So true Once4All
Do not let any of that stuff stand between you and Lord. Cry out to Him. He is there......and even here right now.
Best wishes to you Simon.
Quoting: Anonymous Coward 10901497 :colorbump:
Amen. I think God is a lot closer to him than he
even knows!!! Otherwise, like he said, he wouldn't even
be talking about any of this.
Simon, it sounds like at one time you knew Jesus. Sometimes I think its harder when you've walked away because its like your heart has become hardened. In my teenage years, I was on fire for God. I even went witnessing to the homeless in the parks. I had a passionate love for Jesus then that I have never been able to quite get back. I love Jesus, but I'vs lost the fire and drive that I had back then. I don't know if maybe it was because I was young and innocent, and hadn't been effected by this sinful world we live in.
Anyway, through prayer, and visiting with other Christians on this site, its coming back! I still need to read the Bible more, but there is another thing that seems to greatly help a hardened heart; Christian music. I thought I'd post a couple of my favorites. If you get time, please listen to the words and sing along to them as a prayer. It seems to really work. I believe God really loves us to sing to him in worship. I can really feel his presence through music more than at any time. Please give it a try! I'll be praying for you!
edited to add 1 more favorite:
I Knew Him alright.
No one can tell me He is not real. Ive seen some amazing things.
In a way ive always known Him. I can see His fingerptints all over my life..even and especially during the times I was off doing my own thing...He was still there organising events..steeing the direction...when I could not walk..or WOULD not walk..even then He carried me.
He has let me walk whichever way I wanted too..but within guidlines and boundaries I could not cross. Like a racehorse..I was free to run anywhere I wanted on the track..I was free to run backwards if I liked..but I could never LEAVE the track....I am sure you know what I mean.
Once He has Got you..He has GOT you..and even in the times you just dont give a shit..or try NOT to give a shit (because deep down you always DO)....He is still there..directing..waiting..teaching..guiding...and yes..chastising.
Ive been doing a lot of questioning of late...letting it all out as it were. Ive had a lifetime of doctrinal crap..and dead ends lined up in front of me. I can see where I went wrong now...and thats why I dont go to church anymore..going to church is where I went wrong.
Church..with its systems..its arrogance..its greed and selfishness...is what took me away from the REAL path..onto a "RELIGIOUS" path of lies and deciet dressed up as ""Christianity"..when in fact its the darkest most deceptive place one can go.
If you want to destroy your relationship with Jesus...go to church.
If you want to learn how to be self righteous and learn how to hate people..go to church..if you want to feel all "Elite" and "Special" and "CHOSEN"..and inflate the pride and the ego..GO to church....
Church is the best way ti kill off a TRUE relationship with Jesus..because you have MEN..always trying to SELL something..a feeling..a good time..an "Anointing"..a book..a doctrine..all confusing and treacherous..
The focus is always on SELF and POWER...never on Jesus except as a way to boost ego..make more dollars...or feel "Special"..PRIDE..always pride...
I tried to God to church last night..and God made sure I could not go..so I will not go to church ever again.
Church is what took me away from Him to start with.
I have grown more..learnt more..and matured far more since I STOPPED going to church. I have open eyes now that the "System" has no hold on me.
The anger I expressed in some of my other rants was a result of all that "Programming" coming out..and finding its release from within me.
Years of LIES..half truths..and distorted truths..all washing out.
Just in time too.
The end HAS come.
Seen it coming for a very very long time.
