctrine..confusion..misleadings..fear.. But I KNOW..I know..I saw..I felt.. Then it was taken from me... I didnt know how to find it again. Lose your keys in a vast feild..how long do you think it will take you to find them again? Pity party you call it? Well..perhaps some of it is. But if you had been through what I had been through..I am sure you would be feeling a bit miffed as well. I am getting so jaded now..I KNOW what that means..and yet..I cant seem to stop..and I am getting desperate..and yet..I almost dont care anymore..and yet I DO care cause If I didnt I would not be telling you all this. I still seek..I cant help it.. I found the pearl..the treasure..in that feild..and for the life of me..I cant seem to find where it was buried again. ALL I know for sure is that its there... But I forgot what steps I took to find it in the first place..it was so long ago. That is why prayer is so important. You know the children of israel had to walk in the desert 40 years before God brought them back to the starting point once again. You must believe that God is Good or, like some did, you risk falling away. I pray God gives you strength and that you keep believing in His Goodness. It is the only hope you have. You are not the first one to feel desperate nor are you the first one to cry for help. This bitter road will have a Glorious Reward if you do not quit or give up hope. Thats just it..whatever was planted in me way back then refuses to LET me quit. Ive even TRIED to quit..being so tired and worn out..but something keeps me going..and going..and going. I cant ever give up... I am like a man halfway up a cliff.. I cant go back down..to do so is death..I am too tired to keep climbing..but I MUST..to stay still is also death... I am just running out of handholds...the closer you get to the top the steeper it becomes..and the less options of where to grasp next you have. I cant let go...as in..I CANT let go..He wont allow it..he refuses to lose me..even though sometimes I wish he would just so I can REST! But he also wont give me what I ask...which is to know LOVE again. Maybe I have to complete the climb to find what I saw from the bottom of this mountain. Yes..I sinned..we all do. Ive done some terrible things in my time..who has not eh? The past is the past. I only have so much time left. Perhaps its meant to be this way..the closer you get to the top..the more religious crap falls away..you break through the cloud layer to see that all along you were wrong..THEY were wrong..and God is not the angry bastard they make him out to be. Well..time will tell wont it? Im almost out of options..I AM out of options..up is the only way..cant even go sideways from where I sit..its up or death.... can I ask what your name is so I can pray for you?? also, please get a Bible and start reading it. it will bring life back to you. read at least one chapter in the Old Testament and one chapter in the New Testament a day. Start with Psalms and the Book of John. You will find healing for your soul there. You are not alone.....JESUS is there for you....HE is only a prayer away. Tell him everything you told Once4All. Ask him to help you and lead you out of this pit that you're in. You will be ok. The LORD wants you to depend on HIM alone. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 10978371  Australia02/18/2012 09:47 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] ... Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10978371 Maybe my reactions were my own. But what sparked those reactions was not MY doing. But I was a child..how in the world was I supposed to KNOW? I do have a lot to regret and things that cannot be undone. I also know about reaping what was sown. I live it every day. If I could just go back to where it all started and tell those bastards to piss off..then I would not have been confused and led up the garden path. I was only a child then..how was I to know the difference? I was an ex JW child too..throw THAT into the mix..all the fear and death and doom.. You going to keep judging me? Ive had a lifetime of doctrine..confusion..misleadings..fear.. But I KNOW..I know..I saw..I felt.. Then it was taken from me... I didnt know how to find it again. Lose your keys in a vast feild..how long do you think it will take you to find them again? Pity party you call it? Well..perhaps some of it is. But if you had been through what I had been through..I am sure you would be feeling a bit miffed as well. I am getting so jaded now..I KNOW what that means..and yet..I cant seem to stop..and I am getting desperate..and yet..I almost dont care anymore..and yet I DO care cause If I didnt I would not be telling you all this. I still seek..I cant help it.. I found the pearl..the treasure..in that feild..and for the life of me..I cant seem to find where it was buried again. ALL I know for sure is that its there... But I forgot what steps I took to find it in the first place..it was so long ago. That is why prayer is so important. You know the children of israel had to walk in the desert 40 years before God brought them back to the starting point once again. You must believe that God is Good or, like some did, you risk falling away. I pray God gives you strength and that you keep believing in His Goodness. It is the only hope you have. You are not the first one to feel desperate nor are you the first one to cry for help. This bitter road will have a Glorious Reward if you do not quit or give up hope. Thats just it..whatever was planted in me way back then refuses to LET me quit. Ive even TRIED to quit..being so tired and worn out..but something keeps me going..and going..and going. I cant ever give up... I am like a man halfway up a cliff.. I cant go back