I used to have big dreams... Now, I dont care about money, fame, or power.

I used to have big dreams... I mean billion dollar dreams. Every night for years and years I used to pray to God to wait a little longer and dont return yet... Not until I accomplish my goals. I thought deep about it and I realized that it was selfish. I wanted to accomplished big things to shock the world, i mean break world records, have success in any field I was in, sports (boxing/mma/muay thai), have number 1 hit records as a producer in the music industry, discover scientific breakthroughs, have incredible success in the movie industry as a director and finally become a billionaire from business... I had it all planned out and I even had a plan on how I was going to achieve those things. I used to pray to God every night to not let it be close to the end until I accomplish those things...

Ive always realized the reason why I wanted those things were to be praised by man and other worldly desires. I knew how to obtain all those things mentioned after I discovered what Nimrod from the bible discovered. When I realized how to get those things it was just a matter of time. Ive always hated time. Recently I realized that it was selfish of me to think that way. Ive always knew it was selfish and understood it but I always ignored those thoughts. I had a chance to do some deep thinking and I realized my heart was all in the wrong places.

Now I just want the Lord to return and bring back true justice. Im tired of seeing the injustice in the world. Im tired of seeing the bablyonian brain washing techniques being used on children and adult. Now I pray every night for his return, but I know what must happen first before he returns. The false messiah has to rule the world and Im ready for his reign. Seeing the injustice in the world really changed my mind about the things I want in life. I now just want Jesus to return. Im ready to be judged. If I go to hell then I wont have any complaints because I know God is a fair judge and its fair that I burn in the lake of fire and not escape the 2nd death.