(Quoted by Simon) I thought I'd shorten this posting a little. Quoting: MercyMe
I Knew Him alright.
No one can tell me He is not real. Ive seen some amazing things.
In a way ive always known Him. I can see His fingerptints all over my life..even and especially during the times I was off doing my own thing...He was still there organising events..steeing the direction...when I could not walk..or WOULD not walk..even then He carried me.
He has let me walk whichever way I wanted too..but within guidlines and boundaries I could not cross. Like a racehorse..I was free to run anywhere I wanted on the track..I was free to run backwards if I liked..but I could never LEAVE the track....I am sure you know what I mean.
Once He has Got you..He has GOT you..and even in the times you just dont give a shit..or try NOT to give a shit (because deep down you always DO)....He is still there..directing..waiting..teaching..guiding...and yes..chastising.
Ive been doing a lot of questioning of late...letting it all out as it were. Ive had a lifetime of doctrinal crap..and dead ends lined up in front of me. I can see where I went wrong now...and thats why I dont go to church anymore..going to church is where I went wrong.
Church..with its systems..its arrogance..its greed and selfishness...is what took me away from the REAL path..onto a "RELIGIOUS" path of lies and deciet dressed up as ""Christianity"..when in fact its the darkest most deceptive place one can go.
If you want to destroy your relationship with Jesus...go to church.
If you want to learn how to be self righteous and learn how to hate people..go to church..if you want to feel all "Elite" and "Special" and "CHOSEN"..and inflate the pride and the ego..GO to church....
Church is the best way ti kill off a TRUE relationship with Jesus..because you have MEN..always trying to SELL something..a feeling..a good time..an "Anointing"..a book..a doctrine..all confusing and treacherous..
The focus is always on SELF and POWER...never on Jesus except as a way to boost ego..make more dollars...or feel "Special"..PRIDE..always pride...
I tried to Go to church last night..and God made sure I could not go..so I will not go to church ever again.
Church is what took me away from Him to start with.
I have grown more..learnt more..and matured far more since I STOPPED going to church. I have open eyes now that the "System" has no hold on me.
The anger I expressed in some of my other rants was a result of all that "Programming" coming out..and finding its release from within me.
Years of LIES..half truths..and distorted truths..all washing out.
Just in time too.
The end HAS come.
Seen it coming for a very very long time.
Hi Simon! You've probably heard the old saying, "You can run, but you can't hide!" I think that is how it is with Jesus. Once you've accepted him as your Lord and Savior, he is not going to stop dealing with you, even if you turn your back on him. The Holy Spirit will keep at you until you come back into the fold. It sounds like he is really dealing with you strongly now. I think you should not totally dismiss seeking out a good church. A non-denominational one or just a Bible church where they don't teach doctrine, but just read scripture and sing songs might be a good place to start.
If you still totally reject the idea of finding a church, then just start reading the Bible and listen to the new Christian music video's that are posted alot on the different Christian threads here on GLP. Get involved with the other Christians here. They will help steer you down the right path. Search out threads started by Once4all, Troubled Waters, Lisa*Lisa, AmazingGrace, and Koffee. They are all strong Christians that can help you. They've helped me!
===============MercyMe above here, Once4All below=======
Hi Simon, I'm sorry i did not see your post. Thanks Mercy Me for highlighting it!
Jesus Christ is the most important thing in your life....
that is what matters Most. I'm happy He has you and you
have Him. May the Lord Jesus keep you in His peace.