down..to do so is death..I am too tired to keep climbing..but I MUST..to stay still is also death... I am just running out of handholds...the closer you get to the top the steeper it becomes..and the less options of where to grasp next you have. I cant let go...as in..I CANT let go..He wont allow it..he refuses to lose me..even though sometimes I wish he would just so I can REST! But he also wont give me what I ask...which is to know LOVE again. Maybe I have to complete the climb to find what I saw from the bottom of this mountain. Yes..I sinned..we all do. Ive done some terrible things in my time..who has not eh? The past is the past. I only have so much time left. Perhaps its meant to be this way..the closer you get to the top..the more religious crap falls away..you break through the cloud layer to see that all along you were wrong..THEY were wrong..and God is not the angry bastard they make him out to be. Well..time will tell wont it? Im almost out of options..I AM out of options..up is the only way..cant even go sideways from where I sit..its up or death.... Yes, i believe that is it. You must complete the test... Like Job, like Moses, like David, like so many others before you. It is one of the patterns to holiness and closeness to God. Some people experiences barenness, emptiness.... as you say, it cuts through all of the false teachings and traditions of men. Like i said, may God give you strength in Jesus Name. To truly appreciate water...you MUST be almost dead from thirst. I have decided..that I will go to church tonight..for the first time in three years... Just to see what happens. I will have my eyes open this time though...I know crap when I see it by now. Any rolling around on the floor laughing..anyone acting drunk or being stupid..anything at all like that and im outta there. I am going to walk in with open eyes..I will not be fooled again. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 10978371 Australia02/18/2012 09:49 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] ... Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10978371 Maybe my reactions were my own. But what sparked those reactions was not MY doing. But I was a child..how in the world was I supposed to KNOW? I do have a lot to regret and things that cannot be undone. I also know about reaping what was sown. I live it every day. If I could just go back to where it all started and tell those bastards to piss off..then I would not have been confused and led up the garden path. I was only a child then..how was I to know the difference? I was an ex JW child too..throw THAT into the mix..all the fear and death and doom.. You going to keep judging me? Ive had a lifetime of doctrine..confusion..misleadings..fear.. But I KNOW..I know..I saw..I felt.. Then it was taken from me... I didnt know how to find it again. Lose your keys in a vast feild..how long do you think it will take you to find them again? Pity party you call it? Well..perhaps some of it is. But if you had been through what I had been through..I am sure you would be feeling a bit miffed as well. I am getting so jaded now..I KNOW what that means..and yet..I cant seem to stop..and I am getting desperate..and yet..I almost dont care anymore..and yet I DO care cause If I didnt I would not be telling you all this. I still seek..I cant help it.. I found the pearl..the treasure..in that feild..and for the life of me..I cant seem to find where it was buried again. ALL I know for sure is that its there... But I forgot what steps I took to find it in the first place..it was so long ago. That is why prayer is so important. You know the children of israel had to walk in the desert 40 years before God brought them back to the starting point once again. You must believe that God is Good or, like some did, you risk falling away. I pray God gives you strength and that you keep believing in His Goodness. It is the only hope you have. You are not the first one to feel desperate nor are you the first one to cry for help. This bitter road will have a Glorious Reward if you do not quit or give up hope. Thats just it..whatever was planted in me way back then refuses to LET me quit. Ive even TRIED to quit..being so tired and worn out..but something keeps me going..and going..and going. I cant ever give up... I am like a man halfway up a cliff.. I cant go back down..to do so is death..I am too tired to keep climbing..but I MUST..to stay still is also death... I am just running out of handholds...the closer you get to the top the steeper it becomes..and the less options of where to grasp next you have. I cant let go...as in..I CANT let go..He wont allow it..he refuses to lose me..even though sometimes I wish he would just so I can REST! But he also wont give me what I ask...which is to know LOVE again. Maybe I have to complete the climb to find what I saw from the bottom of this mountain. Yes..I sinned..we all do. Ive done some terrible things in my time..who has not eh? The past is the past. I only have so much time left. Perhaps its meant to be this way..the closer you get to the top..the more religious crap falls away..you break through the cloud layer to see that all along you were wrong..THEY were wrong..and God is not the angry bastard they make him out to be. Well..time will tell wont it? Im almost out of options..I AM out of options..up is the only way..cant even go sideways from where I sit..its up or death.... can I ask what your name is so I can pray for you?? also, please get a Bible and start reading it. it will bring life back to you. read at least one chapter in the Old Testament and one chapter in the New Testament a day. Start with Psalms and the Book of John. You will find healing for your soul there. You