OP, I have not read all of the thread. What is happening to you, is happening to many. Who or what causes it and how it is done is not really that important. Bottom line it is mind fuckery. (Clue: The question about the Stargate at 12/12/12 it answered both Yes and No.) Your girlfriend and your church are part of the problem. Your beliefs have been engineered. You are not your mind. Step outside yourself and watch yourself and what is happening. Begin to recognize the trickery, for it is all trickery. It is meaningless and insignificant. Do not give it significance. Soon it will go away.