are not alone.....JESUS is there for you....HE is only a prayer away. Tell him everything you told Once4All. Ask him to help you and lead you out of this pit that you're in. You will be ok. The LORD wants you to depend on HIM alone. My name is Simon. ..although I have become so hard..you should call me Peter..I FEEL like a rock. |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 9163213  United States02/18/2012 09:57 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] 371 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10901497 I know in my own case......I was at the low point of my life.....essentially in the mud......when Christ paid me a visit.....and knocked on the door of my heart. I have also heard from many other people.....that have had similar experiences. I think that it might have something to do with human pride.......and that this pride can come between us and God. But when we are brought low in this life.....that pride vanishes. This is probably why the Scriptures say that the meek shall inherit the earth......that God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble......and that it is so difficult for a rich person to find God. It is a pride thing....a love for riches/idols, etc. But when the circumstances of life take this away.....a person finally looks up. Cry out to Christ to save you....and give you a new life. He will see your tears. Ask to be filled with the Holy Spirit. May God have mercy upon all of us. Best Wishes for the future. David An interesting choice of words, David. I heard the Words Knock, Knock recently. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 9163213 United States02/18/2012 09:59 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] ... Quoting: Once4All That is why prayer is so important. You know the children of israel had to walk in the desert 40 years before God brought them back to the starting point once again. You must believe that God is Good or, like some did, you risk falling away. I pray God gives you strength and that you keep believing in His Goodness. It is the only hope you have. You are not the first one to feel desperate nor are you the first one to cry for help. This bitter road will have a Glorious Reward if you do not quit or give up hope. Thats just it..whatever was planted in me way back then refuses to LET me quit. Ive even TRIED to quit..being so tired and worn out..but something keeps me going..and going..and going. I cant ever give up... I am like a man halfway up a cliff.. I cant go back down..to do so is death..I am too tired to keep climbing..but I MUST..to stay still is also death... I am just running out of handholds...the closer you get to the top the steeper it becomes..and the less options of where to grasp next you have. I cant let go...as in..I CANT let go..He wont allow it..he refuses to lose me..even though sometimes I wish he would just so I can REST! But he also wont give me what I ask...which is to know LOVE again. Maybe I have to complete the climb to find what I saw from the bottom of this mountain. Yes..I sinned..we all do. Ive done some terrible things in my time..who has not eh? The past is the past. I only have so much time left. Perhaps its meant to be this way..the closer you get to the top..the more religious crap falls away..you break through the cloud layer to see that all along you were wrong..THEY were wrong..and God is not the angry bastard they make him out to be. Well..time will tell wont it? Im almost out of options..I AM out of options..up is the only way..cant even go sideways from where I sit..its up or death.... Yes, i believe that is it. You must complete the test... Like Job, like Moses, like David, like so many others before you. It is one of the patterns to holiness and closeness to God. Some people experiences barenness, emptiness.... as you say, it cuts through all of the false teachings and traditions of men. Like i said, may God give you strength in Jesus Name. To truly appreciate water...you MUST be almost dead from thirst. I have decided..that I will go to church tonight..for the first time in three years... Just to see what happens. I will have my eyes open this time though...I know crap when I see it by now. Any rolling around on the floor laughing..anyone acting drunk or being stupid..anything at all like that and im outta there. I am going to walk in with open eyes..I will not be fooled again. You know, a lot of people do not like to go to a church where people are rolling around on the floor. You could try another church!!! |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 10978371 Australia02/18/2012 10:09 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] ... Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10978371 Thats just it..whatever was planted in me way back then refuses to LET me quit. Ive even TRIED to quit..being so tired and worn out..but something keeps me going..and going..and going. I cant ever give up... I am like a man halfway up a cliff.. I cant go back down..to do so is death..I am too tired to keep climbing..but I MUST..to stay still is also death... I am just running out of handholds...the closer you get to the top the steeper it becomes..and the less options of where to grasp next you have. I cant let go...as in..I CANT let go..He wont allow it..he refuses to lose me..even though sometimes I wish he would just so I can REST! But he also wont give me what I ask...which is to know LOVE again. Maybe I have to complete the climb to find what I saw from the bottom of this mountain. Yes..I sinned..we all do. Ive done some terrible things in my time..who has not eh? The past is the past. I only have so much time left. Perhaps its meant to be this way..the closer you get to the top..the more religious crap falls away..you break through the cloud layer to see that all along you were wrong..THEY were wrong..and God is not the angry bastard they make him out to be. Well..time will tell wont it? Im almost out of options..I AM out of options..up is the only way..cant even go sideways from where I sit..its up or death.... Yes, i believe that is it. You must complete the test... Like Job, like Moses, like David, like so many others before you. It is one of the patterns to holiness and closeness to God. Some people experiences barenness, emptiness.... as you say, it cuts through all of the false teachings and traditions of men. Like i said, may God give you strength in Jesus Name. To truly appreciate water...you MUST be almost dead from thirst. I have decided..that I will go to church tonight..for the first time in three years... Just to see what happens. I will have my eyes open this time though...I know crap when I see it by now. Any rolling around on the floor laughing..anyone acting drunk or being stupid..anything at all like that and im outta there. I am going to walk in with open eyes..I will not be fooled again. You know, a lot of people do not like to go to a church where people are rolling around on the floor. You could try another church!!! I will. There is one up the road from here that is not too big. I even know someone there...well..I used to know them. Have not been to a church since march 28th 2009 and lost contact with everyone I knew. I have had a break from it all..seen things from a new angle. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 9163213 United States02/18/2012 10:18 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] ... Quoting: Once4All Yes, i believe that is it. You must complete the test... Like Job, like Moses, like David, like so many others before you. It is one of the patterns to holiness and closeness to God. Some people experiences barenness, emptiness.... as you say, it cuts through all of the false teachings and traditions of men. Like i said, may God give you strength in Jesus Name. To truly appreciate water...you MUST be almost dead from thirst. I have decided..that I will go to church tonight..for the first time in three years... Just to see what happens. I will have my eyes open this time though...I know crap when I see it by now. Any rolling around on the floor laughing..anyone acting drunk or being stupid..anything at all like that and im outta there. I am going to walk in with open eyes..I will not be fooled again. You know, a lot of people do not like to go to a church where people are rolling around on the floor. You could try another church!!! I will. There is one up the road from here that is not too big. I even know someone there...well..I used to know them. Have not been to a church since march 28th 2009 and lost contact with everyone I knew. I have had a break from it all..seen things from a new angle. I have a little country church less than a mile from my house. A few farmers and people from the neighborhood go there. We sing a few songs, read some Scripture, pray and socialize a bit and it is fun. For me, it is a great way for me to get to know some of the folks around here AND possibly learn a little more about God. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 9163213 United States02/18/2012 10:38 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] So true Once4All Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10901497 Do not let any of that stuff stand between you and Lord. Cry out to Him. He is there......and even here right now. Best wishes to you Simon. :colorbump: Amen. I think God is a lot closer to him than he even knows!!! Otherwise, like he said, he wouldn't even be talking about any of this. |
MercyMe  User ID: 1141977  Puerto Rico02/18/2012 11:38 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] So true Once4All Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10901497 Do not let any of that stuff stand between you and Lord. Cry out to Him. He is there......and even here right now. Best wishes to you Simon.  Amen. I think God is a lot closer to him than he even knows!!! Otherwise, like he said, he wouldn't even be talking about any of this. Simon, it sounds like at one time you knew Jesus. Sometimes I think its harder when you've walked away because its like your heart has become hardened. In my teenage years, I was on fire for God. I even went witnessing to the homeless in the parks. I had a passionate love for Jesus then that I have never been able to quite get back. I love Jesus, but I'vs lost the fire and drive that I had back then. I don't know if maybe it was because I was young and innocent, and hadn't been effected by this sinful world we live in. Anyway, through prayer, and visiting with other Christians on this site, its coming back! I still need to read the Bible more, but there is another thing that seems to greatly help a hardened heart; Christian music. I thought I'd post a couple of my favorites. If you get time, please listen to the words and sing along to them as a prayer. It seems to really work. I believe God really loves us to sing to him in worship. I can really feel his presence through music more than at any time. Please give it a try! I'll be praying for you! edited to add 1 more favorite:  Last Edited by MercyMe on 02/19/2012 12:13 AM ________________ “Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.” Joshua 1:9 KJV |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 11083057 United States02/19/2012 07:45 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] So true Once4All Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10901497 Do not let any of that stuff stand between you and Lord. Cry out to Him. He is there......and even here right now. Best wishes to you Simon. :colorbump: Amen. I think God is a lot closer to him than he even knows!!! Otherwise, like he said, he wouldn't even be talking about any of this. Simon, it sounds like at one time you knew Jesus. Sometimes I think its harder when you've walked away because its like your heart has become hardened. In my teenage years, I was on fire for God. I even went witnessing to the homeless in the parks. I had a passionate love for Jesus then that I have never been able to quite get back. I love Jesus, but I'vs lost the fire and drive that I had back then. I don't know if maybe it was because I was young and innocent, and hadn't been effected by this sinful world we live in. Anyway, through prayer, and visiting with other Christians on this site, its coming back! I still need to read the Bible more, but there is another thing that seems to greatly help a hardened heart; Christian music. I thought I'd post a couple of my favorites. If you get time, please listen to the words and sing along to them as a prayer. It seems to really work. I believe God really loves us to sing to him in worship. I can really feel his presence through music more than at any time. Please give it a try! I'll be praying for you! edited to add 1 more favorite: That's Awesome. Thanks Mercy Me!!! |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 10978371 Australia02/19/2012 04:23 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: GOD has certainly revealed hIS LOVE for the world through hIS only begotten son JESUS CHRIST !!! [[Summary Page 33]] So true Once4All Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10901497 Do not let any of that stuff stand between you and Lord. Cry out to Him. He is there......and even here right now. Best wishes to you Simon. :colorbump: Amen. I think God is a lot closer to him than he even knows!!! Otherwise, like he said, he wouldn't even be talking about any of this. Simon, it sounds like at one time you knew Jesus. Sometimes I think its harder when you've walked away because its like your heart has become hardened. In my teenage years, I was on fire for God. I even went witnessing to the homeless in the parks. I had a passionate love for Jesus then that I have never been able to quite get back. I love Jesus, but I'vs lost the fire and drive that I had back then. I don't know if maybe it was because I was young and innocent, and hadn't been effected by this sinful world we live in. Anyway, through prayer, and visiting with other Christians on this site, its coming back! I still need to read the Bible more, but there is another thing that seems to greatly help a hardened heart; Christian music. I thought I'd post a couple of my favorites. If you get time, please listen to the words and sing along to them as a prayer. It seems to really work. I believe God really loves us to sing to him in worship. I can really feel his presence through music more than at any time. Please give it a try! I'll be praying for you! edited to add 1 more favorite: I Knew Him alright. No one can tell me He is not real. Ive seen some amazing things. In a way ive always known Him. I can see His fingerptints all over my life..even and especially during the times I was off doing my own thing...He was still there organising events..steeing the direction...when I could not walk..or WOULD not walk..even then He carried me. He has let me walk whichever way I wanted too..but within guidlines and boundaries I could not cross. Like a racehorse..I was free to run anywhere I wanted on the track..I was free to run backwards if I liked..but I could never LEAVE the track....I am sure you know what I mean. Once He has Got you..He has GOT you..and even in the times you just dont give a shit..or try NOT to give a shit (because deep down you always DO)....He is still there..directing..waiting..teaching..guiding...and yes..chastising. Ive been doing a lot of questioning of late...letting it all out as it were. Ive had a lifetime of doctrinal crap..and dead ends lined up in front of me. I can see where I went wrong now...and thats why I dont go to church anymore..going to church is where I went wrong. Church..with its systems..its arrogance..its greed and selfishness...is what took me away from the REAL path..onto a "RELIGIOUS" path of lies and deciet dressed up as ""Christianity"..when in fact its the darkest most deceptive place one can go. If you want to destroy your relationship with Jesus...go to church. If you want to learn how to be self righteous and learn how to hate people..go to church..if you want to feel all "Elite" and "Special" and "CHOSEN"..and inflate the pride and the ego..GO to church.... Church is the best way ti kill off a TRUE relationship with Jesus..because you have MEN..always trying to SELL something..a feeling..a good time..an "Anointing"..a book..a doctrine..all confusing and treacherous.. The focus is always on SELF and POWER...never on Jesus except as a way to boost ego..make more dollars...or feel "Special"..PRIDE..always pride... I tried to God to church last night..and God made sure I could not go..so I will not go to church ever again. Church is what took me away from Him to start with. I have grown more..learnt more..and matured far more since I STOPPED going to church. I have open eyes now that the "System" has no hold on me. The anger I expressed in some of my other rants was a result of all that "Programming" coming out..and finding its release from within me. Years of LIES..half truths..and distorted truths..all washing out. Just in time too. The end HAS come. Seen it coming for a very very long time. |
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